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Good morning guys! take it all off and strike a pose, my fav..

Good morning guys! take it all off and strike a pose, my favorite kind of photo shoot 😜📸🐼

Going through my early posts here, I found this series and realized that I had only posted one or two of the pictures at the time. So I took a moment to edit them again for you ☺️

Yesterday I started my third chemo cycle with the first day consisting of a 4 hour long IV session and also the 8 daily pills. Now it's 13 more days of pills until the one week break. So far it's going well, fingers crossed 🙏🏻

Now I have to think of something special to post on Halloween 🎃🤪 have a nice day 😘❤️

Good morning guys, today is my third anniversary here! 🎂🎉🐼Ca..

Good morning guys, today is my third anniversary here! 🎂🎉🐼

Can you believe it? three years since Patreon suddenly decided to almost kick me out and I was "compelled" to open this profile.

It's been an incredible journey for me on many levels, with your continued support I've been able to keep making music, release three albums and even a vinyl! You can't imagine how much this means to me. Thank you ❤️

On a personal level, this journey of exploration has allowed me to discover things I never thought I would try and enjoy, as well as create bonds with many of you that I will always cherish in my heart.

We've been through a lot, there have been times when I thought I couldn't do this anymore, mostly when some idiot stole pictures from here and posted them elsewhere, but you always reminded me to focus on the positive and our journey together.

Since June this journey has also been interrupted by my fight with cancer, but I'm trying to share it with you in a positive way, I think it's good for you and me to rediscover things. I'm really looking to create more content, for several reasons, but mostly because I love the playful joy we all share every time I make something new for you 😈 ☺️😜

This is the full set of pictures from where I took the first picture I shared here, I think at least two of them have never been posted before ☺️

Have a great Monday ❤️

PS: Patreon fixed their stuff and is back to what it was before today, I'm posting most of the stuff I post here there as well. Sometimes I wish we had all stayed there because of all the other stuff I can share there 😉

And here's a little extra, 5 pics from the studio this morni..

And here's a little extra, 5 pics from the studio this morning ☺️
Bearhugs ❤️

Hello stranger... what are you up to? 😉😜😈Here are three more..

Hello stranger... what are you up to? 😉😜😈

Here are three more pics from this "lost" photo shoot from last February.

Sorry for the silence the last days, I finished the second chemo cycle and felt more tired than expected, so I was mostly resting and taking it easy.

I was also a little disappointed because another idiot is creating profiles and sharing pictures from here, misleading and scamming people. The problem is that Facebook, Telegram and others don't care about such things, but I find it sad that someone would do this to me. Again, I was thinking of shutting everything down and focusing on healing, but I really need the money to keep paying for my treatment, and also this is kind of my "secret garden" where I can just be myself and enjoy sex with you.

It's a shame these guys are ruining the fun for us, don't you think?

Have a nice day and thanks for being here ❤️

Hey guys! I was thinking about a request one of you made her..

Hey guys! I was thinking about a request one of you made here yesterday and remembered this set of photos. We took so many pictures that only a few were posted back in February, so here they go, again a selection of photos that I hope will satisfy the request, many of them new ☺️

Today is my second day off from chemo and it feels great, I'm getting back to myself, with more energy and ready to sing another song, which I plan to do as soon as I finish this post ☺️

I'll let you know how it went soon, until then have a wonderful Thursday 😘❤️

Good morning guys! How about a nice release? it's about time..

Good morning guys! How about a nice release? it's about time.... 😜💦🍆

I made this video for you yesterday. If I'm not mistaken, it's the first of its kind since all this unrest started in June. You can tell I was a little insecure, not sure if I was going to be able to make it... but I did 😜.

Small victories guys, everything in this life can be achieved if you face it guerilla style 😉.

And today I'm finishing my second chemo cycle, so it's a double celebration (and release) 🎉 Have a nice Tuesday ❤️

Good morning guys! Fresh from the shower, new pictures! Wow,..

Good morning guys! Fresh from the shower, new pictures! Wow, it's been a while 😅😜
I just took these pics for you, and a video coming tomorrow. Felt it was time to start let myself be seen as you're used to. I've been feeling a bit insecure lately because of the scars (I didn't retouch the photos, I just took angles that disguise them 😉), the weight fluctuations and loss of muscle tone, but I'm determined to start exercising this week and finish all this chemo rollercoaster even healthier than before.
Also, I finished mixing the song I sang the other day, now for the next. Happy Monday 😘❤️

Good morning everyone! It's boxer appreciation day, so let's..

Good morning everyone! It's boxer appreciation day, so let's start by helping me take them off 😜

Here's another newly edited gallery from the "power suit" photo shoot, with pictures you haven't seen before ☺️

Things went well the last two days, no pain, though still with limited energy, which is why I didn't post yesterday, I wanted to record vocals for one of the new songs and it was one thing or the other. This second cycle is almost done and I'm hoping that with all we've learned so far, the third will be easier for me.

Have a nice Saturday 😘 ❤️

Hey you, wanna help me with this? 😜Hope your day is going we..

Hey you, wanna help me with this? 😜

Hope your day is going well ❤️

Good morning everyone! Let's get crazy, today is a two post ..

Good morning everyone! Let's get crazy, today is a two post day 🎉 I want to get out of this suit as soon as possible 😜

This is part three of this series. I posted a more edited version of the last one on social media yesterday (I added a different background), and although there's a 4th part that's slowly revealing the goods, today I'm going to jump right in and post the first of the NSFW galleries from this photoshoot in two hours, most of the photos for the first time since I was finally able to develop the negatives that were too dark before.

Things are getting better, although I'm not very happy with my doctors. I have to advocate for myself and research every little decision and step on this road, because they've already made some decisions that have made me worse in the past few days. Luckily all the bad side effects are gone and nothing seems to be permanently damaged, but OMG, it scares me to think how many people are getting bad treatments out there. Guys, get tested and ask, ask and ask, and when in doubt, ask.

Have a wonderful day, be back in a bit with the other post 😘❤️

Hey guys! Let's go back to where we were 🤪 who's going to he..

Hey guys! Let's go back to where we were 🤪 who's going to help me out of this suit?

Here's the second batch of freshly edited images from the 2022 photoshoot. Most of them will be new to you as I haven't been able to get them properly developed yet.

After a few rough days, the sun seems to be out again and I'm feeling a little better. At least I can post here. I have some stuff to edit for you, hopefully it'll be up tomorrow. Until then have a nice Tuesday 😘 ❤️

Hey guys! How about we put on a suit and start taking it off..

Hey guys! How about we put on a suit and start taking it off slowly? 🤪

I've finally been able to remaster and polish this photoshoot we did in 2022. I've been trying to use more of this set for ages, but the original pictures had light, noise and temperature issues, so only a few could be saved, and I could actually only use one of the books (the noe version of All Systems Go features it). Now I'm working on a few every day and will share them as they come. Can't wait to see how the NSFW turns out 🤪😈

Yesterday was a bit of a rough day for me, to the point where we had to stop the chemo pills at night due to stomach ulcer pain, these things happen, and after a few consultations with two of the doctors I was able to sleep reasonably well last night. I'm hoping that this new treatment will allow me to enjoy today. I hope you have a wonderful day too, happy Sunday 😘❤️

Hey guys! Get ready for a long and playful edging session, I..

Hey guys! Get ready for a long and playful edging session, I'm bringing my toys 🤪🍆

It took me forever to edit this video yesterday, but I think it was worth it. It's another one of those videos that OF decided to take down because about a year ago someone was stealing my content and posting it elsewhere. I hope everyone will be more respectful now so this stays 🙏🏻

The second chemo cycle is going better than the first overall, but I'm still dealing with stomach ulcer pain. I'm hoping the doctors will find something that will ease it soon. In the meantime, I've been able to do more things (but I'm not talking much about it because I don't want to jinx it 😉), and with Jose's birthday yesterday and the celebratory 8 hour DJ set he's doing on Twitch today, the mood has been uplifting. 🎉

Have a great Saturday 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys, it's #throwbackthursday 🎉 so here's the u..

Good morning guys, it's #throwbackthursday 🎉 so here's the uncensored version of my post on social yesterday + 2 extra pics and one without the FX I don't think I shared before ☺️🤪

The second chemo cycle is going more smoothly than the previous one, apart from an annoying and constant stomach ulcer pain that I'm hoping the doctor will help me fix today. With that out of the way I think I'll be able to start doing a little more, and first on my list is creating more new exciting content for you 😈 can't wait!!!

Have a wonderful day 😘 ❤️

Good morning everyone, in the mood for a naughty moment? Let..

Good morning everyone, in the mood for a naughty moment? Let's go, I'll bring my toys 🤪😈🍆

Another video that weirdly disappeared from the feed a while ago 😅 I went through my vault and the original post was gone, so here it goes again, enjoy! ☺️

I started the second chemo cycle yesterday and it went smoother than the first, so hopefully I'll be able to stay more active in the coming days. Let's see how it goes, I'll play it by ear and keep you posted.

Have a beautiful Wednesday 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys, it's Sunday, let's jump in the pool or be..

Good morning guys, it's Sunday, let's jump in the pool or better yet, meet me at the dressing room... 💦🤪😈

This is a selection of pictures from the "Pool Party" series I did last year for Panzine and here. I tweaked them a bit for today's post.

I was able to finish the second Instagram reel 🎉 It took me a few days to edit it (which is crazy because in a normal situation it would have taken me three hours tops), but I'm happy with it. There's only one reel left to complete the challenge Instagram threw at me. Can't wait to see how it turns out.

Have a great Sunday 😘❤️

Good morning everyone, Friday is here! Let the games begin, ..

Good morning everyone, Friday is here! Let the games begin, I'm bringing my toys 🤪😈🍆

I don't know why this video wasn't posted here 😅 I went through my vault and the post disappeared, so here it goes again, enjoy! ☺️

Yesterday was weird, I felt kind of sick and without energy all day for no apparent reason (maybe it's something to do with the withdrawal from the chemo pills, who knows?), today I woke up feeling better and eager to make some music, and that's what I'll try to do, at least until lunch.

Have a lovely day 😘❤️

Hey guys! Someone told me they wanted more bday muffin, so h..

Hey guys! Someone told me they wanted more bday muffin, so here you go 🤪🧁😈

Pics were taken on the day of my 54th birthday, 3 years ago, so happy #throwbackthursday everyone ☺️

Today is my second day off from chemo until next Tuesday when I start my second cycle. I woke up and went to the clinic for tests, then had breakfast at home, and now I'm feeling a little weak and cold. They said this could happen, so I'm going to take the rest of the day and possibly tomorrow off to recover. These things take time, that's why they give us a week off before the new cycle starts.

Have a nice Thursday 😘 ❤️

Hey guys! Yesterday was a beautiful day, couldn't ask for a ..

Hey guys! Yesterday was a beautiful day, couldn't ask for a better birthday, do you want my muffin? ☺️🎉🎂

We didn't get to take the traditional nude birthday pic yesterday, but I just found out I had never shared these pics with you (just one of them) 😅
We had a little gathering at home for a few friends (the ones who haven't had a cold or been in contact with COVID or something in the last few days) and it was great, I'll post a reel on Instagram later with little bits and pieces of it (if I have the energy to edit it) and will share some photos with you (I think someone took some with my phone).

I also finished the first cycle of chemotherapy yesterday. Now I have a week off to recover, do some lab tests and see the doctor. Eyes on the prize 😉

Have a great day 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys! It's my 57th birthday 🎂🎶🎉👑 and here are t..

Good morning guys! It's my 57th birthday 🎂🎶🎉👑 and here are the first bday suit pics of the day 🤪🍆

This is the second part of the set I shared yesterday. We took these last year, just after my bday. We will take the usual pics later and I will share them with you if not today, tomorrow first thing in the morning ☺️

I'm happy about today, this year is important, I'm celebrating it, but I'm also worried about my energy level, so I'll do what I can and that's it. Yesterday I managed to finish the Instagram reel I told you about, today I should make another one... wish me luck 😅.

Have a lovely day 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys! tomorrow is my 57th birthday, so here's a..

Good morning guys! tomorrow is my 57th birthday, so here's a selection of my favorite pics from last year's Bday photo shoot ☺️🐼🎂🎶

Well, as it usually happens with me, and I know... I should have learned the lesson by now, I can't make plans and talk about them LOL 😅 they end up not happening.

Remember those reels I was preparing for Instagram? I'm behind schedule (in an ideal world, the first one would have been posted last Friday). I don't think I'll be able to get them done in time the way I wanted. It's too much work and my energy level is just low (hey, I'm not sad or anything, it is what it is). I can't edit videos in the studio the amount of time it takes. So I've decided to do something more improvised and direct. Maybe pick three questions and answer them on the reel. Whatever I can edit and post from my phone.

Also, I'm excited and happy about my birthday tomorrow. I want to celebrate it ☺️

Have a nice Monday 😘❤️

Good morning everyone! Here's more from yesterday's photoset..

Good morning everyone! Here's more from yesterday's photoset, enhanced with a few improvements just for you and sweetened with a side of cake 🍰🤪📸🐼

Sunday and my first IG reel is still halfway done. Yesterday I was able to do the VoiceOver for it, post here, on JFF, Patreon and social media and that was it, had to spend the rest of the day resting. I'm going to try to do at least the raw cut this morning, wish me luck ☺️

Have a great Sunday 😘 ❤️

Hey guys! Panzine made this pic so popular I thought it'd be..

Hey guys! Panzine made this pic so popular I thought it'd be fun to share the full set in color and with a few improvements just for you 📸🐼

The weekend is here, yesterday I was finally able to get out and shoot some scenes for a reel that I hope to edit and post today (if not, well, tomorrow). I'm not usually drawn to challenges, but this time it felt right. Instagram reached out to me last Wednesday, asking me to make a reel to reintroduce myself to my followers and potential new audiences. It's real and it could be a good opportunity to finally break through the invisible barrier. I have to do three, the first one is an introduction, the second one will be about what's happening now and the third one will be about what's coming up ☺️

Now let's get to work! Happy Saturday 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys! Let's start the day with a healthy breakf..

Good morning guys! Let's start the day with a healthy breakfast and a happy ending 💦🤪🍆
This is the last chapter of the massage series with my dear friend @aaron_oso 🐻 can't wait to see him again ☺️
Yesterday was a good day and I'm hoping today will be the same. I just have to watch my energy, I don't have as much as I think I do, but that's ok, it allows me to do things until lunch. If it continues like this I'll record the final vocals for one of the new songs tomorrow. I MUST finish the new songs 🎤🐼 I want to have at least two of the new songs recorded for my birthday ☺️

Have a nice Friday 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys! My birthday is coming up, so the other da..

Good morning guys! My birthday is coming up, so the other day I started playing with photography and filters... 📸🐼☺️

One of the consequences of this ordeal I've been in since June is that I've been worried about my body image. Photography has always helped me deal with these things, so the other day (thinking I should take the commemorative Bday suit pic on October 1) I started having fun with filters and these are a few I took yesterday, expanded and edited today just for you.

Luckily I'm feeling more myself today and I'm writing this from the studio. The last four days have been a bit hellish because of a medication that I shouldn't have been taking... Medicine, always a fiesta in the making 🎉.

Have a nice Thursday 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys, here is part three of the massage series,..

Good morning guys, here is part three of the massage series, I don't know about you but I could use one of these today 😜 ☺️

This week is doing a number on me, can't get much done but trying to keep myself distracted and positive. The cycle ends on my birthday so hopefully I'll get a chance to enjoy the day. Thank you so much for being here for me, it means everything ❤️

Have a nice Wednesday 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys, let's put a happy end to this series with..

Good morning guys, let's put a happy end to this series with a nice and healthy breakfast 😜💦🍆 any takers?

This week is turning out to be different than I expected. I thought I would be able to do some work in the studio or create some content, but no, this first chemo cycle is hitting me hard, I have to lie in the recliner most of the day.

I play solitaire, watch some TV and sometimes have fun posting on social media, but the pain doesn't let me do much else. The doctor says that maybe the next cycle will be less hard (not sure if I believe him).

Anyway, this is what it is, I'm not the first of the last to go through it. Now I want to focus on having a good day next Tuesday October 1st (my birthday) 🎂 that's the easiest goal.

Have a great day 😘😘 ❤️

Happy Monday everyone! Here's a little warm-up to start the ..

Happy Monday everyone! Here's a little warm-up to start the week excited and wanting more 🤪🍆

I just realized that my birthday is coming up. I'll be 57 on October 1st and this time I MUST celebrate. I'm trying to think of things to do that won't exhaust me. Live broadcasts? I'd love to, but I think it might be too much. Maybe a simple, elegant music video. Also a little party at home (wish you could come). I would love an orgy (never been to one!) but I guess that's out of the question too 🤣😅.

Anyway, I would love to celebrate it together in some way. Have a great start to the week 😘 ❤️

Good morning guys! Since you asked, here's part 2 of the mas..

Good morning guys! Since you asked, here's part 2 of the massage series I did with my dear friend @aaron_oso 🐻☺️💯💝
It felt so good! Can't wait to be able to go back and have another one of these.
Weekend is going well, chemo isn't easy but with that in mind and taking my time to do things it's bearable. So the motto these days is: go with the flow, do what you can and that's ok.

I also want to take a moment to thank you for being here, your support is greatly appreciated, both with your comments and messages as well as your subscriptions and tips. Cancer is not cheap and I don't have insurance so you can imagine how grateful I am for all of you ❤️

Now go and have a wonderful Sunday 😘 ❤️

A quick 💦🍆 just because 🤪Who wants to clean up?

A quick 💦🍆 just because 🤪
Who wants to clean up?