casual photo :)
been feeling just a bit off the last couple days, not entirely sure why. Ive had a couple of personal things to deal with and a rough time with my social media numbers recently but I don't think they fully explain my low energy and stuff, maybe just a bit of exhaustion since I've been streaming and taking a lot of photos recently I'm not sure 😔. Today i at the very least cleaned up my apartment a good amount which I was procrastinating for a while so, go me I suppose 🥳
Today is officially my 2nd year anniversary of being on HRT 🥳🥳🥳
I'm so happy to be here honestly. I went back and looked at some of my earliest transition photos and the progress is just insane. I've really come so far, and this year it was absolutely incredible the amount of progress I've made not only in my transition but just in my life in general 🥰.
My makeup skills are the first thing i wanna mention. Honestly I am so proud of myself for the progress i've made with my makeup, a year ago all I knew how to use was eyeliner and an eyebrow pencil, and even then not very well. I worked so hard on my makeup skills im so proud of how far i've come. Secondly, my clothing/wardrobe/fashion sense is SO incredibly improved from this time last year. I have so many more outfits I like, I feel so more much confident going outdoors in what i'm wearing. It might not even be hormone related but those 2 things have been an incredible difference for me 😭😭
My life is so much better now too. I'm not living in my bedroom anymore, I have an apartment I have my own space I have a freaking balcony I can sit on, I mean hell I even took photos today in different rooms in my apartment :3
I hope my next year is just as amazing as this one :) I again want to thank everyone who supports me here, i could not do any of this without you. You've changed my life for the better in so many ways :) I love you all
Hello everyone :) Practicing headshots today!
Normally I like to post 10 of these but honestly it's been so long since Ive really been taking headshots consistently that I'm just really out of practice. I also tried something new with my makeup today which I didn't really like how it came out, my hair isn't cooperating how I'd want it to and I haven't figured out the best spots for lighting or anything in this apartment, so I don't really have 10 photos I like to even show you 😔. BUT it's okay because, well, i'm practicing and i'll do a better job next time and hopefully get a photo I like more.
My 1 year HRT anniversary is coming up and I'd like to have a really nice headshot to post for that day, so that's why i'm practicing in advance. I'll probably try more headshots tomorrow and on the 7th until I get one I really love, so I hope you don't mind if I spam you with my practice takes til then :)
Good morning everyone 🥰🥰
I've been doing so well the last week!! I've been really proud of how hard i'm working, I've been eating well and doing my makeup and hair frequently which helps me stay feeling good about myself :)
I've started watching a new anime, "March comes in like a lion", im only on episode 3 but I hear it's very sad, which I like for some reason 😅. I've been streaming a good amount as well as posting photos to my twitter regularly as well, and post frequency here is up by a lot. All together things just feel really good right now for me, and I just wanted everyone to know that :)
HAPPY FIRST OF JULY !!! I have a vibrator video today 😈
I actually totally thought I posted this yesterday but apparently it didn't go through >.> DISASTER !!! But it's really hot so I hope it makes up for it 🥰
I'll post more photos later today that I had taken as well :>
lingerie photos as promised :>
Tomorrow I'm hoping to take some more casual nudes while I rest up my energy after doing photos today + an 8.5 hour stream, i'm a little exhausted now so i'll give myself a light work day to recover a little i hope :) but i really want to get 4 days of posts in a row !! so i'll do my best :)
hot photos tonight :> tomorrow i'll try on some of my new lingerie and show you how that looks 🥰🥰
I had a good productive day today, worked on my apartment just a little more, things are coming together so well i'm very proud honestly. I got a couple more things to organize with that'll be really helpful, and a new hairbrush i'm fucking obsessed with because it's SO SOFT AND it brushes through my hair so easily omg it's literally life changing 😭 generally just a really good day for me today, a lil sleepy a lil comfy a lil productive, and i'm excited for tomorrow!!
Hi everyone!!
Back from Vacation 🥰 so i'm just doing a little vlog where I show some of the lingerie i bought while in japan and talk for a lil bit and catch up. Tomorrow we go back to posting hot pics!! I'll take something casual to ease myself into it and then hopefully start taking cool pics in the new underwear sets 😇 also, i got a maid outfit while in japan which i plan to try get some high effort photos in this week! You only get 1 chance to wear a maid outfit for the first time ever so, I might take a little while to try get the photos and post absolutely perfect, but i'm really excited to post photos in it 🥰
I hope you like the silly lil video I did my best to be energetic and stuff, it's very late here I did a comeback stream and caught up w my friends who i haven't seen in weeks so I was a bit exhausted but I did my best 😊
hi guys :) i'm back from japan!! jet lagged as hell but doing okay :)
I've been unpacking today (and i'm basically finished already which i'm really proud of, i didn't procrastinate it at all), and i have a couple pictures of some of the stuff i put about my apartment for now. i haven't shown much apartment progress for a while but i'd like to show you guys how much it's come along soon, maybe in a video!!
Tomorrow is the pride parade in my city and so, I'll be attending that for sure and i'll try take pics and stuff of my outfit and makeup to show you!! and then starting on monday i'll get back to work and start taking hot photos in some of the new outfits and lingerie i bought hopefully 😇
a lil update and japan trip photo dump :) The trip is going really really well!! It's actually absurd how much stuff we've managed to do in just 10 days - we've been to 5 different cities, stayed at 4 different hotels, taken the high speed rail train 4 times, went to a beach went to 3 different shrines went to the royal palace in kyoto, had lots and lots of food (i've had ramen about 6 times so far lmao) and done LOADS of shopping. I left half of my suitcase empty for the way back and i'm pretty much completely out of room now with all the stuff I've bought. I really can't wait to show it and take photos and stuff and just wear the clothes out as well. I got SO MUCH LINGERIE btw it's gonna be so hot when i show u i swear 😇
It's been pretty much impossible to find the time for photos n content here so far because we haven't really taken any time to stop and just have a break, basically every day is hours of walking/shopping/sightseeing, my feet are absolutely killing me and my arms are exhausted from hauling luggage between hotels 😮💨 BUT today we're travelling to a hot spring for one night where i'll finally get to relax i hope !! and maybe if things go well i can take some photos there :)
I'm back on the 23rd!! so thank u for ur patience until then :) I really appreciate it!!
HI EVERYONE SORRY FOR NOT POSTING SOONER IVE BEEN IN JAPAN 😵💫😵💫😵💫
Things are going SO well here!!! It's been pretty non stop every day since i've got here so I really haven't had time to do anything work related, which honestly I'm fine with because I've been shopping a TON and buying so many new clothes and outfits that I can wear and model in, and I'm only like 5 days into the trip lmao. I plan on doing way more shopping in the next few days as well.
The first day we got here was the 8th around 5pm, and I was honestly so tired from the 14 hour flight that I just crashed and slept until the next day so really the trip began for me on the 9th. We landed in Tokyo, and stayed at Akihabara for 4 nights, and checked out like 5 different neighborhoods in Tokyo and like I mentioned earlier did a load of shopping, we went to an art exhibit, checked out some of the nightlife and got street food, went to an arcade (I WON ONE OF THE CLAW MACHINES BTW !!!!!), went to the pokémon center in tokyo, as well as the Nintendo store AAAA THERES SO MUCH TO DO here it's crazy!!! also I got a maid outfit 😎 some skirts some tops new shoes, it's amazing 😮💨
On the 12th, we left tokyo and took the bullet train to Osaka to stay here until the 16th! Right now it's noon in Japan time and we're off to do MORE shopping here as well today :) i'm spending so much money but it's fine because i'm getting so much cool stuff and new clothes 🥰 and i'm trying new food as well which is awesome too!
I'll update you again when I get the chance!! There's so much i've done and it's hard to fit it all into a short text message aaaaaa
Hello hello 😌😌😌
24 hours til my flight to Japan!!! I'm spending today packing everything, all I have to do other than pack is make a last minute trip to get some sunscreen and maybe a pair of shorts to wear, so I did my makeup nicely to make myself feel good 🥰 AND I'm also gonna try get a last minute nail appointment so I have nice new nails when I arrive 😎
Im very excited and anxious, trying my best not to over pack but its also a 16 day trip and I don't want to end up wearing the same 2 outfits over and over again so >.> I might be overpacking a little bit 😖
I got a bigger suitcase though and I'm trying to keep one half of it totally empty, that way I have loads of room to bring back trinkets and souvenirs and new clothes and whatever other stuff I buy while i'm there 🥰
I'll definitely take lots of photos and show you guys here!! It's an aoife promise !!!
Just some nice photos and short videos today 😇
Japan in 2!!!! more days !!!! 😱
I probably have to focus the next couple days now on getting ready for the trip and fitting in a stream + twitter posts so expect a few days without posts as i'll be a little occupied :> but i'll definitely take photos the day of the trip and photo dump a bunch of them here even if they're not the spiciest or anything 😇
I've been very proud of my effort the last week, I hope you've enjoyed the change of pace with posts here compared to the last couple of months!! It's made me really happy honestly. I like working hard for people 🥰
late night pic because i'm tired from all the high effort days 😇
today i went out shopping and got a bunch of stuff! I'll show it off tomorrow :) i got a new plushie, some new makeup stuff, and a suitcase for my trip to Japan :> it was nice also to just eat a lot of food today because i've been working pretty hard and i struggle to eat when i get in the zone with taking photos >.>
tomorrow i'll be doing one last day of trying to take photos and then i'll probably just be focusing on streaming and social media's until my Japan trip as well posting as some nudes n stuff here 🥰
good morning happy pride month everyone 🥰
i posted a photo sort of like this a little bit ago, but it was just a lazy mirror selfie, i liked it though as a concept so i kindof did it again a bit more high effort with my makeup and stuff looking nice 😇
i'm gonna be taking more photos again today for 3 effort days in a row :) my goal like i mentioned is to try get a couple days ahead of posting and then i can take a day or 2 to work on my apartment and stream without falling behind on posting. I'm pretty happy with how things have been going so far, though i have a lot more work to do for sure. but i feel good about my effort levels :) and that makes me happy!
More of the striped sweater outfit 😈
Also hey!! 2 days in a row of posting :> look at me go :) I spent today as well taking more photos so I can get 3 days in a row of high effort which i'll be very proud of 😎 my goal is to also take photos/videos again tomorrow and then set myself up to have some free time to focus on other things for a few days like my stream/twitter/socializing and getting ready for Japan trip 😎
I'm in a great mood today and my makeup is beautiful, i'm so so so happy with how it's looked these last 2 days 🥰
big photo dump :) i've been taking photos for hours today !! very proud of my makeup and my effort and work today :)
going to try get some more pictures and stuff taken before the end of the day and try schedule in advance some posts for the next few days, that way i can focus on my other work stuff without leaving you guys with no content for a long time >.> cus i've been bad at that!!
I think my (hopeful) goal is to record enough content in 1 session to last for at least 3-4 days, so that i can stream and answer dms and do twitter stuff and just take a day off guilt free! I think it's a smart idea and I hope it works out :>
Another vlog post to update you guys about where my brain is at and stuff :) sorry i look like ass i had laser at 11am and am on very little sleep and stuff >.>
Mostly it's just me talking about random thoughts. Kindof a disorganized mess of a video but tbh my brain rn is in a disorganized mess so it makes sense. I just talk a little about how i'm doing a bad job getting into a routine or having consistency in my life right now, with the apartment move and constant visitors and getting sick and an upcoming trip to japan i just cannot ever get into a consistent routine and that... really frustrates me I guess. I don't really know what my solution is right now except wait out the japan trip and try fix things afterwards. blegh.
I just wanted you guys to know where my head is at and that i still care about things even if i haven't been doing a great job. I promise i'm gonna try improve and fix my disorganized life eventually 🙈 i really love and appreciate you all for continuing to support me through these phases 😭
Showing a lil bit of pp for the first time in... i have no idea how long >.> very nervous abt this as usual but i hope it's alright if it's just a short video 🙈
I've been really really self conscious about showing it for a while honestly, and I'm trying to think of a way that works for me showing it :) I think... i'm just gonna be really really certain that I like the photo/video of it before I ever post it, because sometimes I post photos I'm not really that happy about or excited about and I can regret those later. But I'll just make sure to not regret these kinds of posts 😇 that's my solution! Enjoy :)
hi i'm tired as hell
i've been having a good few days with my friends kiyana and raven :) today we have more stuff to do, i'm gonna go watch Fast X with Raven at the theatre later 😎😎
I'm a bit socially exhausted otherwise, i'm really just too introverted to be able to keep up with all the socializing stuff i've done so far this year, it's been really draining for me and kindof paralyzing as well. It's like... really hard to get work done at all when people are over which makes me feel bad and sort of feeds a negative brain spiral (NOT GOOD when ur trying to be social around friends visiting). Still, i'm having fun and doing my best, I think i've been doing well on twitter this week which feels good because I sort of had a period there if not being able to work hard on that while I was sick. The apartment has come together even more recently with some new furniture stuff, though it's still a while off being finished which is a little frustrating in its own way. I'm kind of venting a lot here which feels nice though :> so i appreciate if you read everything :) I'll see you soon!
hi hi :)
I did my makeup and hair and wore cute underwear and felt really pretty today 😎 if you wanna tell me what you think of my hair and say nice things about it i'd really appreciate it because i'm kindof new to styling it myself and i could use the confident boost 🥰
My twitter friends come visit tonight at midnight!! So I've been super busy trying to get the apartment cleaned and everything tidy and sorted for them. I tried to get some more furniture stuff in because they'll probably be spending a lot of time at my apartment and while my place is good enough for just me it's not really equipped for multiple people to be able to entertain themselves 🥲 so i got a TV stand and a small tv and some chairs for ppl to sit :>
I'm gonna try work extra extra hard today and get some more photos or short videos, so you have content for the next few days, im about to hit 300k on twitter so i'll probably do something exciting for that :>
just another midnight post from me 😌
today was a good day!! i finally got my new mirror up on my bedroom wall (as you can see in the photo :>), i cleaned my whole ass apartment i got some more furniture and a tv so when i have my twitter friends over soon we can all hang out and watch stuff together 🥰
I wanted to say one more time btw just how proud i am of the eyeshadow look i did last night! it took me literally 2 hours to do and it's easily the best i've ever done in my life :> so i'm proud and happy as hell. And I want to try it again soon 😎
Headshots :> and a super duper high effort makeup look!! been a minute since I did headshots and these are GORGEOUS omg. The makeup took me hours but I love it so much I'm honestly tempted to not go to bed tonight so I can actually wear it tomorrow lmaooo 🥰🥰
God I am so so hyped about these photos i actually crushed it so hard with everything aaaaa I hope you like them as much as I do :)
Hey guys :)
Irl issues (mostly) resolved, sickness (mostly) gone (just a bit of a runny nose and mild cough still to go), and energy levels mostly back to normal, so, back to the posting grind again.
Getting sick kindof, really messed with my momentum in a not fun way, and i'm a very momentum based person so it was kind of really crappy. But I think my headspace is still mostly good and I want to get back to photos and stuff once again 😎
My plan for the week is to stream a LOT, so, that'll be pretty exhausting, and starting from the 15th I'll have guests over so that'll also be pretty exhausting, but I also want to do a bit of shopping for some outfits and do some more high effort photo sets again, as well as some interesting artsy photos, instead of just nudes and mirror selfies cus im getting very very bored of them 😭
hi short update, having mild personal issues irl, having trouble focusing on other things atm, hard to deal with this stuff while just getting over being sick. sorry
