TODAYS TAROT READING FOR THURSDAY AUGUST 5th, 2021!
🐎 THE CHARIOT! 🐎
The Chariot tarot card is all about overcoming challenges and gaining victory through maintaining control of your surroundings. This perfect control and confidence allows the charioteer to emerge victorious in any situation. The use of strength and willpower are critical in ensuring that you overcome the obstacles that lie in your path. The Chariot's message comes to make you stronger as you strive to achieve your goals.
The key message that he brings to you is that you must maintain focus, confidence, and determination through a process that will be full of winding turns and detours. If you have a plan or a project that you seem not to be sure about, the Chariot shows that you should pursue the plan with a structured and ordered approach. Your boldness will ensure that you achieve all that you should in this, pursue the plan with a structured and ordered approach
In the Chariot's quest for his goal, he may display some behavior that he has never seen within himself before - competition and a desire to succeed has perhaps brought out a more aggressive part of his personality. Aggression is a natural part of human nature, and the Chariot reminds you that it can also be used to help you take charge of your situation, but also must be reined in so that it does not hinder your way forward.
✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ LOL I HEAR YOU UNIVERSE. you can’t get where u want to be if you don’t believe in the present moment you who is in the becoming of where you want to be 🤣 I do this THING where I plant really beautiful seeds of confidence for my abilities and work,,, And then they get uprooted almost anytime I hear myself singing 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 I got a wonky relationship to my creative projects which is WHYYY I’ve not yet reached 1000 followers but I’m cleaning my shit up. I know how this weird universe works. All of me has to be moving forward in the same direction for the magic to come forth. LETSDOITTTTT
✨🤩⭐️ THE STAR ⭐️🤩✨
You are on the right path and starting to shine after a period of darkness. Now is the time to make a wish and visualize the outcome you truly desire. It's 100% OK to be yourself, as there is no one like you. Find your sense of purpose and make your dreams come true!
Action should not be delayed any longer than necessary when the opportunity presents itself, for there is no indication of when this will happen again. Trust in the universe, the Divine, and one’s own intuition is suggested.
The goldfish, a symbol of opportunity and balance, leaps joyfully out of the invigorating waters.
Part 2 of my outfit of the day! My friend got me this one piece that’s actually a swimsuit but today it was my SHIRT then my precious bell bottoms 😇🌞✨ Swip to see my cat fez join me in the photography 🌞
I took some somewhat better pictures of my make up before I took it off lol this looks to me, compared to what I know I’m gonna someday be doing , looks like pooo but that’s okay! 🤣
PART 1 OF MY OUTFIF OF THE DAY 😇 ONLYFANS is acting weird none of my photos are showing up at the moment so that’s a BIT ODD 😳 lmk if you can see this post!
GREEN KIWI SMOOTHIE!😳🌞 AND THE PANCAKES 😳🌝 THEN MY FAVORITE RICE PAPER ROLLS! 😘🙏 WHICH TOOK ME FOREVER TO FINALLY GET HOW TO ROLL THE PAPER ROLLS CORRECTLY 🤣 but I did it! And I feel fantastic!! Making the food and playing with it may even be more fun than eating it, but it’s an awesome bonus 😇🌝 I got HELLA baked before I made dinner tonight and it was one of the most beautiful experiences of my entire life. I was looking at the red cabbage in my hands realizing just how similar it looked to the human brain. I marveled in its magnificence and sang and danced for it like a crazy person cuz nobody else was home. This is becoming such a wonderful part of my day, 3 times a day! 🤣🥰
TODAYS TAROT CARD / ANGEL CARD READING FOR WEDNESDAY AUGUST 4th 2021
🌞🌞🌞🌞 THE SUN 🌞🌞🌞🌞
The Sun Tarot card radiates with optimism and positivity. A large, bright sun shines in the sky, representing the source of all life on Earth. Underneath, four sunflowers grow tall above a brick wall, representing the four suits of the Minor Arcana and the four elements.
In the foreground, a youngg, naked childd is sitting on top of a calm white horse. The childd represents the joy of being connected with your inner spirit, and his nakedness is a sign he has nothing to hide and has all the innocence and purity of childhood. The white horse is also a sign of purity and strength.
The Sun represents success, radiance and abundance. The Sun gives you strength and tells you that no matter where you go or what you do, your positive and radiant energy will follow you and bring you happiness and joy. People are drawn to you because you can always see the bright side and bring such warmth into other people’s lives. This beautiful, warm energy is what will get you through the tough times and help you succeed. You are also in a position where you can share your highest qualities and achievements with others. Radiate who you are and what you stand for; shine your love on those you care about.
If you are going through a difficult time, the Sun brings you the message you have been waiting for: that things will get better, a lot better! Through the challenges along your path, you discovered who you are and why you’re here. Now you are full of energy and zeal for the future and can already perceive success and abundance flowing to you. You are brimming with confidence because you know everything will work out – it always does! Life is good!
The Sun connects you to your power base – not fear-driven, egotistical power, but the abundant, inner energy radiating through you right now. You’ll sense it in your Solar Plexus chakra, calling you to express yourself authentically and be fully present in the world around you.
You have what others want and are being asked to radiate your energy and your gifts out into the world in a big way. Tap into your power and use your Divine will to express that power in positive ways.
The Sun is also an energetic card. It reflects a time when you can expect to experience an increase in physical energy, vitality and general positivity. You are bursting with enthusiasm, invigorated and enjoying a wonderful sense of good health.
✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ WOW I can’t even say anything! This card is a literally representation of everything I feel inside of me right now 🤣🤣🤣
👼🏼😇 8 OF ARIEL 😇👼🏼 I LOVE ARIEL And it’s been so long since I got her card! Both of these cards tell me to continue educating myself 🤣🤣
Here’s something I’ve found that I liked about archangel Ariel
“ “Ariel is a powerful angel of Nature. She has evolved through the air kingdom and is in charge of human interaction between the devas and angels. An open heart is all it takes to connect with the Nature Angels.
To attune with this delightful group of beings, you must have a genuine, loving interest in them. When you can recognize and appreciate the life within the soil, shrubs, flowers, trees, rocks, breezes, mountains and seas, you will open the door to the observation and acceptance of these blessed ones.
Ask Ariel to take you far back into the forgotten memory of your origin. Help the Earth by recognizing and developing your ability to work with Nature.
Angels follow an ascending path which is parallel to humans – we complement one another. Angelic essence is expansive and naturally attuned to the Cosmos, seeking to become more aware of the form which enfolds it.
Atomic essence in minerals, plants, animals and humans is limited to form and seeks an expanded awareness. Angelic awareness holds the patter for perfection and atomic matter fills the pattern, manifesting form.
The deva for a bush knows how the plant will mature and blossom, bridging the changes into manifestation just as your Guardian Angel knows your perfect matrix and helps bridge your perfection into manifestation.
The angelic essence is the being, while the atomic essence is the doing. Thus, we seek to transform from humans doing to human beings.”
Just a few more pics today cuz I really liked how everything matched today 🥰 I’d like to do that everyday 🤣🤣 Someday! 🌚🙏🌝 I’m off to bed my friends, At some point I need to figure out how to cultivate reading to you into my OF, I need to find the time 🤣 I’d like to be asleep by 10 so I can wake up at 5-6 ish now to give me plenty of time to, do my tarot cards, workout, and meal prep! Then whatever wacky stuff I gotta do on certain days like take Tyler to and from work 🤣 It’ll be fun! I’m figuring out the balance 🥰
I think my parents are suprised by how dedicated I am to actually making each of the meals I’ve made with zero assistance. Theyre way of telling me that what I’m doing is HEALTHY for me is saying “it’s good to make sure you’re getting a variety in your diet, make sure you continue to take B 12”
WHICH MEANS I SEE WHAT YOUR DOING AND ITS ACTUALLY AWESOME SO KEEP IT UP AND IM PROUD OF YOU 🤣 oh I chose to take it that way 😤🤣 Im very happy. My life has so much joy. I the vegetables are making me naturally high 🤣🤣
TODAYS MAKE UP I TOOK A TRIP TO DAISY TOWN ☺️✨🌈🌚 And I fucking was here for it!!! 🌚🌝🌚🌝🌚🌝🌚🌝🌚 NOW I GOTTA GO LIVE ON INSTAGRAM FOR A BIT HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE
OKAY SO IM SURE YALL DONT WANT ME POSTING EVERY TIME I MAKE A MEAL LOLOLOL SO I THOUGHT it would be nicer to just make one post showing all that I ate through the day!! This morning was a green smoothie! Lunch was plum pudding cuz the persimmons are out of season currently 🤣 And dinner which I’m currently eating is called the GLOW salad!
It is wild how quick your taste buds start to change 😳 How quick everything in ur body just started to feel different in a good way but it’s so FOREIGN to you it’s like wtf is going on 🤣 I love it tho!
TODAYS OUTFIT OF THE DAY 🥰 PART 1 😳 White tank top, Daisy shorts Daisy headwear Daisy bracelet With daisy make up 🥰🥰🥰🥰 I need new clothes I’m bored 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Swipe to see me take a whole hour to do just THIS 🤣🤣 this was a ton of fun tho!! I’m so blessed to have This kind of eyeliner now! 🥰 Just you wait til I know wtf I’m doing 🤣🤣
TODAYS TAROT / ANGEL CARD READING FOR TUESDAY AUGUST 3rd 2021
✨🪄 2 OF WANDS REVERSES 🪄✨
The Two of Wands reversed encourages you to draw your attention inwards and focus on your personal goals. Consider what is truly important to you and what lights you up. You may have headed in one direction, only to realise it wasn’t in full alignment with your deeper values and purpose. This card invites you to go back to the drawing board and reconnect with your dreams and ambitions, then make the necessary adjustments to your path ahead.
At times, the Two of Wands reversed may indicate that you have a fruitful idea, but lack a clear strategy to move it forward. As a result, you are working haphazardly and inefficiently and not reaching your desired destination as quickly as you would like.
A goal without a plan is just a wish, so make sure you have a clear plan in place to manifest your goals. Go back to your original intention, and the energy and enthusiasm you felt at the beginning. Let them guide you to the next step.
If you are at a crossroads about which direction to take to fulfil your dreams, ask yourself: What do I really want? And what’s keeping me from getting it? You may have been opting for the easy path, when it is, in fact, the more difficult one that gives us the best opportunity for growth.
Similarly, the reversed Two of Wands can highlight that you are reluctant to step out into unknown territories despite the enormous potential, instead preferring to stick with what you know. You may be ‘the big fish in the small pond’, enjoying the feeling of success in this safe environment. Reconnect with your vision and why you are here and know that you will need to explore new fields to reach your highest level.
✨✨✨✨✨✨ I heard from teal swan that today is a very potent day for really manifesting shit and quick. I have changed so much in just a month I feel like I zipped my spacesuit open and emerged from it as an alien. A happy alien 🤣 Theres so many new things taking too priority in my life that I would have never even imagined would be possible just 2 yearss ago. Everything is happening so naturally and easy though I know I’m on the right track!!
🌈✨ 5 OF GABRIEL ✨🌈
TIME TO MAKE TIME FOR YOU, AWAY FROM THOSE WHO MIGHT JUST CAUSE UNNECESSARY DRAMA. that’s what I hear And that’s what I’m gonna do Today is dedicated to me cultivating a little more structure and order in my life with these newfound passions and ideas lol.
My outfit of the day part 2 😇😇😇 If y’all have any particular CLOTHING preferences lol don’t mind sharing I want to broaden my attire and will soon once my bank account can handle such a thing 😭😭🤣🤣
TODAYS MAKE UP!! 😳😳 I USED WET EYELINER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED 🤣 WE GOT A flower, And another flower lmaooooo although it’s going to take some getting used to, I am In love with the application process already and the colors and how easily it comes off too AH! Love it all. I’ll get better I promise 🤣🤣🤣
I got really frustrated doing this!! Because I have a long way to go before I get the hang of this and start doing the kind of stuff I see in my visions 🥰 That’s okay! I LOVE this stuff! 🥰🥰🥰🙏🙏🙏
LUNCH! 👼🏼 CHAI PUDDING WITH FRUIT 🥰🙏😳✨ YO I WAS DUMPING SESAME SEEDS ON TOP INSTEAD OF THE CACAO NIBLETS 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 STILL TASTES AMAZING THO 🙏😇
If you guys don’t want me posting this sorta stuff on my OF let me know and I can stop 🤣🤣🤡 I know it’s not really anything to do with my make up / outfits of the day and yoga, which I’ll STILL BE DOING!! ✨🥰
DAY 1 VEGAN RESET 🥰 This morning I did my first vegan reset smoothie! And I’m drinking it now and it feels like each cell in my body is sucking it up 😳 Swipe to see the very simple recipe 🤣🤣
TODAYS TAROT CARD / ANGEL CARD READING FOR AUGUST 2ND 2021
🃏🏆3 OF CUPS REVERSED 🏆🃏
You may have recently spent a lot of time with others and now just need some alone time. Or perhaps you are no longer ‘clicking’ with some of your friends or a social group and are ready to move on. Honour your desire to step out of the social scene for a while and enjoy this time by yourself so you can get clear on who you most want to connect with in the future!
If you are involved in a creative project, now may be the time to work independently rather than in a group. The reversed Three of Cups can show that your creativity is being stifled, or you are being forcedd to conform to the group. You may be part of a tight-knit club that does things a certain way and is not open to innovation or alternative approaches. You need to consider whether you are willing to sacrifice your creative abilities in favour of the group’s desires. 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 CHURCH
Now is the time to reconnect and reprioritise their love and support. See this card as a reminder to reconnect with the people you care about, and relax
You may be out most nights partying, doing drugs or drinking heavily when what you need is balance in your life. Be mindful about the longer-term consequences of your actions and ask yourself whether this lifestyle is sustainable. Take a break from the social scene to regroup and get some much-needed sleep.
✨✨✨✨✨ Damn! Lol this is some true shit 🤣🤣🤣 I am growing at the speed of light and I don’t know if anyone in my social can keep up 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 I’m also really wanting to get my sleep schedules figured out 🤣🤣🤣 And stop going to those church events 🤡 Just as Melissa said she doesn’t wanna go to thursday church anymore and I thought I was free tyler reminded me that Wednesday night church is starting back up lol. That one isn’t as bad though 🤣
😇👼🏼😇👼🏼 9 OF MICHAEL 😇👼🏼😇👼🏼
All the worrying about a recent situation is unnecessary! Arch Angel michael is to the rescue and grab u by the shoulders and violently shake all your worries away. Everything is falling right into place, The people around you like to plant seedlings of doubt in your mind to make you think things are impossible! But nothing is impossible ;)
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HEHE well OKAY!! ig with that I should go do some yoga and make breakfast 👼🏼
My life is magic!! Upon waking Tis morning I felt like a brand new baby. And before I even told my mother about how I finally got access to the E books she said she wanted to go to Safeway and make some vegetable tacos for nawni before we left back home Which I am so excited to do 🤣 And that worked out PERFECTLY! I wanted to start the vegan reset today but then when I looked further into her book and how it’s structured it would be best for me to start tomarrow when I have all day to go shopping for A WEEKS WORTH OF PLANT BASED MEALS 😭🙏🥰 I am so happy I’m like extremely EXCITED. Because I know the importance of food. Nourishment. you literally are what you choose to put into the body and the body responds to you with either a thank you or fuck you after eating a meal 🤣 I’ve never had a healthy relationship with food up to this point literally even as a childd food was my ENEMY. Food was the culprit for my debilitating phobias and I resented food and my body for so so long and for slightly different reasons. I knew it came from a place or feeling hurt. Betrayed by my body 🤡 That hurt childd has no space for my evolving heart anymore. Food is the foundation of creating your best life I truly believe that because it will always be a very big part of our lives. What we put in is a reflecting of what we ALLOW to come in and alter our personal experience. A month from now, When my human body is 100% running on all natural plant based MAGIC You won’t even recognize me.
Despite food being the ONE big thing when it comes to cultivating that kind of self care,,, I think for me in my journey I had to find self love through other avenues before tackling food cuz we were not friends at alllll 🤣🤡. For a while I really tried to get that all figured it out but it just made everything twice as bad cuz I was forcingg it.
True self love comes from a place of surrender not shoving something where it don’t belong or when it’s not ready 🤡 For me it started with the simple act one day after years and years of so much negative self perception. My mother had finally taken me out of the eating disorder facility she forcedd me into going to for 3 months because it was obviously making me much more depressed. My time there gave me insight as to what my life WOULD look like if I continued to think the way I was thinking. So when my mother told me if she took me out of treatment I’d have to promise to work on feeding myself. It was one of the first time I actually felt like I had a choice in a matter and it was exactly what I needed, to fucking leave that place behind and make that promise not to my mother but to myself. And I did it. It wasnt fucking cute! 🤣 and I don’t wanna make it sound like it was an overnight thing cuz it was NOT. There was a ton of just uncontrollable sobbing!! the STRUGGLE. looking myself in the mirror and just feeling like I’m looking at just some sick person I don’t know. What changed in me from before treatment was an actually desire to be healthy. It was seeing those girls who were REAL fucked up that showed woke me up to what I really wanted. So even though I was still struggling like how I was for years but this time it felt like I finally had personal power in not only choosing, but sorta MAKING A PROMISE to from this day forward, strive to become a greater version of the person I was that day. And like a week later I just had this moment where I was looking at myself in the mirror and I said. “I’m done fighting you. All this time you have been making the most out of everything I’ve thrown into you and I’m now choosing to swallow my ego and admit that you WERE always doing that. Even when I was projectile vomitingg my life out of my nostrils asking god to take my life, you were getting the sickness outside of me. You always did what was best for me even when I felt like you were doing the opposite. I love you and I’m ready to prove it to you. I will feed you with medicine Not use food to comfort me Let’s BE FRIENDS 👼🏼🙏” 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Then I started doing yoga!!! And meditating more!!!
And really observing myself internally. Then my whole life began changing before my eyes, and the idea of having a relationship with food that was actually healthy felt POSSIBLE! Unlike before. It was crazy and that there was proof to me That we create our own reality. Because everything around me changed so drastically once I had that paradigm shift and moved over to team #SELFLOVE
so wild. And now here we are. My mother had concerns about me wasting money on buying too much food for a week. Lol I’m also wondering if my body is ready for this complete shift in dietary consumption. But all I can do is just listen to my body!
Either way, I’ll be okay. This is my journey for me to find out and screw up and learn and do better! 👼🏼🌞🙏
TODAYS TAROT / ANGEL CARD READING FOR AUGUST 1st, 2021
🌙🌜🌚🌞🌝🌛🌙 THE MOON 🌙🌜🌝🌞🌚🌛🌙 AGAIN ( we got this card yesterday and my SANCTUARY APP ALSO PULLED THE MOON FOR ME TODAY 😳😳😳😳)
The Moon card shows a full moon in the night’s sky, positioned between two large towers. The Moon is a symbol of intuition, dreams, and the unconsciouss. Its light is dim compared to the sun, and only slightly illuminates the path to higher consciousness winding between the two towers. In the foreground is a small pool, representing the watery, subconscious mind. A small crayfish crawls out of the pool, symbolising the early stages of consciousness unfolding. A dog and a wolf stand in the grassy field, howling at the moon, representing both the tamed and the wild aspects of our minds.
🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝🌝
The Moon represents your fears and illusions and often comes out when you are projecting fear into your present and your future, based on your past experiences.
You may have a painful memory that caused emotional distress, and rather than dealing with the emotions you pushed them down deep into your subconscious.
Now, these emotions are making a reappearance, and you may find yourself under their influence on a conscious or subconscious level. For example, if you had a car accident when you were youngg but didn’t deal with the emotions, you may get sad or anxious every time you get into the backseat of a car.
To remedy this, connect with your subconscious mind and release any fears or anxieties holding you back. Hypnosis, therapy and shamanic healing can support this process.
The Moon can indicate a time of uncertainty and illusion, when nothing is what it seems. Be careful of making fast decisions when the Moon appears because you may later realise you only had half the information you needed. You need to listen to and trust your intuition so you can see beyond what is in front of you. Feel into situations rather than thinking what they mean. Let go of your conscious mental blocks or negative self-talk and allow your intuition to guide you. Your dreams, intuitions and inner guidance lead you forward toward higher levels of understanding if you listen and use your judgement to help interpret the messages of the subconscious.
When the Moon card appears in your Tarot reading, pay close attention to the lunar cycles and attune to its divine power using ritual, visualisation or Tarot readings. Connect with the divine feminine and uncover deep intuitive insights and visions of what lies beyond everyday life. On the New Moon, set your intentions and plant the seeds of opportunity so they can grow. And on the Full Moon, honour your achievements and look at what you need to release so that new aspects of yourself can shine!!
🌛🌜🌛🌜🌛🌜🌛🌜🌛🌜🌜🌛🌜 WOW WOW! I am shooketh and I don’t know what happened but I woke up this morning feeling like a newborn baby eager to fuck shit up in the world 😳🤣🙏🥰 In the BEST WAY 🤣
And this totally resonated with all the shit I’ve been re remembering with my relationship to my sister. I’m being called to let that shit go lol. I should probably start by following her back on social media 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 but then That’s just the beginning cuz once I FOLLOW HER then I’m gonna SEE HER STUFF 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Ughhhh. Yikes. I hear you universe!!! lol I can’t be the girl depicted perfectly in my dreams with all this pent up resentment in my system cuz that is NOT who that bitch is 💅 Idk how it’s gonna happen but I’m gonna heal this fragmentation in me once and for all.
👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼👩❤️💋👩🌈🌞 THE FUCKING LOVERS 👩❤️💋👩🌈🌞👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼 WITH ARCHANGEL RAHPAEL 🙏 (This card is STALKING ME 🤡 Both of these cards are actually 🌚🌞 From both my tarot and Angel cards!! 🤣🤣)
The Lovers is one of the best cards you can get! It is a soulmate card and signifies kindred spirits and an intense bond between two people. If you are single, love is coming your way! This will be more than mere infatuation.
Be cautious about mixing business with pleasure, make sure you know the risks involved and are prepared for the consequences. The Lover can also signify that you have a decision to make in relation to your career path. Again it may seem like you are only faced with undesirable choices but that’s not actually the case! Gather all your facts together to make the right decision. It may indicate a big change coming or a change of job, it may seem like something you don’t want at the time but it will be good for you. Financially, now is a good time to seek financial opportunities as you will be attracting good fortune.
Archangel Michael is here to help you make important decisions regarding health and treatment for any ailment. The Lovers can also be related to heart health so make sure you are taking good care of your heart when this card appears!
✨✨✨✨✨ Holy shit this is crazy! So much of this has been on my mind lately and of course now that I have em access to this amazing E book, a lot of things are going to start changing for the better!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 Even the part sort of about career and pleasure consequences. Sorta like how I was mentioning a few days back when I started driving Tyler around I had an opportunity and I took it, and now because of that is where I am now having to work with all of Tyler lol and do things I may have not thought about when the opportunity was presented on a silver platter 🤣
My OF will probably become of very intense example of that. As my account grows and I get more people peeping their heads into my crazy life I know I’m going to start receiving out of the box offers and requests from people to challenge my boundaries MY FAVORITE! I’ve picked the perfect career path for this to be something I’ll need to constantly SET AND DEFEND 🤣🤣🤣🙏🙏👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼 Yay. It’s okay. Am empath needs boundaries literally in order to be of ANY service to the world. It’s my work it’s my dharma and at the peak of of Leo season I’m ready bitck
So I’m sitting here. I just had the best and stupidest discovery on top of everything else I’ve experienced just TODAY after a freakin funeral and idk if this is gonna go through cuz everything it’s tried to post has literally taken 2 hours🤣 But I FOUND ACCESS TO THE VEGAN BOOKS I BOUGHT MONTHS AGO!!! 😳😳😳😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I HAVE NOT BEEN EATING WELL LATELY MY FRIENDS. Lots of stuff I know my body does not want.
And I felt so motivated to start taking stuff from her E book!!!! She’s helped me a lot with cultivating a better mindset about food and I knew when I was ready to start taking responsibility for myself and what I put in my body I would buy her book and make everything and memorize it by heart.
This is perfect timing. Tomarrow is the first day of august. I am going to COMMIT. When I get home now I’m gonna go to the grocery store and buy all kinds of fruits and veggies then MAKE FOOD for myself and my family! 🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞
And I want to share that journey with you guys too! 🥰 AND IM READY TO DO THAT this is going to coincide with shaving my head, evolving into something new. I’m going to become a plant based buzzed badass
I had an interesting conversation just now with my grandmother. She’s a funny lady. She worries a lot because her sun sign is cancer lol. But just now she told me something. Somehow the conversation was on the difference between me and my sisters personality and how we express ourselves in the world 🤣🤣
I made some sort of comment that Megan is closed off to the people around her cuz she really only seems to let her personality out when she’s with her friends but other than that I saw her as someone who is very short with others cuz she doesn’t really want the conversation. Then my grandmother said something to me. She said “ I don’t think so, I think she just thinks very differently from you, she sees life from a very scientific analytical way and calculates everything in her mind.” I can not even comprehend perceiving reality this way. Which is when I really realized how we truly are like Polar Opposites In almost every way possible. Then she said “ and I think the solution is to get you guys bunk beds so you can go to bed near each other again like how you did back when you were little !! you can have those conversations you two used to have for hours on end!”” And like my brain Felt like it Broke. For a moment lol today has been crazy I am realizing so much Shit. I have shut my sibling out completelyyyy. Because of my perception of her lol. I remember very distinctly there was this moment as a childd when I got tired of sharing the entire room with her and I made a LINE that split between the center of the room using all the CRAP we had accumulated (as 2 spoiled girls have 🙄🤣) Over the years to like almost literally represent our separation. And I remember how excited I was to finally get my own bedroom. Once that happened we really didn’t have anything to do with each other.
And I don’t know if I would have ever remembered a time when she and I were super close but there definitely was!!! and my freaking Gma unlocked the hidden memories that I was too stubborn and close minded to cognitively conceive. We used to talk for hours We made funny videos together We were a band We wrote songs and sang together We talked shit together 🤣
It was such a long time ago tho Thad doesn’t even sound like I’m talking about myself 🤣 I know that I am being called To let go of my bullshit false ideas lol And awaken to a new way of perceiving my reality which will serve me in ways that I cannot even begin to imagine.
