Todays outfit of the day was my PJs lmao 🤣 I didn’t have to do anything today!! Didn’t have to take anyone anywhere or ANYTHING ❤️ But that doesn’t mean I wasnt inspired to do soo many fun things!! I got to do yoga and meditate and make fun content for you lovely people! Then shortly after noon me and my mother went to our olds neighbors house to DRAW and color and sing and smoke weed and talk shit and I went live on TikTok which sparked the perfect idea I my head! I fucking love coloring!! I felt like the happiest lil eeight year old lol and I bet people would love to watch sped up clips of that sort of stuff so maybe I can start doing thst when I’m not playing music too! 🥰
Good morning my favorite people 😘 Today I felt so easily inspired to share one of my favorite of all time meditations. Sending love to a loved one in need ❤️ To love someone is to take them as a part of yourself, And I’m this meditation that’s exactly what we will be doing. You will need: ✨A nice quite comfortable place to relax and potentially ball your eyes out ✨WATER ✨Your beautiful heart
There are 3 HIGH IMPORTANT PARTS TO THIS MEDITATION, at least I think so.
1st stage is getting your mind to slow down, getting into the receptive mode. My favorite way to do this is by counting to 4 between each breath and giving that my undivided focus for 5 to 10 minutes. If you feel your mind is still restless by that time, a different technique might work better like chanting or doing a body scan, or perhaps try counting the breath for a longer duration.
Second stage is the most important of all in my opinion, I mean they are all extremely necessary but without doing this, you cannot be of TRUE service to anyone. Here we are putting our attention to our heart, and inhaling whatever has recently ruffled our OWN feathers, taking it into our hearts and Turing it to love so that whatever is inside of us is not hate, resentment, and anger when thinking about our loved one. This involves asking yourself what kinda unresolved emotions do u have going on, and doing something with it instead of ignoring it. 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 FUN! But so IMPORTANT!
Then the final and my favorite part, now that our cognitive oven has been preheated, it’s time to send the love! This is a very visual part of the meditation so I like closing my eyes. We picture our loved on In front of us, what do they look like? Do they look well or Ill? Imagine it’s just you and them together just enjoying one another company and presence. You can see their heart and your own beating together. During the meditation I decided to imagine embracing my loved on in my arms as I began the process of taking in anything within them that is not of service into my own heart with each inhale. Then from my heart the burdens turn into love where I can give back to my loved one 🥺❤️ This is a very emotional process especially when doing it for someone you care for and love, even more so when they are not feeling their best.
You will know for how long you should do this, by the end you will be feeling so LIGHT and full of love!! If you watched every minute and read any of this, You’re my favorite!
Oh 👏🏼 My 👏🏼 God 👏🏼 Lol this shit HITS for mee personally ! Let’s get into it! the High Priestess is the guardian of the subconscious mind and the teacher of sacred knowledge and hidden mysteries. Sitting at the threshold of the conscious and subconscious mind 🧠 She teaches you that the world is not always as it seems and more profound influences are often at play! ;) you are being called to embrace the Divine Feminine, your connection to your intuition, compassion, empathy, and inner wisdom. Feel, rather than think. Collaborate, rather than compete. Create, rather than destroy. Trust your Divine Feminine energy, even if the masculine energy around you may appear to be stronger. Be proud of your ability to nurture, trust, sense, and empathise instead of hiding it away. ✨✨✨ DAMN SON! Alright so the subject of “The TRUTH” has been so prevalent in my life recently since me and Melissa reunited and she had found JESUS. We get in many heated debates on our opposing beliefs. people like her go their entire life repeating, memorizing, and reciting regurgitated prophecies in order to whip em out automatically to give the illusion of winning what should be an open minded debate. And it’s stuff like this that makes me just look at them and go Bruh I know god more than you do 😭😭😭😭😭 I get my answers directly from source energy in every waking moment by being present to the signs, synchronicities all around me, and through The powerful stillness of MEDITATION!! so that I can have an actual respectful and openminded conversation with someone when the concept of God arises because I am not trying to defend my own position,, or convince anyone that my way is the right way. It’s such a liberating way to live. And when you stop stuffing yourself with a bunch of confusing information about what you think god doesn’t want you to do. It’s common sense. God didn’t want you to be a walking regurgitater unable to think for themselves cuz they disowned their own mind and heart because “humans are flawed” and “the heart is deceiving” and “God is the only one who knows what’s best for me”
It’s crap. And I wish so desperately to take her by the head and say DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW THAT MAKES NO SENSE!!! AH
so of COURSE this card shows up! My queen highest priestess 🙏 We are extensions of god. We are god playing a mad game of sims that went too far but here we are! 🤣 let’s fucking enjoy it!
🃏 ACE OF RAPHAEL TBH goes hand in hand with what I just word vomited to you 🤣 there’s a huge shift going on. And I think that’s why me and Melissa have perhaps reunited?? I’m still trying to figure out why lol and for how long it will be!? 🤔 I know that she doesn’t have a stable foundation of true core beliefs. She second guessed herself constantly and doubts her decisions and choices and is constantly looking for VALIDATION and ADVICE from people outside of her. It’s interesting to watch cuz I have never been like that ever in my life. It’s why her and Tyler Dunbar get along so well lol. 🤣🤣 ANWAY holy shit that was A LOT but then minute I pulled that card everything just CAME TO ME SO, that’s why I do this 🤣
Let me know, what are your thoughts on spirituality? Religion? A cocktail of the two? Is it stupid to think we know anything?? Yes
GUYS I WORE JEANS TODAY FOR LIKE THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE 3 WHOLE YEARS 🤣 found these gem size 0 flare pants and they aree 👌🏼 A LITTLE bit too long but not enough to matter 🤣
I’m really loving having a tapestry to take photos in front of!! 🥰🥰🥰
TODAYS TAROT/ANGEL READING ✨ we got an extra card today too 👀 🃏 first card is Temperance Reversed! This card is usually your invitation (or sometimes, your warning signal) to restore balance and moderation as soon as possible. You may have been over-eating, regularly drinking, buying things you can’t afford, arguing with loved ones, or engaging in negative thought patterns. These activities are taking you further away from who you are and what you are here to do. You can ignore it and carry on with life as usual. But, heed Temperance’s warning: If you stay in this state for too long, that voice will just get louder and louder until you pay attention. ✨✨✨✨ Damn! I feel this shit! Lol since moving into our new home I have made a complete 180 with my diet. I cut out all dairy and animal products pretty cold turkey and I’ve only been eating fruits and vegetables for like maybe 4 days lol and I’ve been noticing my body letting me know it’s not getting enough of what I’m giving. Crazy shit! 🤡 better start whippin out those vegan recipe books!
🃏 The first of our 2 angels card is the queen of Gabriel! This card is a wonder encouragement and reminder to move forward with confidence in your natural talents skills and abilities in order to lead by example for loved ones to do the same for themselves! ✨✨✨
🃏 our second Angel card is the six of Ariel! What you give is what you get! Theres really no greater gift than to give to someone without expectations of anything in return. To give because it is in a way also receiving something. Today let’s open our hearts to receiving and giving love like we have never done before!
ITS MY 100th ONLYFANS POST 🎉 I thought I’d celebrate by taking a photo of myself literally right now as I am eating a bagel with fruit on it lmao. You deserve that kind of authenticity! Have I ever told you… THANK YOU for being here, with me??? Do you know how much love I have for you????? Without you I would be talking to myself, which is cool sometimes but I never really have anything new to add to the conversation. If you are reading this I would love for you to take the time to comment at least something weather it be about how our paths crossed or why you decided to subscribe, or you could simply just say anything you feel inspired to ❤️ I know that what I’m doing now is merely a very rough rough draft in comparison to what it will evolve into, so to know that I still have you amazing people supporting me and encouraging me to keep pushing for better everyday while I’m still learning the grooves.
I love you, Thank you for loving me so that I could reflect it back to you! ✨
Todays outfit of the day 🦋 A very late post but I fucking LOVE flare pants people 🥺🥺 But I’m so short it’s so hard to find them that arent long as hellll 😭😭😭 I need like 20 more in all different kinds of colors lmao. I had a wonderful day today spending time with Tyler and my friend Melissa. I knew her back when I was in beauty school while she was in esthetician school. We connected quite naturally but she had a very possessive and toxic partner at the time so after graduating I didn’t try to stay in constant because I didn’t want to get involved.
Fast forward almost 3 yearss later I take Tyler to a random church on a random Wednesday and I randomly decide to go inside with him which is when I see her Again!! And she ditched her toxic ex mans!! Since then we have spent a considerable amount of time together! She’s a different breed. She’s a Leo. Like me. But I think she embodies that energy like nobody I’ve ever met lol. She’s christian. She’s a lot for most people and I’m sure that many people are put off by her natural loud and expressive personality. I know my mother already wonders why I choose to spend time with her. I’m no stranger to what that feels like tho lol and I don’t care because nobody knows her like I do. She’s completely different in public than personally. There very few people that I feel I can emotionally connect to but when it’s just me and her in a room together being open and honest with each other about who we are and how we feel no matter how fucked up some things might sound out loud, I feel this sense of intimacy that I have never experienced with any other human especially comparing it to my relationships in the past. It’s really fucking beautiful bro. And idk wtf! To do! About a week ago she broke up with her boyfriend IN MY CAR LOL and since then she told me she has been having a conflict within her mind about her religion And her sexuality. She’s talking about experimenting physical intimacy with other women and today directly asked me if that was something I was open to.
IS IT?? 🤣 it seems as tho the universe has placed a perfect beautiful learning opportunity right in my lap. In the form of a pretty 5’3” christian girl ready to awaken her suppressed lesbian behaviors?? 😳😳😳😳 And the timing of it all is so weird especially thinking about how much time it’s been since my previous dumpster of a relationship ended. I know that I’m not going to overthink anything. I read my horoscope today and it gave me everything I needed when I needed it. What is meant to be will be and the best way for me to be in alignment with what is, is to go with that flow, listen to what feels right and only move forward with what feels right. I know that we are in each other’s lives for a significant reason. She feels like someone I know very well. What will be Will be lol
Todays tarot reading of the day! DOUBLE MAGICIAN!! 😳👏🏼✨ I nearly peed myself when I saw this!! My mouth sure did drop. every card reversed has a different meaning as apposed to when a card is shown upright! So these 2 cards still have completely different messages!
🃏 Our first card is the Magician REVERSED. The magician represents someone who has grasped the skill of asking for your desires and then aligning up to it. When in reverse this can feel more like exploring what we wish to manifest, but we are not taking action yet. If we are already acting on your goal, the reversed Magician can be a sign that we are struggling to see progress or success. In a career reading, the Magician reversed shows many skills, talents, and capabilities, but real potential is not being maximized. We may realize there is so much more to give. Or perhaps you know you are great at something, but you have not allowed yourself the opportunity to nurture and explore this skill. What is impeding you from using these abilities? What needs to change for you to reach your fullest potential?
🃏 our Angel card is the UPRIGHT magician! Arche Angel Raziel appears of course after the reversed to remind us that WE are still always the creators of our own reality. And if we are fed up with something manifesting in our lives it is up to us to change from within so that the external world can follow. As a master manifestor, the Magician brings us the tools, resources and energy we need to make our dreams come true. Seriously, everything you need right now is at your fingertips. You have the spiritual (fire), physical (earth), mental (air) and emotional (water) resources to manifest your desires. And when you combine them with the energy of the spiritual and earthly realms, you will become a manifestation powerhouse! The key is to bring these tools together synergistically so that the impact of what you create is greater than the separate parts. This is alchemy at its best!
This has been on my mind a lot lately! When we really sit down and forget about all the unimportant details which cloud our judgement about this crazy physical reality, At the end of the day. If you take a look at the whole picture everything is perfectly unfolding at the exact time and everything that needs to be is. Or else we would simply not exist at all.
Super quick and simple asf outfit of the day! It’s so hard for a shorty like me to find shorts or pants that don’t make me look ridiculous. These are okay 🤣
Today tarot reading ✨🌈💋 🃏 first card is the PAGE OF SWORDS 🗡 The Page of Swords is a card of, passion and enthusiasm. Today we are bursting with new ideas and plans for the future. There may be excitement about starting a new project, pursuing a new approach or learning something new. It feels eel as though you could do almost anything – and you can! The challenge, however, is whether you can keep it up. As with all Pages, the beginning always looks promising, but you need something else to follow through and keep up the pace. ✨ I FEEL THAT SHIT! Lol Since I moved into my new home I feel like I’m bursting with new ideas for my music, doing tarot and clairvoyance work, yoga and meditation and maybe someday make up and hair shit too! It’s a lot! And I have so much drive to do it now! For now! 🤣 I know that anything that no longer brings me joy I can let go at any time.
Anyway our Angel CARD today is 🃏 THE 4 OF MICHAEL Which says “ “It’s time to take break! The situation you find yourself in will not benefit from more action on your part at this moment. Step back. Let it go. It would probably be best not to even think about it for a little while. Resist the urge to challenge those who disagree with you. The key to a successful solution is likely to arise from meditation or the unexpected epiphanies that come while on a quiet walk. Are you getting enough sleep? If you’ve been ill, make sure you take all the time necessary for a full recovery.” This ALSO relates to me today actually on a completely different subject in my life! 🤣 My job outside of music is being a respite caregiver for my friend Tyler who has high functioning Autism. I take him to work, to go grocery shopping, and to any social events he wishes to attend. Recently we have been seeing each other more than ever before and I have inform maxed the amount of hours I can even spend with him while still getting paid, on top of that I have been needed a break mysef. And that’s exactly what I get today! 🥰
I hope you read this! Lol And if you did I would love to hear your thoughts on the reading and if it resonated with you or not 🥰
Todays outfit of the day 🧡💗💚💜💛 I also put on a somewhat full face of make up on for the first time in a LONG time. It’s a lot of fun and I would love to expand my knowledge on it cuz I really have no clue what I’m doing so don’t judge me too hard 🤣
I got this shirt from target and the skirt from an old friend 🥰 then I bought the butterfly necklace from rue21 earlier today! I like it!
The last video is me stupidly singing and dancing to music which even tho I look ridiculous I don’t care and expect to see more of me doing it 🤣🤷🏼♀️
Happy Monday morning! ✨ Its my first Daily Tarot Reading ever on ONLYFANS 👏🏼♥️ Yay! This is one of the many things I am very passionate about and excited to learn more on! And what best way to do that by sharing what I already know with you! Let’s get to it!👏🏼 Dude can I point out before I start how these 2 cards from 2 completely different decks look FREAKISHLY FAMILIAR??! That’s how you know this shit is real lol 😳
🃏The first card I pulled today was Death 💀. wonder what that means huh I’m so happy this card came up first cuz this is probably the most misunderstood cards of the whole deck lol! The death card represents endings, change, transformation and transitions! Not just physical death and unhappy times 🙄 This card symbolizes the end of a major phase or aspect of your life that you realise is no longer serving you, opening up the possibility of something far more valuable and essential. Death is also a sign that you need to learn to let go of unhealthy attachments in your life to pave the way to a fuller, more fulfilled life of deeper meaning and significance. See this as a time to cut out excess and let go of what is unnecessary for your life. Purge the old belongings, memories and baggage that are getting in your way.
🃏 The second card is an Angel card, not a tarot card, and is more used for a quick burst of divine inspiration from some of our arche angels! 👼 The card we got today is the knight of Ariel! It looks so much like the death card even the way the Angel is crouched down in front of the horse! 👀 I’m seeing horses everywhere lately too! ANWAY Out with the old (death) in with the new! 🌈 From our new desires rise new opportunities and vice versa. What are you feeling inspired to create into the world right now? ✨ Do you feel you’ve outgrown a situation and already for something new?? Make a perfect delicious plan on how you would like everything to unfold before you and it should feel so fun when you do this because it’s having a one on one conversation with your inner being about making your dreams reality! The time is now, there’s so much to do and we are being divinely guided the whole way by our ancestors and spirits who think we are cool! 😊
For some reason this card says as a person it would be a vegan or vegetarian which is fucking hilarious because that’s what I’ve been really REALLY been working on this week getting back into my core values when it comes to food my body and the sentient beings I share the world with.👀👀👀
This reading resonated with me A LOT! I would ADORE to hear your two cents on this post in general and the reading :) what did you think? Does any of this sing to you? ♥️
Happy Sunday! 🌞 here was my outfit of the day with my newest wig that I wore doing my TikTok live a few minutes ago 🥰 I got my tapestry up in my bedroom today! What do you think??
Happy Friday my friends ♥️ It’s been 3 days in my new home and ive already cried 😭🤣 I had a rough moment today that triggered a very unhealed wound within me once again haha. When I got everything set up in my room I actually felt in love. I finally had natural lighting for recording my videos and more space!! I was so excited to start making videos to share!! When I’m the middle of recording a song for TikTok in my new bedroom I could hear my mother go into my sister room then she barged into my room while I was recording to tell me that the walls in this house are thin and everyone can hear me and that we need to put sound proof foam pads in my bedroom. Idk whyyyyy but this really Ooof hurt my heart Because all I heard was that I was torturing everyone with my voice lol. And I don’t know what happened i automatically just ran outside to my backyard and began sobbing. I am so very self conscious of myself. It’s takin so much balls to get to where I am today with very little emotional support from the people around me. I had to learn to give 0 fucks cuz if I did then I couldn’t share anything with anyone. I I have grown so much but I am still that small fragile childd afraid of being the runt from the litter. I know that everything happens for a reason and there’s something in me that needs love. That is my work. I still have a lot of false beliefs and warped ways of thinking about myself and my creations. I’m ready to think new things lol.
Welcome to my new bedroom ✨ It’s not my favorite! Lol very small amount of space in these 4 walls but I’m going to make the best of it. This is where I am gonna really commit myself to learning. To growing and sharing everything I know with everyone who will listen. I’m going to put time into recording stuff on Spotify! I’m going to put time into learning tarot! I’m going to put time into creating easier to follow along yoga/workout practices! I’m going to put more time into my ONLYFANS! Posting more than any other platform cuz y’all deserve it ♥️ We are only renting this house for a year unless they let us rent again, so who knows where I will be living a year from now. I’m going to sing from my heart and dance with every cell in my being in this house because anywhere I can do that freely is what I call home. I’m excited! It’s only the winds of change that can blow you closer towards your desires Blow me bitch! That’s what he said.
I can’t wait to get a certain gift set up that was sent to me by one of my amazing subscribers 🥰✨🌈
Good Friday morning!♥️ I’m at the gym in my hotel! I just did a crazy work out but swipe to follow along to an easy to follow yin yoga!! It’s been a few days in the hotel and I’m doing ALRIGHT haha I’m ready to get into our new home tho I feel this in between moment is very important. I’m working on cutting out old habits and incorporating sustainable new ones so that I’m already in the rhythm of it when I move into the house. That’s one of my favorite things about environmental change is it makes it much easier to form news was of thinking and perceiving and forms of habit!! 🥰🥰🥰
Happy Tuesday! This is my HOBO attire for the day because we are finally in our hotel. We had to move 3 of our cats and our dog into the hotel along with their cat tree and beds. They are very stressed out and my mother is beyond stressed as well so I’m just trying to be the best service I can be when I can.
I have my own room the the hotel tho so maybe I can try to go live! 🥰
Happy Saturday ✨ here’s a meditation I learned last night on visualizing and integrating your future self with your present self ♥️ I’m thinking about starting to maybe post a tarot card of the day on ONLY FANS to help me learn the deck better and to also share some wisdom with y’all 😉
Everything in my house is packed. We leave Tomorrow to be crammed in a hotel for 10 days til our new house is ready and I don’t know how I’m going to survive this 🤣 send all the love you can plsss!
Good morning people! Only a few days left til we are leaving my house for good. Only to be cooped up in a hotel with all of our animals for 10 days once our new house is ready for our entry 💀 its gonna be rough lol send prayers 🤣 I’m not sure how this will effect my wifi and ability to post/ go live 🥺🥺🥺 so if i go a little bit MIA in the next few days please know this is the reason! This yoga was my celebration of the full lunar eclipse yesterday that seemed to change the world overnight lol. As 3 planets recently went into retrograde you can imagine things are about to get shwifty alongside this moon magic.
I’d love to hear if life has thrown any curve balls into your life field lately?
Good evening my favorite 🌞 I’m on a lil trip visiting my family for the weekend! I’m coming home tomorrow morning and I’m already ready to do so 🤣 I write this to you as I just ate a slice of a pot brownie that my uncle just handed to me, There is some crazy woo woo energy into the air these days. Can u feel it?
Good thursday morning! 🦋 swipe for a wonderful meditation! This morning I did one on observing a specific emotion and observing it outside the body :) I’ve done this one before but it’s always a different experience each time you do it! 🥰
So they say that self love is a never ending journey;,, I’m starting to see why. In every moment we are changing both mentally and physically causing us to adjust to the newest THING. Is there really such thing as perfect? Does right now feel better when ur wishing you had something you don’t current have? From first hand experience let me tell you that trying to change something into what you want by HATING where you are or trying to escape will not only be a waste of energy but will always drive you insane 🌞 3 yearss ago today i would be screaming and crying at the body I have right now. I know because the lil demon thoughts try resurfacing often, and I hear them but don’t feed into it. I love my body so much and it lovES ME SO MUCH TOO 🥰
Good Tuesday morning! This is a random quick yoga I did this morning, I need to plan a little bit on what I want to do before I just hit the record button 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 I have been really pre occupied with other things apart from my music lately! It’s very interesting, I’ve become interested in putting more time into making my meals at home rather than going out all the time and i am enjoying the process:) Anyway I hope you are having a wonderful morning! I am 🌞✨💭
PART 2 from my previous post using a weight ball that’s about 12 pounds. I love using this! It’s super easy and simple and doesn’t cause a great amount of stress on your poor body!!
Good Sunday morning 🌞 this is part 1 of 2 clips sharing my yoga routine this morning. This half is without the weighted ball, just me stretching out and activating all of my little muscles 🥰✨ If you follow along, please remember to breathe and have water nearby!
Good Saturday morning my friends! Life is moving and I’m going with it! Yall I’m gonna be honest lately a lot of demons of mine around the subject of loving thy body and giving it what it needs have been coming up from the shadows. This is okay tho! Because I am ready to face them. And give them what they really need in order to heal. I haven’t been listening to my body. I would succumb to gratifying my sensory tastes buds with overstimulating, unnatural, toxic “food”, filling a temporary void of feeling whole for a short moment, rather than taking care of the underlying reason behind the void being there in the first place, and from healing that wound I can stand firmly in my choices and behaviors to treat my body like the magnificent creation it is, and fuel it with things that empower and heal 🌈✨
Hello, it’s me ☺️ Once again I want to apologize for not being very consistent with posting through here 🙏😭 So many things happening these days it seems. I’m still trying to find my ground. I’ve had to do a lot of self reflection and shadow work lately. It’s funny cuz I recently got into a new cycle a few days ago on “releasing and advancing” which is all about past traumas coming up and giving you the opportunity to finally heal those wounds for real. It describes perfectly how I began feeling a few days ago. Anyway I felt scared to share those lower moments which is why I have not been posting. But from this point forward that ends because the whole point of being alive to so be who you are and share that with the world free of shame and judgement. I wrote a small little song which might someday have more lyrics but that’s the second side. It just came to me this morning out of no where and like always I have no clue why I wrote it.
Hello my sweet friends I’m so sorry I’ve not been active on here too much.. I’ve been going though so many new things in life including preparing to move.swipe to see today’s weird yoga routine I was very baked 😳👏🏼✨ I’m also having some intense body dysmorphia and I’m having issues taking pictures of myself right now. As my night comes to an end Im about to do a meditation on this ! 🦋.
