dadeleine posts

I’m looking for good horror films...like psychological and e..

I’m looking for good horror films...like psychological and eerie ones. I tweeted about this earlier but I watched Vivarium today and I’m Thinking of Ending Things the other day. I’ve always loved Suspiria and my favorite thing to do when I’m sick is watch things that make me go “what......” Let me know if you have any good suggestions so I can continue to distract myself from feeling awful. 💕💀

2020-09-14 02:03:42 +0000 UTC View Post

Perfect “I’ve been sick in bed all day” attire.

Perfect “I’ve been sick in bed all day” attire.

2020-09-14 01:55:55 +0000 UTC View Post

I’d like to say I’m not disappointed that my views on tiktok..

I’d like to say I’m not disappointed that my views on tiktok absolutely plummeted but I’m not a liar so yea I’m pretty sad about it. I’ll make things regardless but there is something to be said for the mega hit of serotonin when you’ve got a video poppin off. It’s rough all of a sudden when you can’t even hit 100 likes. I’ve considered that maybe my content just “isn’t good” since people INSIST shadow banning isn’t real. But honestly I don’t think that. I work hard on some of the videos I make, (some are shit posts obviously) but it would be a disservice to myself to say I didn’t think I had talent or wasn’t funny. How’d people end up on my page anyways...I had to have been good at something...

2020-09-13 18:47:01 +0000 UTC View Post

Let me know the way, before there’s hell to pay, give me roo..

Let me know the way, before there’s hell to pay, give me room to lay the law and let me go. I can’t believe the legal or justice system.

2020-08-28 00:34:44 +0000 UTC View Post

Sometimes I am absolutely baffled at the cruelty of people. ..

Sometimes I am absolutely baffled at the cruelty of people. I can’t give details for legal reasons, but never would I have thought things would just keep getting harder. This year has been hard, but I can’t say it’s been harder than others...until now. Something so malicious, unnecessary, something planned to just hurt me. I’m trying so hard to make it day to day and handle each blow. Mostly I’m sad and scared. Trying to hold my head up and trust that eventually this will end and good things will come. Until then I’ll indulge in pretty colors and appreciate the kindness and care of those who support me. And one more chapter to add on to the tragic chronicles of my peculiar life.

2020-08-25 15:20:07 +0000 UTC View Post

Oh how the tables turn. Today is much less good than yesterd..

Oh how the tables turn. Today is much less good than yesterday. Feeling bleak. But not total despair. Mostly kind of numb and disappointed. But it’s okay. I’m rolling around in bed drinking a warm hard cider in my underwear mostly just staring out the window. But I hope you are having a really good day for me. (Also I quit smoking a couple years ago but sometimes I just like to hold one in my mouth)

2020-08-19 19:18:08 +0000 UTC View Post

Today is a good day. And I love you all so very much. And I ..

Today is a good day. And I love you all so very much. And I think I have to stop buying these undies or they are gonna have to make me a shareholder. (and maybe I should diversify my selections of tops...) but anyways.... WHICH ARE YOUR FAVORITE? I like the orange/yellow/pink ones🍊🌝🌸

2020-08-18 19:34:18 +0000 UTC View Post

I was in the top 2% of creators with over 400 people followi..

I was in the top 2% of creators with over 400 people following me, and a handful of those 400 harassing me. A lot of people unfollowed me and continued to harass me on other platforms. If you are a legitimate “fan” or friend you have been consistently supportive in a multitude of ways, and you know who you are, but you also probably know I suffer from a bunch of mental illnesses, physical ailments, anxiety, bad health, and over all—bad luck. Those of you who have stuck with me, offered me all kinds of support, it rips me apart to know that the poor actions of others have damaged my line of communication with any of you. I don’t want to lose people’s trust, but all of this plays out like relationships in my head. When someone is repeatedly hurt, they recoil. They learn fear and apprehension. It isnt fair that my trust, and subsequently yours, should be damaged or broken. I will always be willing to share my life, my thoughts, my hurt and hopes. I’m trying to heal my arm, my foot, my bravery, and my confidence. Im now in the top 3% of creators here with half the followers I had at the peak. And I can’t tell you how much safer and comfortable I feel. For all of the people who have hurt me, those of you who have stuck with me, backed me up, supported me—you have my undying love.

2020-08-17 00:03:49 +0000 UTC View Post

I like less people being here because it gets less scary and..

I like less people being here because it gets less scary and I only want people who don’t scare me here ya know? Idk...

2020-08-16 23:55:49 +0000 UTC View Post

Maybe I can squeeze Sunday into Monday too

Maybe I can squeeze Sunday into Monday too

2020-08-10 18:06:54 +0000 UTC View Post

A day late, and a dollar short? I think that’s what they say..

A day late, and a dollar short? I think that’s what they say....

2020-08-09 19:20:36 +0000 UTC View Post

I don’t like anything about my body right now so here’s to h..

I don’t like anything about my body right now so here’s to hating ourselves and accepting it

2020-08-06 07:57:47 +0000 UTC View Post

Coming out of a depressive episode is such a relieving feeli..

Coming out of a depressive episode is such a relieving feeling. Things just feel so much lighter...but then I start getting anxious about the calm ending 🙃

2020-07-30 16:43:07 +0000 UTC View Post

2020-07-27 08:21:36 +0000 UTC View Post

4 days I COULD NOT MOVE AT ALL. Then my skin was peeling in ..

4 days I COULD NOT MOVE AT ALL. Then my skin was peeling in chunks for 2 weeks. Took these pics for you so figured I’d finally share that lmao Last one doesn’t do it justice cuz it was my shoulders and then the entire fronts of my legs which I did not think to photograph but yea, head to toe... Also trust me when I say I don’t lay out and literally wore long sleeves and a long skirt and a sun hat in 100 degrees 60% of the day 😂

2020-07-27 08:08:06 +0000 UTC View Post

I’m soooooo tired

I’m soooooo tired

2020-07-23 07:43:54 +0000 UTC View Post

I am so sorry I haven’t been active. After I broke my arm an..

I am so sorry I haven’t been active. After I broke my arm and then got sunburnt to hell, my childhood cat died and then I just got really withdrawn and then cycled between mania and depression and I’m starting to wonder if I’m even cut out to keep this up. If you are still here, I obviously can’t thank you enough. It took a lot for me to log in again because social media in general has had me spinning. Now that my arm is starting to move and my skin is starting to heal I am starting to feel more comfortable.

2020-07-10 03:26:19 +0000 UTC View Post

I’m still here I’m trying to figure out for the life of me h..

I’m still here I’m trying to figure out for the life of me how people make content for all platforms and still deal with life it’s actually mind blowing but I’m here

2020-05-28 02:24:50 +0000 UTC View Post

People have always seen me as a very confident person, and i..

People have always seen me as a very confident person, and in many ways I am. But I’m still trying to learn how to love myself. It means a lot to have the kind of support I receive from everyone here. Thank you for helping me get a little bit closer to liking myself ✌️

2020-05-26 22:46:06 +0000 UTC View Post