I never know how much I should talk about my mental health on here. On one hand, that’s not why any of us are here - if anything, this is a place to escape the BS of our everyday lives. On the other hand, though, I have loved being very open and personal with you all and giving you every part of myself, not just the shiny and carefully selected nudes. I am certainly an over-sharer, which like all things in life, is only good in moderation. I never want to make anyone uncomfortable by making comments that are “too real” or suddenly cast a sober light on the conversation that was not anticipated or asked for. However, I need to explain my absence without warning these past several days. I sincerely love and appreciate you all, and I do not want you to think I take your support for granted and openly disrespect you by disappearing out of no where.
In this day in age, I would wager that about half or a little more than half of us are on a medication - or two or ten - of some sort. For the past several years, I’ve been on a concoction of varying meds, all fairly intense. It’s been a never ending cycle that you might be familiar with: get new prescription, start the new med, experience the new side effects for the first couple weeks, try to gage the real effect(s), make it to the follow up appointment, have the prescription changed, and repeat it all over again. And it’s always been funny to me - that sometimes the side effects are the very things you’re aiming to get rid of.
Part of the reason I escaped to this cabin in the middle of no where was to spare people around me from my insane irritability and mood swings while playing this game of musical medications. I should have realized how easy it would be for me to completely isolate myself from all socialization - and I mean all socialization. Even though I know it is self destructive, because I really love socializing and need it. Anyway... what I’m trying to express is how sincerely sorry I am to have disappeared once again. I never want ANYONE to think that I am ignoring them out of disinterest or forgetfulness. It couldn’t be further from from what is actually happening. I guess what I want you to know is that I will never take your generosity for granted, and that I will do everything possible to make up for my episodes of absence. Thank you always ❤️
P.S. here is my photo shoot with the fire I failed to build the other night, lol
Hi 💙 Since I last spoke with you guys, I failed to recover from the weird illness and my sister ended up driving here so that if something happened, someone would know. She had to leave today, but I am starting to feel much better. I am so sorry to have gone AWOL :( I haven’t started to look at messages yet because I have to run to the store quickly, but once I get back I will be replying!! In the meantime, here’s a few shower/bath pics 💦
I’ve waited so long for this to upload that my hair turned white 👩🏻🦳👵🏼 Part of my post-Halloween costume arrived today so I was playing around ;) I was going to put music to these clips because I look awkward dancing to no music lol, but just couldn’t find the right song.. I don’t think most of you would like my taste in music, either 😅 alas, thank you for your patience ❤️😘
Okay I’m saying fuck it and using my data and will deal with Verizon launching overage fees at me later. I’m losing my mind. I miss this so much. I’m going to try going live again tonight and will do a try on of some new stuff I got - what time works best?
EDIT: I forgot to mention, the rebill videos will be sent out tomorrow night - I'm so sorry for the delay!! Love you
Hi!! I'm back now!! I have to leave before noon tomorrow, and have a ton of packing and random errands to do, so I will try to catch up as much as I can tonight, but tomorrow night is when I'll really be able to be fully present. Thank you again for being so understanding these past few weeks - I can't wait to show you my gratitude very soon ;). 💙💙Josie
Some pics as a warm up ;) I was dancing, which is why they look like weird poses, lol. At the end is the video I teased about.. I came, really, super fucking hard. Happy Halloween and enjoy your extra hour of sleep 💙💙 Thank you for being patient with me during this chaotic week/end!! I really fucking love you all
Hi :) I am going to be uploading a long video this weekend - either tonight or tomorrow, 13 min! It’s my sisters birthday so Im on a family trip :) which means I’m gonna be a little choppier with responding, but I have wifi so I will do my best!! I love you 💙
Should I surprise you guys with my Halloween costume or have you help me decide? It's gonna be after Halloween of course lol, if there's one word to describe me it's "late."
Hi 💙 I’m really sorry this is so late tonight :( I brainstormed all day for something different I could do for you all. There’s a lot of kink stuff I want to get into soon, but it will have to wait for one more week.. in the meantime, I give you a very raw set of videos of me making myself cum standing up in the shower. The last one is especially explicit and I haven’t shaved recently so I’m sorry about that 😣 The context is that I made myself cum twice more (couldn’t film, I’m sorry) and this is.. uh, what my clit looks like after that. Anyway, sweet dreams/have a great day everyone 🥰
Hi my favorite people ever. I hope you've gotten through your Mondays unscathed. All of today I have been thinking about all of the different things I can do/make when I move :,) I'm so excited, and hopeful that you guys will love it, too. Someone suggested I do a naked cooking show 😂 which might be more of a comedy than porn, because I don't know how to cook for shit. But I'm going to teach myself how to! Naked! I've also been thinking a live stream game of truth or dare could be fun. I know one thing, I am going to be loud af because i don't even have close neighbors 😍 oh and I want to do something for Halloween! We discussed it a bit in the live stream the other day. This week will be hectic with packing and everything, but I'm going to try to get a costume together before Halloween. If not, I'll just do it belated next week. Anyway, I'm trying to work on something to post tonight and responding to messages. Thank you for being here 🥺💜💜💜 ILY
I wrote this great post and was ready to hit the button and it DELETED 😑 I can’t even remember what I said, something about a long overdue ass update even though I fell hard off the workout wagon (getting back into it this week I swear!!), life having peaks and valleys... uh, also something like “my ass may be lacking but at least my coochie’s phat!!” (see: figure 1). Also, last two are the blooper reel. I don’t know what happened there but it looks like I’m about to be attacked by an owl. (That’s a real thing, beware of owls. Google it. I promise you’ll have a new fear)
The live from last night! It's a lot of talking about random stuff (after the trying on), but I kept my tits out during it so if anything you can watch it on mute 😂 I was hyper
I got some new under-attire 🤪 so let’s do a live tonight so I can show you!! What time would work best? As always, it will be saved and posted if you can’t make it!
Hi again and happy Friday (TGTGTGTGTGIF) 🥵. So, I'm going to steal Kenzie's idea of doing rebill videos (so sorry girl, had to do it). Essentially, when your subscription renews I will be sending you an extra video (5 - 10 min). Because this is the first month, everyone whose subscription has been renewed this month will retroactively get the video, as well. If you have a recurring subscription, I'll send yours out on the first of every month (the retroactive ones will send out on Nov 1, too). If I'm being a dingus and this doesn't make sense/there's a flaw in this plan, please let me know lol. And please message me with some different ideas of what I should do for this month's video, if you have any! Also! Send me when your birthdays are. I'm gonna do a 1 min personalized vid for you. If it was in August, September, or October I'll do something retroactively for you.
In true Josie fashion, I present you my project 20 minutes before midnight 🌟 but actually, I’m fairly proud of this... and shocked at how good it actually felt..
Hi!!! I am super super sorry I've been so MIA yesterday and today! I am currently in the middle of the process of securing a month long rental 🙃😁 so I've just been on a ton of calls and emailing a million different property managers. BUT, all of the options I have right now have high speed internet so I can finally really get down and dirty 🤪 Also, I got a new toy so I'm excited to make many new videos ;) 💙💙💙 Will hopefully have this finished up by tomorrow at the latest, but will definitely be posting tonight!!
Some pics from this past weekend with Kenzie :) I’m so sorry I didn’t post these earlier.
Sometimes I feel like this is some sort of bizarre diary, and you’ve probably noticed that in some of my posts, too, lol. I like to just hide down in the second paragraph so that it isn’t thrown in the face of anyone that doesn’t want to read it. Today I just need to write, so I’m going to do that. As you likely have gathered by now, I’m living at home currently. I am so, so grateful that I have the ability to and that my parents are okay with it. I fared better in this pandemic because of it and I’m lucky. However, I like to say that we’re all a little fucked up by our parents because it’s true - to some magnitude, everyone has at least an issue or two that stemmed from their parents. Mine are blowing up in my face right now, because I am back here and the direct cause of them is ever present again. So, this morning I thought I’d start looking at somewhere to move or just rent for a few months to get away and clear my head so that I can figure out what I want from life and how I’m going to try to get it. Because right now I am goal-less, ambition-less and that doesn’t pair well with depression. This is literally the definition of over sharing and my therapist is going to have a field day about it, but I’ve always been an oversharer.... hence, the posting of my nudes all over the internet..
Anyway, I love you, thank you for being so great. I might continue being a bit quieter these next few days as I try to get out of the swamp I’m in. 💙
Hi!!! Kenzie and I are at the hotel now and are getting ready for the live 😋 I forgot to ask about custom requests!! We will be filming them tonight/tomorrow, so if you have a custom request you'd like, message me or Kenzie if you are subscribed to her, too, and we'll be happy to make it :) 💙
TGIF 😋 hope everyone’s week ended nicely... sound on for the vid ;) Don’t forget tomorrow night Kenzie and I are going live at 9pm US central time!! Hangout with us 🥺❤️
Some milder selfies :) I know things have been mild lately, I am going to get some new toys soon and hopefully start doing some kinkier stuff! Also, two PSAs:
1) I misspoke the other day - the live is on SATURDAY 10/17 at 9pm!! (I accidentally said Friday)
2) I keep this tab open on my computer all the time, and my computer doesn’t auto sleep when I walk away. Therefore, I think my green ‘online’ dot is on most of the time, but I may be doing homework or in a class. Just wanted to say that so no one thinks I’m ignoring them for a long period of time!!
Hey everyone, I know this is a bizarre thing to post, but I’ve followed this girl on YouTube for awhile and she is currently in a really, really bad situation. She has been para.lyzed (..why is this a restricted word?) from below her waist for several years, but was just recently attacked by her roommates and is now homeless. I guess I just wanted to share this in case you’d like to share it on your personal social medias or something or if you were planning to send a tip to me sometime soon, maybe send it instead to her. I already paid some of your tips forward :) thank you, I’ll be back in a bit for your regularly scheduled program 🤪💙
https://gf.me/u/y4swmv link to her video talking about the situation:
