Just worked a couple charity events so it's been a hell of a couple days, I got to meet the Celtics! Unfortunately because I was working the event we wernt allowed to take pictures or ask for autographs. I'll do an update on Instagram later to explain further about the event as it wasn't for adults lol
Rebill is coming tonight with this outfit, giving some time for new subs π make sure your rebill is on or you won't recieve the free set, rebill pics/videos are never posted π₯°
I hope everyone has a good holiday, holidays are very hectic for me cause I have 2 sides of the family to visit π anyone else have to do that? Will be getting to DMs after Thanksgiving π
I'm really sorry I haven't posted, sometimes I feel like some people don't understand that I am a person too who struggles. So many things have been weighing on me these past few months. Other than mental health one of the main things is that I do not have my own space to do the photos I want to do, most the time I'll rent an air bnb or hotel but that adds up. I haven't wanted to post because I haven't sent out the rebill and if I post and not send the rebill then it's a problem so then I'm stuck in this cycle in my head where I shouldn't post because I haven't done the rebill. That was even just annoying to type. Then it comes down to outfits ect which adds up as well. I have no idea what to wear, I'd love to do cosplay but that gets expensive. I want to do twitch but I have to buy a set up. I have a set up in mind but I'm thinking about getting it for cyber Monday so it's cheaper. Dealing with diagnosed PCOS and depression/anxiety messes with me alot too and I know some here can relate to the depression and anxiety part. It's also been incredibly overwhelming because I have people who I personally don't talk to anymore stalki.ng me which is the main reason I stopped posting to tiktok. I find myself not wanting to post on there cause it's crazy behavior that this person after 2 years will not move on and leave me tf alone and focus on their own life, so I don't want them to see what I'm doing so I declined in posting. They even have gone as far as to have soneone out in Texas pay for my OF and have them send my content to them, which is seriously weird behavior coming from a female. Then there's me still trying to process the passing of my mum, growing up I never experienced the loss of close family members, the first time being in 2018. I still don't know how to grieve properly and it's either I wild n out or I Isolate. I'm still figuring it out. I'd like yo get a hotel this week and just spend the entire day shooting content and getting back on track. This year has not been the greatest, last year I was doing so good and very consistent for a whole year with no interruption. This year not so much and that makes me feel worse. I really want to schedule another shoot with taco but again that adds up. I'm hoping soon for that too. Give me a couple more days and I will have the rebill done, back to posting and answeringmessages, after I will start finalizing the fundraiser.
I hope everyone had a safe halloween, unfortunately mine was cut short due to incredible pain (lady things) so I will be doing the rebill monday* (update) as I have to take them I don't already have it and even just standing right now im having a hard time doing. I have been diagnosed with PCOS so my monthly is alot more painful than most. That might be TMI but so is this page π€£, there will be videos as well because I've had this one idea with my body suit since the zipper doesn't like to stay up and will unzip by itself π as well as more from the black and red corset. I did order more outfits as well that I am waiting on for futire posts. And yes I understand how long it's been for the fundraiser and yes we are still working on it and yes it is still happening. If you bombard about it and get aggressive about it in my comments you will not be eligible for the free extras that will be included for the inconvenience of waiting. I have in fact proven to quite a few subscribers the issues I'm facing including screen.shots of the amount they donated not showing up on my side on their profile information. If you've donated if you would like to help speed the process up faster please send a screen.shot of what it says you've donated specifically to the fundraiser so I can make sure it's the correct amount so you don't think you're getting ripped off. If you donated enough for 2 Pics and it only shows enough for 1 and you only get 1, that's just an issue I don't want to deal with. Work with me here instead of adding to the stress.
Should we incorporate more of this outfit in the rebill bundle π it's been a hell of a Halloween week and isn't quite over yet! Last year I was red riding hood and spyro, this year I've done Jason, black and white clown, and I have another in mind for actual Halloween π
Flapper girl vibes β¨οΈ black and red up next β¨οΈ I'm going to be doing some Halloween costumes after, a clown with a zipper that just won't stay closed and my favorite basic serial k*ll*er π₯°
Last few days have been so annoying but thankfully it's all smoothed out now. Today, one of the buildings apparently was infested (just another reason to get out of this complex) so the surrounding buildings to that building had to be fumigated. What was originally supposed to only be 2 hours of us evacuating, turned into 5 ππ any wayyy bat girl to the rescue lolll
I think this is one of my favorite sets ngl. Definitely want to do another shoot with this outfit π₯ that first picture is so π² sometimes surprise myself, I think I do so bad but then I get some pictures back amd I'm like...that's me π³π₯°
Tonight's rebill (make sure its on) will be a sneak peak to the next outfit. The next outfit was inspired from Star Wars: Episode VI Return of the Jedi. Getting to know me for a minute, I grew up on star wars. Now I'm not saying I'm deep into it because I don't know everything, but I know enough to make me annoyed with the direction some of the movies have gone. π€·πΌββοΈ I grew up on star wars, star trek, thunder cats, Indiana Jones, Tarzan, Xena ect. I want to start getting into cosplay for alot of these things. π (foreshadowing?) π€
I know some may have their opinions about the fundraiser but I also know I have proven myself numerous times with receipts the problems I've come across. To those who have been waiting and haven't been negative about it which is about 97%, in real life you are the type that someone (me included) would/does really appreciate. Narrow mindedness isn't attractive. I stand by everything I've said in past updates and this IS happening. And no, I'm not guna deactivate and not deliver. I'm very transparent. And I pride myself with that. I hope if you're still reading this, you have the best day you deserve. Remember to always be humble and kind β¨οΈ
Thank you for reaching out but I am OK! It was my friend I had to take her to get an emergency surgery (she was the one who said I could post the pic update) she is healthy and now doing very well π I then had to rush to the Pavillion in NH by Laconia for a concert with my un.cle, he got me these tickets for my birthday earlier this year π₯° Daughtry, Stained and my top 5 favorite breaking Benjamin π₯° I'm already itching to go to another concert π
I had someone respectfully comment on my weight, that they noticed I've gained a lil but in a good way. With the passing of my mum and being able to get whatever food I want, I've definitely indulged in myself. As I should. I've always been up and down with weight my whole life due to a health condition (PCOS) but I always remember this, If you feel others are cruelly judging your weight just always remember that weight changes. But the ones who speak ill on you will always remain noxious inside. That's why those people are internally alone.
Sorry about that! I ran off of no sleep and helped my friend work an event yesterday outside and got the worst heat headache, I was so out of it when I got home I almost fell asleep in the bathtub twice π I pretty much slept all day today to regenerate but I still have a pounding headache it hurts to look at the screen just typing this on the lowest bright setting π
Fundraiser update: Fundraiser will start going out at some point next week! It's going to be sent a few people at a time per day so that way if there's any problems, they can be taken care of fast and efficiently.
Kitchen plans got thorted I forgot my roommate had today off π so I'll probably do kitchen stuff for tomorrow or Thursday, today I am working on finally fixing my hair so it's probably either going to look weird for a couple days depending if I can get it all done in one day, getting to the rest of messages later today as well π₯°
After I get to some messages I'm going to take a shower, gotta shave my legs and what not, I do get waxed for certain areas if you're curious to know π then probably take a bath after π i will be posting in the morning after I also take morning photos in my kitchen π very excited for what I'll be working on by the end of this weekend (yes also fundraiser related lol) then there's the rebill bundle π₯° I will be making a rough draft if you will for the boob pressed paintings this week as well. With a boob painting it will include a video of me finishing the last step of your painting (colors of your choosing) where I will also answer a series of (discussed and approved) questions. I am unsure what pricing will be at this moment for that but that's why I'm doing the test one first, then see options of what it will cost to ship (I want shipping to be as cheap and fast as possible but will also check for fastest available as well) don't forget to see if your rebill is on for the 1st-2nd for the free bundle π₯°
Like I always say, if I skip a day, I'll post double, if I skip 2 then I'll post triple π₯° I'm not a robot, sometimes I need a day or two to myself βΊοΈπ«ΆπΌ