Disclaimer, Tuesdays video I sound like I am being mauled by..
Disclaimer, Tuesdays video I sound like I am being mauled by a bear. Watchers beware 😅🖤
2024-03-23 15:12:30 +0000 UTC View Post
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• needy • It’s hard to ask for what we want. Not just in th..
• needy • It’s hard to ask for what we want. Not just in the bedroom but in relationships in general, romantic & otherwise. Telling a friend you need more time with them. You miss them but don’t want to be a burden knowing their life is just as busy as yours. Or Asking a lover for a back rub at the end of a long day, knowing you both have had a long day. For me, an orgasm can be in of the hardest things to just randomly ask for, especially when my partner isn’t in the mood to receive themself. It makes me feel like I’m asking for too much. I’ve never been in a relationship where my orgasms mattered as much as they do to my current partner. Previous parties only ever cared about their own, if they could get off the sex must have been good for both of us who cared if my pleasure was less than satisfactory. Because of this not only did I get used to my orgasms not being important but I also didn’t know how to ask for what I wanted DURING sex. Touch me here, slow down, speed up, put them both in your mouth, etc. but being with my current partner, someone who genuinely cares about my orgasms and care about my pleasure in the bedroom and outside of it, she’s been reconditioning me to ask for my needs to be met. Some people get really hung up on “I shouldn’t have to ask, they should just know” but in reality we grow and change in so many ways throughout a relationship that your partner will never be a perfect mind reader. No one is. However you can see how much a person respects your needs by how well the follow through after you’ve expressed the importance to you. “I’d really like it if you got be flowers more often” goes from never getting flowers to a new bouquet every month, or every week, or whenever they can afford it but they do it more often and if that’s THEIR best, then that’s what matters. Telling your partner quality time matters a lot to you, and you two discussing what quality time means to each of you and finding ways both of you can feel loved and seen during those times. Letting your partner know exactly where you want their hands or their tongue, guiding them towards your orgasm, allowing your partner to pleasure you to your exact specifications can heighten the connection for both people. You get to orgasm in a way that’s most satisfying to you, and your partner now knows your body more and more because you’ve told them your needs. Your sex life can only improve and grow closer with that level of vulnerability. You aren’t “needy” you are a human with needs. Allow yourself to lean into them. Denying yourself that vulnerability is denying yourself of intimate connection. Be vocal. Be open. Be raunchy. Be soft. Be needy.
2024-03-21 13:29:52 +0000 UTC View PostHey all!! This weekend m and I will have driven practically ..
Hey all!! This weekend m and I will have driven practically 40 hours in three days. We are exhausted and not able to film this weekend. No video Tuesday, hopefully by Thursday we are back to our routine ❤️ love yall , appreciate yall. Im currently typing this at 11:49 pm with 11 more hours to go. Wish us luck 🍀 enjoy Paddy’s day
2024-03-17 06:51:04 +0000 UTC View Post• lunch break • How would you react if you came home to you..
• lunch break • How would you react if you came home to your partner dressed up in lingerie and spread for you on the bed? This is how my partner reacted to me in this exact scenario. Ever since they came home in the middle of me “working” they have been eager to come home and ravage me in the middle of the day. These spur of moment sessions throughout our week have kept us feeling connected, desired, and wanted, even though we are spending less time together now that M has found their passion and is working to accomplish it. Life ebbs and flows. There are periods of life where your priorities and sense of accomplishment exceeds the frame of a relationship. Having a partner who you can be interdependent with is so important. It takes two to keep the passion in a relationship alive even when you’re in a season of individual success. That appreciation for eachother and dedication to eachothers goals gives your partner the emotional freedom from having to worry if they aren’t doing enough for the relationship and, in my opinion, motivates eachother to show up with more Quality time rather than having a quantity of less-than-adequate time together. Even if it is just a quickie on a lunch break. 😉 All that said, I hope you enjoyed the video. Wish us luck and safe travels while we embark on an 18 hour drive to our new home. If you’re feeling generous please tip your servers 🙏🙏🙏 we could use all the support we can get through this move. We are grateful for yall, have a wonderful weekend, stay safe and as always don’t do anything I wouldn’t do 😘
2024-03-14 22:10:56 +0000 UTC View PostThere is a video coming tonight! Currently packing for an 18..
There is a video coming tonight! Currently packing for an 18 hour road trip to our new (to us) home!!!! 🏠🤯🥰 I can’t wait for all the new memories and filming spaces. I’m so genuinely excited for this adventure. Thank you all for helping my family find peace through such an unconventional career. I cannot thank yall enough. Cant wait for you to see todays video 🖤 you deserve all the love 👏👏👏
2024-03-14 15:37:53 +0000 UTC View Post• safe spaces • In all my years of self pleasure, never on..
• safe spaces • In all my years of self pleasure, never once has someone come home in the middle of a session- until now 🫢 You have seen in previous videos that I do enjoy having my partner tend to me while I masturbate, but when I am alone, I have a strict “no masturbation unless the house is empty” rule. I like to feel comfortable enough to talk dirty to myself, to take my time, to fully appreciate my body how I want to without fear of perception or judgement. I was raised in a culture that shames people especially AFAB bodies for touching themself. In church women were considered unclean for having those desires and in my past I would bury my desire far under my own bed, along with the privacy tab on my phone. As I’ve learned more about healthy sex and healthy pleasure, I’ve learned that having discussions around these feelings with a partner, talking to them about the kind of porn you watch or the kind of self pleasure you partake in may feel vulnerable at first. But it was those very conversations that saved me from embarrassment in this video when I heard my own partner come home early in the middle of a session. My immediate reaction was to freeze. The shame and embarrassment that was taught to me around masturbation started to well up in my brain. Am I gross or weird? is my partner going to judge me? what if this ruins their day? what if what if what if. While the chatter in my head continued to risk assess , I soothed my mind with the knowledge that those fears were not personified in my partner. She was not going to judge me or laugh at me in a negative way. No more than I could laugh at myself for the compromising position I was in. I decided to just break the ice. & wouldn’t I know it, my partner showed up exactly how I knew they would despite my embarrassment and fears. She was more upset that she had to go back to work rather than jump on camera with me. She complimented me and appreciated my body , before getting back to her day. It is SO normal for our brains to project our insecurities onto situations we would consider embarrassing. We can become defensive or shamed by our own minds, and that could’ve easily turned into a completely different out come in this video. It could’ve caused me to not finish myself & in consequence not finish the video at all. Instead I changed the pattern of shame and made it comfortable for the both of us. To laugh and enjoy the silliness of the situation because it IS funny. To be caught touching yourself, clamps on, plug in, vibe going. The fact that both of us can giggle and appreciate the fun and sexiness of it together, was another bonding moment and opportunity for us to say, “I’m your safe space, you can just exist as you are.” 🌿
2024-03-12 14:11:21 +0000 UTC View PostBLOOPERS 🤪 What happens when I get caught masturbating 👀🥲
BLOOPERS 🤪 What happens when I get caught masturbating 👀🥲
2024-03-08 23:44:08 +0000 UTC View Post• toy tutorial • Something a little different tonight👀 I wa..
• toy tutorial • Something a little different tonight👀 I wanted to teach M how to use little red. I thought that it might be fun to explain how I personally like to use the toy, and introduce a way you can interact with your partners on an intimate level. Please enjoy watching me soak the bed, have a wonderfully sexy weekend, don’t do anything I wouldn’t do, and as always remember to tip your servers 😘
2024-03-08 03:16:45 +0000 UTC View Post• morning dew • Ive always been a morning person. The pink ..
• morning dew • Ive always been a morning person. The pink and orange hues coming in through the window, while dust dances in the light coming through a sheet we have hung over the glass sliding door. Air still and fresh, dozy eyes & wandering hands finding the soft curves of my woman’s skin guiding me from slumber to sensual awakening. I know her body like the back of my hand. I don’t need my eyes, letting my palms see for me, every inch of her body reads like a map, a route I know by heart. I love a slow morning. Slowly guiding my hand down her hips, slowly moving the blanket out of the way, slowly kindling the heat between her legs as if she alone is the ember that ignites my life, slowly feeling her pour into my mouth with a burst of energy better than any cup of coffee. It’s never a race, it’s hardly a marathon, it’s a Sunday drive going ten under the speed limit just to enjoy the wind in your hair. I could exist with just the sound of her breath on my neck, my name on her lips, her body is a symphony to me. A crescendo to caress and carry through to the finale. She is the first light at dawn, a bird song at first flight, the morning dew on the grass. She is my Magic in an ever-simple and over-complicated existence that we get to pretend doesn’t exist outside the four walls of our bedroom, if only for the morning.
2024-03-05 16:18:34 +0000 UTC View PostI HAVE NEVER SQUIRTED BEFORE using a toy , until this mornin..
I HAVE NEVER SQUIRTED BEFORE using a toy , until this morning. I can’t wait to post it next week for yall but for now, here is a sneak peak.
2024-02-29 16:00:23 +0000 UTC View PostREMINDER: no video today, taking a the last day off of the m..
REMINDER: no video today, taking a the last day off of the month to prefilm for March 🥵❤️ In other news we are putting in applications for a new place two states away 🤯🤯🤯 and prepping for that move in April / May. I cannot believe that soon we will have a completely new area to film in. We are going to miss the unique character and heart of our first home but are gland to take you along the journey with us. So stay tune for that 🥰 I hope you all have a wonderfully safe and sexy weekend, we can’t wait to see yall in March 🌿🌷❤️
2024-02-29 13:48:39 +0000 UTC View Post• directors cut • In most of my posts I talk about being au..
• directors cut • In most of my posts I talk about being authentic. “BASED ON A TRUE STORY” plastered everywhere in between and while yes, we act the same on and off screen it’s safe to say I try to keep the boring and mundane bits to a minimum. But this time round there are no cuts, no edits. Everything including looking for my toys, skipping through song choices, my lingerie getting in the way. The raw untouched version of me touching myself. And in partnership with b e l l e s a this month, I wanted have a play date with the toy pebble. To get one of your own, check the link on my TikTok page to enter for a free toy or gift card to their shop. Furthermore, in preparation for a busy month of March, we will not be posting a video this Thursday, taking the last day of February off resting & Prefilming for the next few episodes. I appreciate you all for your understanding, your support and participation in this community- yall really are the reason this job is so rewarding and meaningful to my life. and as always, thank for cumming 🌷😘
2024-02-28 02:20:41 +0000 UTC View Postvideo to be uploaded later tonight 🤭🥰
video to be uploaded later tonight 🤭🥰
2024-02-27 17:51:30 +0000 UTC View Post• our time • Masturbating. The taboo art of touching oursel..
• our time • Masturbating. The taboo art of touching ourselves that has been casted aside as a sinful act, a dirty dance, a fleshly fantasy we keep hidden away from everyone, sometimes including ourselves. I’ve received messages from women on every platform venting their frustrations because they CRAVE comfort in their own skin. There aren’t words to express how harrowing it is to know that not only I, but so many of my peers were taught to view our bodies this way. A forbidden fruit we can only offer to others but can never taste ourselves. Yet when we are alone there are more ways to love our bodies than just in a sexual manner. Think back on a time you mindlessly ran your finger across your own arm as you watched tv, when you’ve played with your own hair, dance/sang in the mirror just to move and have fun, or even massaged your own foot when taking off uncomfortable shoes.. in each way you were befriending, caring and comforting your body. It feels good, your skin feels soft, you’re giving into your bodies need for comfort and release- and it’s the same for every part of your body including the sexual organs. Let yourself scratch the itch that comes naturally. You deserve your soft skin beneath your own palms, your soft hair through your fingers, to look at yourself in the mirror and be confident in the image you see not because it fits the beauty standard but because it’s someone you love and want to take care of in its most vulnerable state. Treat yourself like a one night stand that keeps spending the night and somehow they end up still with you every morning for the rest of your life. Let yourself giggle and feel awkward because it is awkward. Let yourself explore your body like a tourist taking in scenic routes that locals take for granted. The world won’t end just because your orgasm was world shattering. Let yourself become music to your own ear, singing a melody only you get to hear alone in your room. Feel your chest rise and fall with every breath, every moan escape your lips. And give yourself grace after when the guilt sets in. Comfort foods and pajamas and blankets. A movie or book that feels like home. Take a shower or a bath, just lean into your own company and relax. I’ve even personally come to allow my partner into the experience because of the immediate aftercare I receive from them, which drowns out any intrusive thoughts of shame or repulsion. I can love my body and know I’m normal, I’m loved, I’m sexy even. My Me time, has become our time but above else I still get to share myself with ME. Your body is yours alone, so why should anyone else enjoy it more than you do?
2024-02-22 20:19:22 +0000 UTC View PostFire at the Station 🔥🥵 My favorite parts of this video are..
Fire at the Station 🔥🥵 My favorite parts of this video are the times we can’t help but break character. I hope you enjoy this playtime as much as we did.
2024-02-21 03:40:12 +0000 UTC View PostFire in the house … cumming Tuesday ;)
Fire in the house … cumming Tuesday ;)
2024-02-18 15:35:27 +0000 UTC View Post• Carpe Diem • Me and my funny valentine have spent the pas..
• Carpe Diem • Me and my funny valentine have spent the past 48 hours enjoying this Hallmark holiday in bed having sex, planning our wedding, eating comfort food, and enjoying each other’s presence in the present because life is short and these are the minutes, days, years, that we will never get back. I urge you all to seize the day this year. If not now, when? Having hope in this wretched world is innately rebellious. So Rebel with me. Take up hedonism with a sprinkle of optimistic nihilism. Fight for causes that don’t affect you , as much as you do for the ones that do. Be present. Be disciplined. Befriend the future version of yourself that you dream of being someday. Be the partner you want to have. The friend. The fill in the blank because we are more than just the titles we give ourselves. Be You. Be here. Be alive. Happy Valentine’s Day 💋❤️
2024-02-16 02:19:11 +0000 UTC View Post• my funny valentine • I get asked often if we are the same..
• my funny valentine • I get asked often if we are the same way on camera as we are in person, so In honor of valentines eve, I wanted to put together a compilation of my favorite clips including never before scenes of us just at home, being together. I have always been a fan of documenting my life. My sex life hasn’t escaped that. Going back and rewatching old clips of us together that we originally didn’t intend to share, is more heartwarming than it is panty soaking. Even though it most certainly soaked ours. The laughter, smiles, aftercare, the LOVE between two people is beautiful in every form- specially and more especially when shown in the Nude. There is a vulnerability we all refuse to speak of when it comes to sex and it leaves us feeling alone, like our kinks are odd, like if someone laughs at a noise we make we have to be embarrassed, like we can’t talk during sex because what if we don’t sound like the girls we’ve seen on screen. That is why I started this page in the first place, to show that we are all the same. Those thoughts and fears and insecurities don’t escape a single human being. So instead of hiding, I highlighted them. See us cry, and laugh, and have positions that aren’t shown often in porn because they aren’t the most flattering or best cum shots. I wanted to bring a community together that can partake in the humor and the relatability of intimacy. You deserve to be seen, to be heard, to feel and to be felt by the person you are sharing this experience with- Including when you’re alone. To know your body and be aroused by yourself is a learned skill, it’s a relationship you can build like any other. So strip down more than just your clothes. Allow yourself to feel everything that can be felt during the most pleasurable experience we have in our small human lives, and enjoy this compilation of me and my funny Valentine 🖤💋
2024-02-13 16:27:47 +0000 UTC View Post
Todays video will be up tomorrow 👀🍕💋
Todays video will be up tomorrow 👀🍕💋
2024-02-09 00:19:07 +0000 UTC View Post• dancing back decades • “If you’re interested in woman, w..
• dancing back decades • “If you’re interested in woman, why are you with one that dresses like a man” A condescending question dressed up in false logic, lack of knowledge, and just pure homophobia. Lesbian relationships have been invalidated time and time again no matter the pair; butch-femme, femme-femme, or even masc-for-masc. As if love can’t be love, as if sexual attraction can’t be valid, without a man involved. However, the history between masculine women and feminine is a long one. Dating back to the early 20th century, butches who cut their hair, carried themselves with more chivalry, and dressed more traditionally “masculine,” would find their femme counterparts at gay bars wearing more traditionally “feminine” clothes and makeup. Before gender fluidity was more acceptable, butch femme relationships were seen as a way to keep heteronormativity alive, shamed in some lesbian communities especially during the 70s with the rise of the feminist lesbian movement. Even though this argument is still around today, it is ill placed and lacks the nuance that a relationship between two lesbians could never be heteronormative. There are no men involved. The Butch-femme dynamic isn’t a recreation of old ideals, but in its own right is a unique way of loving and living, and for some was even a way to “pass” in society without being targeted directly. Today with the rise of more and more gender expressions, titles and sexualities that offer more space for people to find where they belong, some could argue that the terms butch&femme lock people into labels that are extreme simplifications of who each person is. Not every butch is a top, nor is every femme a bottom. Not every masc lesbian strictly dresses in a traditionally masculine way , nor do you owe anyone androgyny no matter how you identify. What is masculine vs. feminine is ever-evolving with the times. Looking at the love of my life, freely expressing her masculinity in a way that feels real to her, and being a femme nonbinary person myself, I can’t help but think about how lucky we are to live in the time we are in. As she takes me in her arms and twirls me around our kitchen, I feel part of a dance that goes back decades, and will continue to go on. For we have always been here, and always will be.
2024-02-06 15:06:34 +0000 UTC View Post• directors cut • Dialing things back before we get into o..
• directors cut • Dialing things back before we get into our Valentine’s Day vlogs. I know how much you love seeing the awkward positions & bloopers just as much as I love sharing them. These are the moments where you can truly see the connection and vulnerability between two people. If you cant laugh during sex, what are you doing? Sex should be Playful, a part of bonding not just bondage. So enjoy this unedited raw footage, and stay tuned for our retro role play coming up next week 💌😘
2024-02-01 22:21:47 +0000 UTC View Post
• blooming • The way this woman eats me out I swear, I leav..
• blooming • The way this woman eats me out I swear, I leave my body. I feel as though I’m laying on a field of flowers, delicately shaped to each curve as my head falls back over the bed. I cant tell where I stop existing and she begins. But I haven’t always been this way. When I first started having sex vaginas were (and lez be honest still are) a meme. Roast beef or fish delis, “innies vs outies,” the dehumanizing and ridiculing of female bodies has run rampant for years. As a virgin, watching porn of perfectly preformed orgasms & seeing these memes online, my biggest insecurity was being compared to those tropes and not living up to the women on screen. So instead, I told people I didn’t like to receive oral stimulation. And if anyone did wander down there I couldn’t reach a climax. Was I too hairy? are my razor bumps ugly? is my clit too long? Is my labia in the way? Every negative thought I could think was wrapped up in the perception of how society and the patriarchy viewed our bodies. It hindered my ability to have a fully vulnerable and fulfilling sex life. So, I started to explore healthy sex and body images that I truly shifted my vision. The universe around us naturally resembles vaginas every day, whether it’s in the fruit we eat or the way flower petals fold. Vaginas are self cleaning, a muscle we can stretch and strengthen, & they are the portal for life. The clitoris alone has approximately 10,300 nerve fibers on average, just for our pleasure. Everyone’s body is different, everyone enjoys different stimulation & truly oral may not be for you. But why would I cheat myself out of that pleasure only fear? I am human. My sexual organ is going to smell & look like an organ. When spread labia resembles a ripe strawberry dripping down my fingertips, why shouldnt someone take a bite? I don’t mind the warmth between my legs, or the swelling when aroused, Especially knowing now that my woman’s scent is the only fragrance I want on my skin. I could wear her like perfume, drink her like tea. I’d do anything at all only to watch her petals bloom just for me.
2024-01-30 23:05:58 +0000 UTC View Post• take a break • Mentally checking out today, been having ..
• take a break • Mentally checking out today, been having internet issues, uploading this took a whole hassle, and truly my brain feels fried. Sometimes when tech does this and my whole job revolves around tech, I take it as a sign from the universe to be more present that day. So that’s what I am choosing to do and give myself a break from my creative writing today. Please enjoy this video, I REALLY enjoyed making it. Remember to relax as well, and maybe even take good 😘 care of you this weekend 🤍
2024-01-25 18:17:07 +0000 UTC View Post• I am • Twice just this week, I’ve had someone ask me abou..
• I am • Twice just this week, I’ve had someone ask me about my ego. One voice inspired, in question, how do I exude the confidence I do? The other repulsed, my head seemingly too big for my shoulders in their eyes, I needed to be kicked down a peg, why would someone choose me when there are plenty others out there instead? My answer to each question, was the same either way. My perspective is what sets me aside from the mundane. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m regrettably human and flawed as we all are. But I’ve made friends with my reflection & have enjoyed watching them change and grow. My crows feet carrying dark bags of wisdom, knowing I know nothing and there is so much more to learn. Embedded in my cheeks there are laugh lines placed permanently where frowns couldnt form so deep. I am all of the people before me, and the personification of their day dreams of generations they birthed. I am made of space and am a kin to the earth. Why shouldn’t I celebrate the fact that I exist? When there is so much more to do, and so much that I would miss. Is love something given to us based off what we do, or who we are? Do we only want to be loved for what we can bring to the table? Or to be loved by someone just because they are able to see inside our heart? Of course the answer is simple, we want someone to see us as a whole human being. Our highs not overshadowed by our lows. Someone who knows our ugly and still makes us feel beautifully seen. So, why can’t we create that for ourselves? The voice in our head, The only person we truly share all of our experiences with, every day to day with no end. To observe our thoughts without judgement, to be proud of productivity & even more proud of rest, all while not keeping score. To be or not to be, was never a question. I just.. am. Nothing less, nothing more.
2024-01-23 16:11:05 +0000 UTC View Post