They say you are what you eat... and I wouldn't mind being jet-puffed right now tbh.
New pics from me, whaddya know?? I got into a big munchie mood when I stumbled across some potential snacks and thought I'd see how I looked on camera lately... I've lost a few pounds, but my gut looks bigger than ever IMO, and those stretch marks only make it more obvious... must be those muscles melting away and turning into flab... and i'm kinda into it all over again tbh.
Who wants to see me tear into a bag of marshmallows and make an even bigger marshmallow out of myself?
Oh hey, it's Tummy Tuesday... might as well post something from that backlog eh? Clearly, all this bulking has been paying off, look what great shape I'm in!
I was really pumped so see so many people follow me here, sorry for not checking in for so long!! I've been INSANELY BUSY with freelance work, I fell off the gaining wagon and lost like 5 lbs and felt bad about it for a while, haven't even had time to get high and enjoy gorging myself on munchies... But hey, I've still got a good gut on me, and while I might not be in a gaining mood lately / have time for it (gaining like I was is kind of an all-day every-day endeavor), I've been feeling antsy to stuff myself again for the hell of it... I'll sprinkle some new pics in with these few-month-old ones when the mood strikes again.
Knowing that this is me on an empty stomach at 285 lbs is making gaining 15 lbs into a drool-inducing proposition for me... horngry doesn't begin to describe the constant drum beat urge to keep wolfing down everything in sight whenever I'm smoking the last few nights, and I'm constantly stunned by my own bottomlessness... 300 lbs might be too low of a goal if this keeps up and my mood keeps benefiting so much from the combo of weed + unlimited snacks.
Every time i walk by this mirror lately i gotta take a second to admire my profile now hehehe... looking forward to seeing how another 15 lbs looks with this view!
Hey all... I've had a bit of a breakthrough recently, so here's me dumping it before I lose the good vibes! Might be a little long, so here's a belly update from this morning as compensation - still 285 lbs after a couple months' break! And there's a tldr summary at the bottom.
So recently I started trying out my partner's e-cigarette with w_ed cartridges to help my anxiety as I work on freelance art... and not only is it super beneficial for the anxiety, as I adjust better to it, it also has the side effect of making me feel bottomlessly hungry, like eating everything that isn't nailed down and somehow still incapable of feeling full... it's basically turning into my horngry drug with a side-effect of anti-anxiety, and lately I can't stop thinking about what it would happen if I combined this crazy new appetite with the access to junk food and permission to indulge that I gave myself a few months ago...
So... I think I'm gonna try some stuff again, and since I feel bad about disappearing on people who paid here, I'm gonna make my OF free for a while and see how I like it.
My anxiety was so bad in February and March I started having a lot of acid reflux again, and money was too tight to do more than an occasional stuffing if somebody bought me a gift card or sent me a big tip (if I didn't have to spend it on bills right away), and I knew I probably needed a break... but I also felt bad for letting people down who were really really supportive! So I was just kinda stuck for a couple months, which is whatever since I needed a break anyway. But I'm really sorry to people who may have been disappointed by my lack of content. I hope I can make it up with a backlog of posts I've been building up, and a couple specific challenges that I owe to a couple of wonderful supporters, like a 10k calorie day for starters~
I've been lurking my feedism Tumblr a lot ever since but haven't had the courage to post anything again... until last night when I realized how consistently I felt the urge to get back into stuffing & gaining pics again whenever I smoked, and figured today I'd say something while I was riding that afterglow. As much as I tried to deny it, a big part of my second-guessing myself has been anxiety about my visible weight gain... I suddenly started getting a ton of stretch marks on my lower belly in February that surprised me, and made me feel really self-conscious as other vaccinated friends have talked about going to the beach again when summer got here (which it now basically is summer) But lately, as I sit here feeling blissed out in my munchies, it hit me that feeling like i need to lose weight just for one (1) beach trip when I feel so happy otherwise would be stupid. I'll just wear a shirt if I still feel self-conscious about my stretch marks. The pandemic isn't over yet, who gives a fuck, right?
My partner and I are finally fully vaccinated too now, and not only is that a big load off our shoulders, she's kept dropping hints over the last few months about how much she likes my belly and gotten more handsy, and expressed that she was not opposed to helping me out here and there with photos, maybe the occasional video... so that's definitely still something I want to try if either of us can work up the nerve for 👀
So yeah, I'm thinking I'm gonna see about hitting that goal of 300 lbs again, albeit slower. I'm still at 285 lbs, same as when I last left off, and 15 lbs sounds so small to me now after putting on ~30 in a month and a half. I've got most of a bag of mass gainer left, and another bottle of those EatMor appetite stimulant capsules (not that I need them - the w_ed really does a ton to kick my appetite into overdrive hehe) Aaaand my partner offered to bake me a few entire cake mixes we've had sitting around from my amazon wishlist, and maybe help me eat em💦💦💦 (Which, by the way, I've refreshed my wishlist a bit with snacks that would help me along my gain or worked well with my routine in the past! https://www.amazon.com/hz/wis… )
I'm gonna try to get back into lifting too so I'm happier overall with how my body feels, but mostly I just kinda wanna have fun with indulging again. The pandemic isn't over, why not go ahead and hit my goal of 300 lbs while I have an easy time giving myself permission?
Also, I'm not going to attempt to treat this as a monetized side-hustle anymore, gonna go ahead and share my tumblr-safe stuff to tumblr, and any spicier stuff here... I'm just gonna do it for my own gratification whenever I can comfortably afford it, or when people enable me with tips or wishlist things~ I've got a ton of pics I never posted that I'm gonna sort through, any feedback def helps encourage me to keep going!
BUT YEAH TL;DR making this OF free and starting back up on gaining to 300 lbs more casually! Just gonna encourage people to like, comment, and tip on the kinds of posts they want to see more of, and to check my wishlist for clothes or foods you'd like to see me make a photoshoot out of! Feel free to send me prompts for things to wear or try out, too, and if i don't feel like putting down the $$ to grab em for myself, I'll put them on my wishlist! Here's to 300 lbs~ 🥂
moment the pizza is finished, shirt comes off to admire the progress...
god i need to do this more often, looking at myself in these pics a couple weeks later i can't believe that gut is mine, and i feel such a deep hunger to make it so much bigger;;;;;
Further pizza antics I forgot to upload, finishing pizza #1 and getting into pizza #2... looking at these now after a little time has passed since taking them, I'm really like, DAMN I am getting F-A-T....
Ate that entire 1st medium pizza in like 15 mins, wanted to take a second before I got started on pizza #2 to just admire my progress for a bit... i cannot get over how quick my gut is to inflate away from the rest of my body when i'm empty, let alone when I stuff myself like this... kinda makes my head swim imagining where I'm gonna wind up if i'm around ~285 lbs right now, and i've got another 15 lbs to gain to hit my goal of 300 now that I'm redoubling my efforts to just GET BIGGER...
Apologies for the pause in posts, had to take some time to really hunker down and focus on freelance client work, so i had to take a bit of a break from lifting.... but not from eating all the junk food I had around the house, though. Got some pizza to celebrate clearing some milestones a few nights ago and sat down to just veg out and dick around on games for a night, and holy SHIT the moment I put on a shirt I haven't worn in a couple years I can see I've gotten even rounder, just in the last couple weeks.... also I couldn't weight myself cause my scale is out of batteries lol, who knows what I'll find 👀
One thing's for sure, if I've lost anything from taking a break, i'm gonna be gaining it back in a hurry... 🍕
weighed in at 288.8 today... all that stuffing a couple nights ago def did some damage
also last night's arm workout was great and i can practically feel my muscles inflating today, just love feeling myself expand in every direction 🤤
i also love that i can completely switch up my physique based on whether i'm relaxed or flexing, going from circle to triangle back to circle with the push of a button and making both shapes more extreme each day
I haven't just been stuffing my face for the past month... I've also been lifting huge. Because that's what I want to be - huge. And I'd say I'm doing a pretty fucking good job so far, no thanks to all the snacks and gift cards you all have been sending me off my wishlist. I'm practically inflating in every direction, and haven't lost any momentum since I started a month ago by bulking up nearly a pound a day. All I really have to do is keep this gut stuffed, but not content with just doing that, I keep finding new ways to stretch it further.
If you want to see me feast even bigger than I did last night, throw a few tips my way and I'll see how ridiculously stuffed I can get with 10,000 calories in a single day. I'd love to see what gaining 2 lbs a day feels like, and I know you all would love to see how it looks on me too~
Imagine, if you will, what it feels like to consume 5,000 to 6,000 calories a day for over a month, and nearly every single day feel another pound worth of new thickness showing up between your hands.
Seeing as how I'm growing nearly a pound a day, I figure it'll pay off to keep up with some stretchmark cream to keep this orb of a gut nice and smooth. (Though it turns out there is such a thing as too much of this lotion, noticed it started pilling up a bit on my side from the friction in the 2nd vid, oops lol.)
The bigger I get, the better it feels to run my hands over all this new expanse of me...
It takes a lot of work to grow this gut, you know. 258 lbs to 285 lbs in a month and change, you know how much willful gluttony that involves? I'm thinking it deserves some admiration for how much rounder I've made it recently.
I've got a few others that I felt pretty close to busting out of when I picked them up at goodwill a couple weeks ago, I'll have some fun popping more buttons next time I get this stuffed again.
And who knows, by the time i hit 300 lbs, I might be exploding out of my old large shirts too...
felt in the mood to try on a Medium button down shirt since I was feeling so huge... definitely made me feel even huger, as I can barely even move in it, it's stretched so tight now... and when I finally sat down, sure enough... well, I'll make that its own post. 💥
a little time passed and i just feel like i'm swelling up even bigger,,,, it's tough to capture on camera how eye-popping huge I look to myself in my own reflection, downright entranced by my gut lately
post drive-thru binge... felt absolutely spherically stuffed, just marveling at how round i feel from the inside out when i eat this much, walking around the room i simultaneously feel like a balloon floating around, and also like i'm being led by the forward momentum of a cannonball attached to my torso
Went out to do laundry, stopped for burger king between loads... then stopped again for taco bell while waiting for the dryer... getting seriously addicted to fast food, i made a pig of myself wolfing down 3k+ calories in the parking lot💦💦💦
wore the size L version of my favorite flannel button down since it was laundry day, had a button come loose on it and didn't even notice for a while... wish i'd been taking video the whole time, but my battery was perilously low and i had to be pretty low-key since it was tough to find enough privacy in a big enough parking lot to really relax my gut all the way out;;; Next time I go out for some multi-restaurant fast food binge, I'll plan ahead more and get some more real-time belly bulging, because I dunno what it was about being out in the car, but I was suddenly able to inhale a ton of food exhilaratingly fast... soon as I got home I had to get a better look at just how round I'd stuffed myself, check my next post~
squeezed into an old Large button down shirt, not very stretchy material so it fits like a medium... im not QUITE big enough to pop any buttons yet tho, so I'll have to check again when I hit 300 lbs.
in the meantime, shirts like this really emphasize my ball gut while standing, big fan of that hehe
so i got sent a medium button down shirt off my wishlist (along with a 2nd bottle of appetite stimulants hehe), with the note "hope you can still button it by the time it arrives"... and, well, I could only get a single button done by the time it did, and only if i sucked in super hard, which is no fun for busting out of... Gonna exchange it for some trail mix to pack a few more pounds on so I can bust out of a large shirt instead~
I hadn't worn this coat in a few weeks since it's been a bit warmer, but threw it on the other day and the sleeves and shoulders are super tight all of a sudden... also if i don't suck in, my gut really juts out the front 😳
Welp, I've passed 280 lbs, weighed in at 281 the other morning. Got a little worried I'd start losing weight since we had guests stay over for a week, and I had to tone it down on the stuffing shenanigans - thank goodness for having so much mass gainer shakes to rely on. Decided to celebrate the milestone and having my studio to myself again with pizzas, naturally.
That's 23 lbs gained in 30 days.... imagine what I could do with a little less distraction!
a good workout should be accompanied by a good feast... used up the remainder on a couple gift cards off my wishlist to grab taco bell & burger king in one late night run (these were from the 13th, so i'm more than a few pounds heavier now hehe, just catching up on pics)
got sent a fisheye lens off my wishlist by SeaOttress / gulfofotter, took a couple test pics with it first thing in the morning on an empty belly - looking forward to figuring out some photography techniques with it~
today's workout was frustratingly difficult, so i made myself feel better with those wendy's gift cards i got sent off my wishlist... but wasn't satisfied with the amount of food i got, so i had a second serving of mass gainer
also, at 275 lbs here, really seeing that 18 pounds gained in 24 days starting to show up...
bought a few medium shirts at goodwill the other day... buttons were about ready to pop on this one if i sat down, gonna be sure to capture that on video~
