I thought my boobs looked really good in these pics !! 💜 Lik..

I thought my boobs looked really good in these pics !! 💜 Like if you agree 😈 ⛓️
2023-02-11 11:30:08 +0000 UTC View PostI thought my boobs looked really good in these pics !! 💜 Like if you agree 😈 ⛓️
2023-02-11 11:30:08 +0000 UTC View PostJust at home, no clever caption or long emo post or anything. Chillin takin pics
2023-02-10 00:40:12 +0000 UTC View PostMarie Antoinette who?
You can eat *my* cake 🍰✨🍑🍰🪞🎀
You get a free G/G clip when you DM my slutty busty friend @fionaslilsecret and tell her I sent you🧚🏼♀️ She is the sweetest and kinkiest girl I know…
I told her to give my subs a ✨$7 SALE✨ only today and you can see her fully explicit feed right now 💦 #ad
Hi 🖤 Sorry for any slow replies, I hurt my leg yesterday on top of already having sustained multiple leg/knee/foot injuries in the last few years so between that and wrangling my kitties I’ve been a bit all over the place. For my performance I had a lot of dare I say physical choreo, aka slamming myself into the floor for multiple days.. Nothing like the feminine urge of a slow self infliction of pain to express the internal, externally. I’d also been doing higher impact exercise these past few weeks than I usually do, which in retrospect has been kind of stupid and careless. I should know these things but logic has no place in my brain sometimes 🙃
I am okay! But I will have to take it easy for a little while on intensive physical activity in order to recuperate properly 🚜
Going to the Dr tomorrow and just gonna monitor, ice, and bed rest today. Some of you might remember a few years ago in 2021 I injured my knee and put compression pads on my wish list, which someone actually bought and I will be busting those out again lol 🦭 I’m just flopping around like a seal right now.. if you ordered a custom that’s requiring me to be physically active like a fuck machine or something, or going on my knees, it would have to wait a little while until I am feeling better. Otherwise I’m fine, I’m sexy, I’m fertile, I can still do verbal, joi, gfe type things and low impact stuff like zoom chats and ratings etc with no problem 💕
If you got any contents or requests I’ll be answering DMs shortly and getting back to uuuu 😘
Thanks for your patience 🥺❤️
Many kitty pics here btw , swipe for updates on how my girls are now getting along better! Little progress I’m so happy they finally kind of connect ^.^
Also some pics of this super classic black lace bra and outfit... swipe all the way for more <3 🖤 Like this post if you think this black lace is cute on me and I should post the naughty versions of these pics!!! 🖤
Reposting cause I think these pics from my show were skipped over and didn’t get much attention ^_^ Hope you guys appreciate my creative stuff as well as the sexy <3 ✨💖✨
https://onlyfans.com/509620890/nastyavalentine
Not sexual I know but just felt like posting a kitties progress pic 😸💜💕 These girls can finally be in a room together without hissing or chasing. Getting new cats together is not that easy. There’s still a lot of work to be done but I’m just proud of them for making progress behaving in a civilized manner! Ok, that’s all for today’s pussy update, stay tuned for my other kind of kitty… ^_*
2023-02-08 16:45:46 +0000 UTC View PostJust a little pic to say good night 😘🖤 Which view do you like more: POV you’re above me looking at my cute face in glasses and petite tits, or from behind, sliding the panties off my juicy ass? 😳
2023-02-08 05:06:44 +0000 UTC View PostOne week til Nastya Valentine’s Day 🖤🥺💙🖤 Would you spoil me with a really nice lingerie set? I’ll spoil you back <3 If this reaches goal, I’ll post a full length sex tape to the page wearing this outfit.
Tip any amount $5 or more if you feel generous like spoiling me a little bit… if I’ve made you smile or cum during the time you’ve been subscribed to me, please consider contributing to your sweet girl 😇
All tippers will receive content: a new surprise bundle of contents, + a sensual bath video where I rub my body in the water after a bath bomb called “sex bomb” which comes with a waterproof vibrator 😏💦 + the first looks of me in this outfit if I do end up getting it 💕 The more tip the more contents but all of these private surprises will be absolute bangers 🔥🔥 If this reaches the goal and I do get this outfit, I’ll post a full length XXX video to the feed so that all can see in its full glory 💕💋
If you tip $100 or more aka about the cost of a single item on here, I will create an extra special video for you personally this week along with the other rewards. Let me know if you would like a theme, or I’ll just get creative with it and surprise you 😜
Tips of $135 of more will also get a free live sexting session with me, or a free cock rate 🍆 👄 If you opt for this, you may send me photos of your penis portraits and I will get to it post haste! 🫡
I’ve been wanting a really nice piece of boutique lingerie and this one has caught my eye ever since the initial previews were released for it. I’m salivating over this look!!! 🤤 I got really lucky with gifts from this brand during their winter sale, which I am so incredibly thankful for. I think it’s time for a lingerie upgrade in a new era of Nastya and this one is my absolute dream. I love the rainbow shine and the blue color and the sparkly details. It’s just so *me* and I know I would wear it a lot in and out of content creation.
This set JUST came online and will be available on 2/14 actual V Day!! 💘💘 I would pre order it <3
Obviously this is not a life necessity of course, it’s a luxury, so if this campaign doesn’t make it to the goal, I won’t be disappointed as when something like a therapy or medical related campaign doesn’t do well, because in those instances I worry about survival. But honestly I just really really want something nice and luxurious like this and I think I finally deserve it for working so hard in the sex work industry for so many years. If this reaches the goal it would just make me so happy you have no idea 🥹🥹🥹💕💖💝😊💕 I know it’s stupid but it makes me happy 🙇♀️🌷🥺🥰🥹💕
Swipe for a video where I discuss this campaign and a little life update with kitties, + sexy screenshots from it!! ^.^
This would make me feel really thankful and loved 💙💖🖤 I also just bought a polaroid pack so tippers from my last campaign will receive their scanned roids soon!! I hope you guys enjoyed my show updates and behind the scenes explorations of both art and horniness ❤️ This is one’s rewards is pure nastya valentine horniness <333
Thank you so fucking much if you decide to treat me. I promise I will treat you back and be your horny little angel 👼🏻 💕
Do you think I deserve a treat and am worth spoiling a little? 🥺👉👈❤️💘💝
Do you like the fit of this bodysuit on me? Swipe for a closer look 🖤
2023-02-07 23:00:22 +0000 UTC View PostFeeling lucky? ✨ 🎰 🗺 Want an intimate tour of my body in bed, and a pillow humping video? Tip $10 and ye shalt receive some sweet adult films 🖤✨
My new sleeping meds are not the vibe so I want to get some melatonin which I already know works for me … this post is for sleepy nastya, so my insomnia thanks you 😪😴🫶💕
Can I tempt you with a random **ass**ortment of sexy pictures? 🌙💋🌷🙈✨ Swipe to make them naughtier, and show this post some love if you appreciate all my different looks and horny aesthetics! Btw I will be filming customs and content this week so if you have any requests don’t be shy DM me 💕💧 This is the best time in terms of my availability because I will have much less free time in the cumming weeks <3 **Butt**, I would love to create some amazing Valentines contents for you xx 💋💝✨
2023-02-07 02:35:58 +0000 UTC View PostPanties… in my mouth 🌹🤌
PS. hiii I hope you are consistently perusing my posts <3 Giving them likes (and tips if you’re feeling extra generous, but not a necessity of course) makes me feel good about creating and I delete posts that don’t do well… I’ve been posting a lot lately I hope you’ve been appreciating 🥺
Today is the full moon!! Naturally I felt inclined to post some pictures of my ass 🍑🌝💓 I’ve got a moon here for you… swipe for other kinky little details, and updates on my lunar kitties!! My girls Lola and Kisa are going face to face really for the first time today, I kept them separated cause it was an extremely busy month, so today I am wrangling them lol and hoping they will get used to each other better 💕 Wish me luck!! 💜🧞♂️🙈
2023-02-06 18:02:49 +0000 UTC View PostPOV: I’m bringing you a coffee in a pretty cat cup after you sleep over. Must have been a hell of a night ;)
Like this post if you’d sleep over!! 💝 Latest campaign tippers are also getting the rest of these pics + video I’m uploading them now!!💞
These are some of my favorite pics, both nude and sfw💕 Do you think I look cute in this lighting? 👼🏻
2023-02-04 23:04:02 +0000 UTC View Post💜 Omg 💚💕 The show last night was sooooo fuckin fun and such an epic night for the books… idk what to say other than I’m glad there’s documentation, and it takes a village to create something like this.
Even with y’all like it’s been so helpful seeing your support of my horny art and I even wore some of my wishlist items on the stage ;) Thank you so much for enjoying what I do 🥺💞
More to cum, these are just a few pics, today I am taking a day off and will send all campaign tippers their sets of contents tomorrow! (I sent out a little msg today tho but there’s more on the way 😉) ✨🐆 Thank you soooo much for contributing and it’s still not too late :o https://onlyfans.com/508048442/nastyavalentine 💕 I appreciate all tips that exceed the campaign goal because that means not only do I get a day off but I can also go to the spa and get myself some artisanal bath bombs hehe 🙈
I’m even filming casual behind the scenes stuff today for the tippers and some to post on the feed too cause I’m just still like in the vibe lol 💝 I'm not ready to leave this performance behind yet!
Did you catch my very brief and chaotic live stream last night? It was a very dynamic process and performance, and I had a lot of cameras to look at that weren't just like my shitty quality laptop cam, and I wasn't sure if my campaign had hit yet cause I didn’t have time to check, so I didn't put that much effort into streaming it honestly haha but there was still something ... a little taste, a little tease 😝
Have an amazing weekend! <3 I hope you like these set of pics! What do you think? 🥹🥳
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to realize that this too, was a gift.
Anyway, here’s my pussy 💜 Like this post if you think my pussy is a sweet little gift box too 💝 Hiii this is a pre scheduled post because I am currently preparing for my performance tonight. I will try to live stream it while I perform!! It's gonna be a fun night. Hope you checked out my little campaign earlier for it too ;) 🥺
My show is toniiiight 😱🌟 Tip to wish me good luck and allow me to take a day off after a hard week and relax in a spa day. 💕 $7 - a ticket to the show!
$18 - buy me a drink or two! 😛
$33 - buy some Nastya merch! 🥰
$69 - take me to the spa so that I can finally relax!! 😍
All will be rewarded!! ✨ Tips over $100 will also receive special nude videos from the weekend and more surprise bonus content. Since I won’t be doing anymore sex tape campaigns this month, it would mean a lot to me to have this one reach 💕
Also if you tip this campaign $33 or more I will give you a discount on my unique Polaroids which I usually sell for 50 each — I can either scan a couple of them for your eyes only (and keep them in my archive for myself so they’re just ours) or mail you one to pinup on your wall or keep as a secret in your wallet 🤫 💕
I am very happy and grateful when you treat me and want to treat you back!! ✨🦦🥺 Do you think I deserve to have a day to be pampered? If this exceeds the goal I will be overjoyed… 🥹 If this reaches most of its goal before my show starts, I’ll livestream it !! I prob won’t be able to check my OF much or answer any messages in this time period but I’ll check it out before my set at 9pm pst to see how this is going 😂 I’ve been thinking about it but I think this would give me incentive to take it to the next level too. I wanna have fun with this and show you the inside peek!! Cause after all, H&C is a valentine (hehe) to my OF experience which you guys are such a fantastic part of. In any case I will love to post updates if there is demand and appreciation 💕 A few ppl asked me about this too: If you are in the LA area, you’re welcome to come! (Flier posted here although you’ll be able to see more updates today on my ig: nastyavalentine ✨) While I am incredibly protective of my privacy, in a public event I would love to see genuine supporters of my ART in attendance. I’m not there for sex purposes, it’s an art event with my horny vibes adding a new dimension to the art world landscape. Just be respectful and be chill and enjoy the show and check the other artists’ work too. I see myself as an artist/writer/musician first, who just happens to have an OF, rather than tying my identity to the traditional OF girl. I’m both ☺️ Of course, my book Cyberhorny will explain this more. Later this year, more updates about that soon btw….
Anyway yeah!! Polaroid sale and special weekend contents in this round :) So because this is a super special event to me, tippers will get fun stuff!! All tips small or large will be rewarded with my heavenly contentsss as a thank you for your personal support and artistic patronage 💘✨✨✨
I will still be doing customs and personal requests in Feb but bear in mind that a few weeks after Valentine’s Day I will be raising my prices on all services. Since I will be beginning the transition to working on my book, it would have to be a really good offer for me to step back into sex work and be less distracted. I will continue to post nudes and answer messages and be active on here, but the tip menu will change. So this month is the best to make any requests you wish to make! I will keep you posted of course and I am always transparent about the way I run my page, and for now everything remains the same. I do have a few discounts available so DM me if you’re interested in cock rate or GFE or Skype or any other pleasure 💎🌈💕
Oook.. let’s talk pleasure. I want to have a bath at home with some fabulous bath bombs and wanted to check out a specialty store that has colorful ones. If I do, I will absolutely film it and post it to the page!!! 💙💝💚🛀 Imagine taking a relaxing and sensual bath with me… I put a few bath stuff on my wishlist too :) https://amazon.com/hz/wishlis…
I have just been feeling so stressed out and a bit overwhelmed even tho this such a great thing and amazing opportunity, life gets stressful and I would just really love a day off and a spa day 🥺
😍😍✨THANK YOU LOVE YOUUUU✨ 😍😍
Swipe for Titty pics from my rehearsal !! Hmmm... I just might live stream my show tomorrow here on OF while I perform. When you see it, you’ll understand why 🤫
Like this post if you are excited 😝😝 I’m super excited but honestly also very stressed out!!! It’s been a lot 😝🤪🥵 Here are some pics from my dayyyyy without giving too much away, keep an eye out for much more to cum <3 💕💕💕
A pearlescent nymph 🧚♀️
Would you add to my pearl necklace? 🤍👼🏻
Just a casual little 🍑 pic for your feed…
2023-02-02 18:23:08 +0000 UTC View PostSome of my rehearsal BTSSSSS 🥰 💕 🎙️🐆 Vibrating my vocal labias and taking a break to take titty pics and giving my 🐱 the mic for a little interview ^.^
Aaaaa the show is tomorrow I’m so excited 😱 I perform like once a year but it’s always epic ✨
Good morning 💘💘 Took some Polaroids, to be sent out soon 🖤 some of these are already claimed and more will be specially taken for customs.. dm me if you want a Polaroid sent to you ($50) or a Nastya gift box ($169 — it contains a lot of "fun stuff" 👙😉✨💝) Some of these photos will also be sold as merch at my show in LA tomorrow 🖤
2023-02-02 16:55:06 +0000 UTC View PostDoing my part to be extra good to you this valentine’s month by gifting you my pussy from the back 😇💝💋 (and front, and side, and so forth haha)
Give this post a like if you think I have the cutest little 🐱 and are loving these angles !!
PS. Listen below for an audio update 🥰😸🌸
💝💘 My XXX February campaign … be my valentine this month? 😍❤️🔥💕💝 I explore so much orgasmic activity and even snuck into an abandoned unit to fuck myself in there and film it 💝
This one is for my therapy and medical appointments of this month. I can’t emphasize how important it is to me and how thankful I am when these life necessity campaigns reach their goals. 💘🥺
Without further ado or more emo rambling I will decaribe the sexiness you will witness in these vids!! I posted preview videos, which is already so much more than most creators show on the feed. The sex tapes themselves are mind blowing and as aesthetically pleasing as they are sexually pleasing. They’re porn *films* okay? Hehe 💝🎥
There’s a lot of content here!!! I made 6 videos — these five ones described below, plus a surprise 😉💕💕 These are so soft and sexy so I think you will love them ♥️ includes some casual girl next door vibes, GFE sex tapes, and a lot of personal POV -- like you're there with me while I cum 💘🎀🥵 also, there is quite a bit of dildo use to cum in various ways, even making an appearance in the abandoned house vid where I impaled my tiny pussy with a ribbed glass wand 😉 💕
*Contributeurs will receive:
Tip $8 or more to support me and wish me a happy month! 💕😍 I’ll send you a few explicit pics in return, as a sweet thank you for supporting me. I appreciate all tips and even the small ones add up 😚
$19 - a lucky valentines "spin the wheel" of any one random video of these!! I’ll send you a video of the wheel's choosing, from this collection 💕
$26 - cozy morning video bundle ♥️ one is a beautiful agony style where you see mostly my moaning face, and the other is me waking up next toyou after a sweet night together, with my retainer still on and hair still messy, wanting to show you how much I want you 💝
$48 - sneaking in video 🤫 by far the most public and risqué video I ever made, fucking my self in an empty unit!!! I take you on my horny adventure with me, and it’s like if paranormal activity were a porno, starring us ⭐️ there was a ton of construction in my place this week and it was so fucking annoying but I turned that into my advantage (and your viewing pleasure) once the workers left 🏗️🥵😏 unlike anything I’ve ever made. I cum for you super hard and the adrenaline rush from being a naughty girl was so exciting.. you can visibly see how much it excited me and made me cum 💧
$77 - dragon dildo videos bundle !! 🥵 2 long videos where I try new dragon dildos !! and oh my god they are no kidding my new favorite dildos and my new favorite videos — especially the hooters waitress video. I’m your waitress and you notice that l like to read, so we strike up a conversation after my shift. When I get off, I invite you to my place to make you get off too — you Foucault me all night long 🥵 This is a fulfillment of equal amounts of intellectual crush and explicit porn!! I even kind of get a facial… The other dragon dildo video is a straightforward sucking and fucking cumming vid, but it just felt so fucking good 💦
⬇️ **these following sex tape bundles are on sale this week only for this weekend!!** ⬇️
$128 - (**$88 !!**) all of the above!!! (5) sex tapes!!!!!
***-$40***
$150 (**$100 !!**) or higher - all of the above + a sixxxth surprise (kind of artsy) sex tape and all the BTS from these 💕💕💕
***-$50***
The first few tippers will also receive a personalized thank you valentine in the form of a voice note and short video 💌 💘 Let me blow you a kiss, uniquely* 💋
I hope you like these extremely hot videos as much as I did making them!! 🥵 Let’s make February an amazing Nastya Valentine's month because this winter was quite tough and January has been soooo long… A slow start to the year. My Jan campaign flopped so I hope this one does better. Thank you to those of you who’ve supported me in this time. I felt very demoralized and depressed all around so I think that also reflected in my performance on here. Sorry about that, if my content the last few weeks has sucked. However, with this set, and moving forward, I hope to stop feeling so demoralized and defeated, and start feeling delicious and motivated 🔥😛
I’ve mentioned before that I’m thinking about leaving OF and/or taking a long break. The stresses of supply and demand can be unbearable. I don’t think people understand how much pressure I am under on a daily basis. This is why I am writing my Cyberhorny stuff, to give a closer look into what I do. Meanwhile I am still doing OF on valentines 💘 month but it is unclear if I will continue later in the year. We will see. I had also mentioned wanting to do BG content before I quit so I am still looking for a suitable scene partner and camera operator. Of course I do not take this process lightly, I will vet and verify potential participants. I’m not careless. For more info about my BG fucking prospects see this post: https://OnlyFans.com/499408213/nastyavalentine ✨
In the meantime, I continue my solo stuff, and will still be available for custom services this month. I don’t know if this will be my last campaign, next to last, etc or but this is a special one because I AM at that kind of crossroads and I really require therapy to help me make some decisions.
The reason why I do these therapy campaigns is because it really truly helps me. I have had to talk myself down from the ledge too many times; with therapy, meds, mystical experiences, it creates a holistic healing program for me. I am so thankful that through these little campaigns, with your help, I can at least keep doing what I do. Every tip and supporter is very much appreciated, and I try my very best to create the best possible content for you to enjoy ❤️
There is much more Cyberhorny stuff and Nastya Valentine art projects coming in 2023; even the music/film screening on Friday is gonna be one for the books. I have a wonderful new team now of business partner and book editor and film editor, and soon, this year I will officially start writing my book. I am really thankful for people who believe in my vision and are interested in me. I am unendingly thankful to you guys for supporting my OF; without my OF my art projects would not be possible 💕 So stay tuned!!
As I take stock of how this whole year went, it’s been a lot of ups and downs. December is a slower month, of hibernation and transition between the new year, and I know it will be slow, but I truly hope this campaign does well 💕 if you contribute, I will e-love you forever ❤️ I’m not the best person in the world but I am better than who I was last year, and I am constantly evolving and elevating the art of porn, whether I stay on this platform on not 💕
I also will be sending out a ppv with three unique little BTS videos related to this set for super cheap so keep an eye out. If these videos are not your cup of tea, I do indeed offer customs, cock rates, gift packages sent to you, Skype/zoom camming, and sexting😘🤩 if you’ve been wanting a personalized adventure with me, now is the perfect time because after February I will raise my prices 💘💘💝💝
DM me to get these ^ deals
Keep an eye out for any PPV-like valentine holiday sales cause they expire fast 🐣💝😷 I do tend to give away a lot already and even the previews continue to ooze sexiness… with these tho, I haven’t given away too much so you’ll just have to see ;) The slashed prices on these premade sex tapes, PPVs, and specialty services are my Valentine gifts to you 💕
ALSO!! Heheh… bundles of several months of my OF subscription are on sale now… If you feel like spending several more months with me, these sales will also not be around long so grab em while you can :)
I hope you are enjoying my content! What did you think of these previews and videos? 🥺
❤️ Like this post if you enjoyed 🙈
Thank you so much, from the bottom of my slutty little heart I love y’all ❤️💕💋 🥹🥹🎀😻💕😍🥺💕
PS. I have a valentines wish list if you would like to send me a valentines gift 💝💌💘
https://Amazon.com/hz/wishlis…
PS2. I will be answering messages as much as I can this week. Since I have a busier week than usual I will be prioritizing dm’s with tips and requests, but I do get to everything eventually and nobody gets ignored here!! If I don’t respond by next week just bump your message cause there’s a chance my adhd ass got frazzled lol. But I went ahead and made sure that this sex tape set is all ready to go and be sent out immediately to those tipping for it :)
💝💋💘 Thank you again my darlings and happy valentines month 💘💋💝
Good morning loves 💕 🕊️ Did you catch my long form post of art notes and unhinged philosophical ramblings? Well, here’s some nudes to balance it out 🍑 I will responding to messages tonight!! DM’s with tips get auto pinned to the top of my inbox so I get to those first, but I do get to everything eventually ^-^ Mwahhhh 💕💞💋
2023-01-31 16:45:20 +0000 UTC View PostMy writings are on WMF’s blog but I’m putting them here too!! 💝✨🖤 ⚠️**Warning long post**!! ⚠️ Show me some love tho if you are as into my writing, my personality, and my art, as well as my nudes…🔥 🥹💘
🎀 *cute BTS pics + my written piece* : 🎀
**I made this album in my Tesla while wearing lingerie**.
Hentai & Crack is a visual album I produced in 2020-2023 out of my garage. This turns the title “garage band” into a parody of luxury. With multiple volumes set to come out - Vol 1, Vol 2, and Hentai Deluxe, it is a trilogy replicating my LA-based obsession with dystopian self image and cybersocial posturing. A caricature of privilege, or as the kids say these days, a flex.
I am discussing here Hentai & Crack Vol 1 specifically, which began in 2020 and is getting resurrected now in 2023 — although as a fluid project, all volumes are overall designed to kind of blend together.
Conceptually, I wanted to make this album for personal entertainment and dealing with the trauma of the initial stages of the pandemic. Considering the disjointed elements of my online image, it was the gimmickiest thing I could do to satirize myself. Make an album in my Tesla scantily clad. It sells itself. The way people online knew me was so far removed from my reality, that I wanted to cater to a very veiled social image of who “Nastya Valentine” is. A faker, more produced sound than my previous emotional guitar music.
Compositionally, H&C is all over the place. I made these tracks very freeform, not adhering to any genre or particular sonic organization. There are walls of sound, dilating synth lines, drowned out vocals, and emotional guitar music. I don’t believe in genre worship (only goddess worship), though I do like to describe it as a shoegazy dream-pop/camgirl emo. I love heavily layered music with an ethereal vibe; I listened to a lot of Beach House and Animal Collective, which informed the way I structure harmonies and melodies. I feel inspired by sexy vocalists like Britney, Prince, Lil Kim, Janet, Christina, all the divas… It helps creating a character for the stage, although the separation between reality and fantasy can often times be a sleep paralysis of blurry urges.
The lyrics allude to an abstract and horrifying erotic fantasy; I am usually much more of a realism writer with poetic straighforward song lyrics, although for this piece I drew inspiration from my dreams and nightmares which would not be out of place in a David Lynch or Gaspar Noe film. Still, masterpiece lines like “I cry all night thinking about you” harken back to the days of emo legends Bright Eyes and Elliott Smith. (But horny). "Every Kiss Begins With K" tells a tale about falling in love on ketamine; it also references "you're my butterfly sugar baby" from Crazy Town's iconic 2000's jam. When I wrote that song, I wanted to sonically exude butterflies. The kind you get in your stomach while falling in love on ketamine.
The aesthetic elements of the album are very important - I make most of my music with visuals in mind, and having synesthesia gives me a vibrant assortment of textures to work with. To me, music and visuals are married. I wanted this album to sound like an alien sex goddess’s acid trip. Something is “off” about it, but you still watch and listen because it’s sexy. A digital nymph crying in her bedroom, a glitching fembot in a pastoral landscape. The imagery is there to allure you, while simultaneously having a jarring effect. Overlays of my body, ruthless self-objectification, cat pictures, memes, anime gifs, rude internet comments about me from haters, Hentai images, pixellated collages, and other crap from the internet all intersect in this video. It is a digital abyss that stares back. This piece is so 2020’s, yet from another dimension. A time warp. 2023-2003, by way of 2069. Bear in mind that this visual content is borderline nsfw -- but honestly what isn't these days? Have you seen instagram lately? Courtney Love once said "every girl in LA stripped to buy amps and pedals." Ah, a tale as old as time. It is happening again.
The thots are not what they seem. This album catalyzed my OnlyFans page and the livestreamed production of Hentai & Crack was how I originally started, before OF became my job. Every day in early 2020 pandemic times, I would livestream myself in my Tesla recording this on my page, with the allure of additional spicy contents. Thus, my art and my body collided. I had prior experience camming but I didn’t have the discipline to consistently stream daily; OnlyFans allowed me a more time-efficient platform of expression that dovetailed creativity with sexual empowerment. 2020 was a turning point when being a fantasy became my reality, and to this day my full time job, but every girl who starts an OF becomes such a memeable punchline so I played into that to my viewers. Self-objectification: it’s praxis, sis. To me, it’s so much more than even that. It’s a vindication of every man, fuckboy, and asshole who had ever rejected me. To be hot, and to make money off of things I was mercilessly bullied for when I was younger, is everything. It’s retribution. Hentai & Crack thematically touches on that autobiographical element as well. Underneath the feminine mirage there is a trauma, a longing, a fixation. A spindle, a darkness, a fever, a necklace.
There is a quote attributed to Oscar Wilde which goes like “everything in the world is all about sex; except for sex, which is all about power.” Our sex-power pipeline is almost tangible, and to me, has always been so fascinating. Can you guess my zodiac sign?
The deep dive does not end at music; my projects all blend into one another and work within the Nastya Valentine Enterprises umbrella. Alongside my music projects, I am currently writing a book called Cyberhorny: Navigating A Sexual Dystopia, which is a mirror of our cybersex-obsessed society that pulls open the curtain on the world of online sex work. Some of my concurrent writings (about Artificial intelligence and sexuality; politics of online dystopia ; and the like..) are available on my blog website cyber-horny DOT com. Even Hentai & Crack is a wink to the ridiculousness of what I do as a cyber participant. By satirizing myself, I had carved out a niche. Monetizing my trauma and weaponizing my pain has allowed me to take my darkness and alchemize it into joy. Within capitalism there is no ethical consumption. Our society creates more misery than joy, we all know this well. This entire opus is an effort to support myself in this cold, heartless, and unforgiving system while retaining my integrity and vision, as well as creating something entertaining for my viewers. It appears as though I have crashed my Tesla at the intersection of misery and horniness, and Hentai & Crack came out.
To this day, H&C is one of my favorite works of art I’ve ever made. It was just so organic and unfiltered and for lack of a better word, special to me. I get sentimental about ridiculous things. I love seals. I exert a lot of mental energy into destroying the stigma around what I do for a living. Demystifying a misunderstood line of work is no easy feat, and parasocial relationships are such an unexplored terrain, but making art about it is a start. My OF page is run with authenticity that presents as a mirage. I lure with hotness, but beneath the surface is a melodrama as dark as it is racy. It’s sexistential — who am I really? This fragmentation of the persona, and shattered cosplaying of the self, reflects in the erratic soundscapes of the music I make. Hentai & Crack’s hentai tracks all sound quite different, more like a psychedelic collage than an album that weaves seamlessly. There is no single; all the songs have equal weight. That’s not to say there’s no method to the madness — the mix of lowfi and higher end production is deliberate. It’s a nexus of sexus. It’s a moment in time.
We document essentially 24/7 of our lives online. We produce ourselves and we doctor our features and we curate what we want everyone to see. And don’t get me started on the AI’s producing us, banning us, algorithming us. It is no longer a far fetched concept: the singularly is here and we live in the simulation. One of my songs contains the lyric “a shrine to the simulation” and maybe that’s what H&C really is.
A few of the H&C songs were performed at Cyber Castle, one in a series of Castle art shows that I put together, but I haven’t performed the whole album fully live until now. Ironically, the album was deleted from OF last year because of a new AI filtering system that they installed, that registered overlays of my body as “multiple unverified participants”. I then learned that OF has no human customer service team, only copy-and-paste responses by autofilters, which is something about the platform that I actually don’t like: for something that allegedly champions guest-to-model interaction, there’s especially no customer service. How strange, right? I was honestly very heart broken when it was deleted, because I had no way of pleading my case and the deleted file was my baby. This performance will give it justice and let me move on. Because it was, truly, a grief! But work is work. Sex work is work. For my neurodivergent hot ass, working from home safely while creating art is a godsend. It’s not for everyone, it’s a much tougher job both physically and psychologically than people may assume. Hentai & Crack is a moment for all emo cam girls out there. There are so many myths and wrongful accusations about us, people will always judge, but I personally enjoy the work we do. And in any case, in the surveillance state, we are all camgirls. If you can’t beat capitalism, have sex with it.
Hentai & Crack V1 will be screened and performed for the first time in LA on Feb 3 💕✨🦭