π₯Ήπ₯° Before I say my huge asss update I am pressing the post button with my eyes closed bc I have an irrational anxiety when I don't post for a long time LOL π
First time I got to put makeup on and feel gooooooood! So here's some pix π₯°π₯°π₯°
Feeling better mentally everyday. I didn't know how badly being ignored by the person who is supposed to care the most about you would affect me so deeply in other areas of my life, but it was like a light switch turned om after leaving him. I can't wait to go live again. I'll basically be restarting my art life again with everyone on IG. And I wanna do nude painting seshshshsss on here bc that would b fun hehe
Oh snap it me π₯Έ HOLY HELL I need some hype from you guys...anyone that reads this pls tell me U CAN DO ITTttTtTtT!!!!
I was hit with overwhelming feels of stage fright for the past week or. I just kinda froze up and same goes with talking to peeps as well. It's a weird feel that has prevented me from going live on IG and shit. I don't talk about my relationship online (learned from that shit lol unless you fuck me over then b prepared π€£)
But i had to break things off w my partner a few days ago..to hella summarize eithout saying shit, my self esteem&confidence rly got affected this time around. Im getting rly exhausted of being tricked into a relationship to have them turn a 180 as soon as they gey comfy. It's been months of not feeling heard or payed attention to, like you're the last priority on their list, never feeling like they he even interested in me...don't think I ever got one compliment after a month. π«£πΆ I know that's stupid but cmon dude it's my bf and of course I expect him to show in some way that he's into me π
But yeah my self worth is like thru the floor so it's gonna take time to rebuild again, but updates daily again on here and opening up will help π₯Ή I WANT TO HUG AND KISSSSSS EVERYONE STILL HEREEEE ππππ
I'm finally getting this out of my lip today too (took so long bc it needed to heal before closing the piercing holee)) and that'll Def help with some confidence back haha
WOW. I'm sharing a gnarly story with you gais Oh man lol butFIRST, heres some new dripppπ¦ π« These will be listed in my shop MoNDAYYyyy!!!!! At Noon EST π
My fuckjng face attacked me ALL MONTH last month and I feel so shifty for promising content I couldn't deliverr in time π«£π BUT I know who has tipped for it and I gotchu as soon as I'm better physicallyβ€οΈβπ₯β€οΈβπ₯
Thank youuuuuuuuu for still being here π like fack. Not even a couple weeks after coming back to OF, My life totally changed when I had the first ER visit In december π I Didn't know the next few months would be so insanely unpredictable and i think thats like my new baseline I have to get used to lmao πΆ thx for baring with me right now cuz it fuckin means so much β€οΈβπ₯
POSTING CRAZIE POST when I wake up so I can monitor it in case OF wants to play the delete game ππ and pm replies π₯°
Holy tittieessssss!!!!! I had no idea this was hiding in one of my content folders, and it totally deserves its own post :P back in 2019 when I worked with Inside Flesh! They have inSANE technology and scanners and 3d printers, and scanned my whole bodyyy! :O hehe I have quite a few projects with them if youre curious ;P
ALSOOOOOO! Thank you SO much\, peeps who tipped $20 for the vday vid ahhhh :') See my next post, i have lots of updatessss! :D Sending a content folder to everyone who has subbed over the past 48 hrs <3
Oh man hey hey heyyyyyy my Killaz πI'm BaaaaaacKKKkKk!!!!!! π
Theres lots of stuff I haven't posted, so imma just spam you guys this week with it alllll! hehe π biiiig ass update below πππ
Gettin back to messages asap! π I rly rly adore everyone thats still hereee ππ I can't go a few days without losing like 40 of ya bahaha π so check your inbox cuz I sent surprise for bein a badass π
π½ I went to a resort and the spa π₯± i cant even LOL
Their jacuzzi wasnt workin and i didnt prepare enough to know their massages were all fuckin booked ππππ« so imma make an APPOINTMENTTTT and go to an actual spa closeeeee to me, not like hotel/spa I don't trust that shit now π my muscles were so ready tooooo lmao π€€ πͺ¦
π I HADDDD to show off this lamp in some fashion π‘ it sparked a new found love in me after stumbling on it for TEN BUXXXXX. Anything Mid Century Modern is my fav and so funnnnn, it's from the 60s and is A TOUCH LAMP π«
like whatttt. Why don't we make cool shit like this today? We do, but it looks like shit and everything new breaks fast ahhaha I my next find is a couch bc we still don't have one π€£
This week is going to be sooooo crazyyyyyy! I have an appointment everyday this week. I don't think that's ever happened π Lucifer has to go to the vet tmrw (send good vibesssss. He is showing signs of havin diabeetus ππ)
Wednesday I see the GI!! fingers crossed it doesn't refuck my brain LOL this surgeon is a big doomer and only gave me the most extreme option for treatment π«£
Thursday is my PCP, and Friday is the DMV to get my car finally registered here woooo!!! π
SO MUCH ADULTING I MIGHT DIEEEEE β°οΈ π« π€£
BUTTTTTTT I have planned to post everyday again on heree! I'm working rly hard on getting better at not disappearing completely when I go through a pain flare up. π I just went thru one that has been fuckin me up for a couple days and is so distracting, hours and hrs go by I forget I have a phone and a life lmfaooooo so when I say thank you for still bein here, I rly mean it wholeheartedly you gaiz π₯°π₯°π₯°
IM COOKIN UP AN IDEA FOR VDAY CONTENT!!!!! I've been more mentally in da art zone so maybe something cool w makeup π hehe COMMENT ANY IDEAAASSSS!!!!! crazy or cute whatevers clever π
Hella hella throwback πππ to years 2011 and 2015 when I got my kittiesssss! These are from my vault folder of Pre Cam Webcam Pics heh π₯°
How is everyoneeeee??? I feel like I'm constantly behind on everything so I said fuckkkkkkkkthis and booked a room for tonight and a day pass to the spaaaaa theree!!!!! Idk if I'll be able to relax fully because that's just me brain πππ but I Def know my body is gonna be like THANKKUUUUU hahahaa
Thank you guys alot for giving me the chance to even do this, your support means universes to mee π«π and ima take pixxxxx if I can In the spa πππ
While I'm gone my whole shop is 35% off for you gaiz with code ONLYPEEPZ π π₯°
Ive been trying to put on weight and its freaking me out LOL so my body has been a ghost to my camera π apologies for posting throwbacks, but I think this mini break will do positive things and I'll feel refreshedddd πββοΈπββοΈ
Only one more month until they have to remove the stents holding my pancreas ducts open and I'm super worried π«£ it's only a matter of time before I have to hospital again once they get removed, so im gonna try to get as much life done before that and document it all here so pls stay cuz IMMA LIFE IT UP π₯°π₯°π₯°
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these lightssssss!!!!!!! its 5am i been up since fkn 1am lol currently dying shirtssss! Replying back to peeps who tipped $10+ on my goal last post!!! Thank you so much π₯°π₯°
*If You dont have my new JackHammer Jesus Vid, tip $15 on my last goal and I'll send the 12 mins of hotness to your inbox βΊοΈ I feel like there's Def not enough peeps who have seen it mwahah π
Eeee!!!!! This took awhile but I finally got my mono/red pieces up in my shop hehe showing you gaiz first hehe
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Scroll for Boobie pix πͺπ»
I've been trying to do as much as I can while my stomach let's me function. π« It's rly scary just not knowing when im gonna ever have an acute attackk where I'm forceed to go to the hospital. Those thoughts have been rly intrusive this month and it's Def left me a little lost mentally, so this campaign is how much left to reach my goal for the end of the month π all tips will get content of some kind, request anything you'd like as well π₯°
Good morning to youuuu π late night wigglin β¨οΈ
How has everyone's week beeeeeen? Make sure your rebill is on and I'll be sending you a dm tonight π«£ππ
Omg and I have SO many arts to finish and list! I have a couple listed last night hehe and bout to list a set of coasterzzzzz π
I had a ton of Size Large Tees I dyed, a 4xl, and some in betweeeeen! I'll post previews of them first! Alot of them are experimenting with different bleach layering πͺπ
Hwhe morning mirror comp π Took a buncha cute pix and clips last night π and finished so many art piecesssss! π¨
I'll be AFK for alot of the day with the bf helping me install lights and other stuff around the house I can't do bc I'm mentally handicapped when it comes to handyman shit π€£
People who subbed yesterday if tou didn't get a dm from me with a folder yet pls msg meeeee!!!!! π₯°π₯°π₯°π₯°
Colorsss n close ups to make yer Monday not so borriiinggggg π₯°
I haven't been to sleeeeeep in lil over 24 hrs now, insomnia hasn't gotten better and I'm eventually gonna mf breakkk down so hard LOL I rly hope I can go to this party tmrw night here. It has some decent musikkkk, buffalo sucks DICKKKKKK here with any kind of underground scene of music of any kind its rly rly sad I want to cry sometimes π« π« π« π« πππππ
I spent way 2 much time helping the bf trim his mf w33d lmfao like 13 hrs over the last 3 days and it's crazy how much he has left still, I finally PAINTED AGAINNNNN and NAILED IT! and my pain has been easier to deal with mainly bc I haven't slept I think too π but I musttttt
Gonna try to nap wish me luck π΄ π¬β οΈπ₯± i got a ton of peeps to dm back so once my brain like does a reset, i shall reply to erryonee π₯°π₯° i appreciate you mofuckas so much ππ€AND pls msg me if you haven't gotten content yet that you tipped for! I try to remember every1but messages get so unorganized on here , so pls forgive me if I've missed youuuuu and dm me so i can send ya the stufffffff hehππ₯Ήπ§‘ thank youuuu if you read my last post and sent any sweet reply of good vibes. I FELL EM π€
If the goal a couple posts down gets completed that would be fuckin so sick π€ if you tip today for my newest vid, I'll send ya another π of contentttt that you dont have π
After taking a weeeeeek to type up this Book of an update, OF decides to restrict me with a banned word and Im NOT about to go through the aprox 1727 words to figure out their lvl of irrationality with that shit LOL
SO I dumped it all into a ggoooooogle Doc and made it pretty :P and will be sharing long winded updates like that with everyone from now on! So u can choose to read them or not :P keep it short and simple with posts here :) but if u do takee the time and end up reading all of dis I truly cant thank u enough. :'>
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1AaBAtfLM08TGiMqOLega2cS3O4lDUjzQbhSpLJHZ4g4/edit?usp=sharing
What should i do with these barbed wire hearts??? :') Felt it complimented my update nicely hah :P I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend! EVERYONE who has also purchased my newww vidyaaa, i have lots of replies to makeee! Tip $18.88 on my laast post for the 12min vid+photoz sent to yo dmssss :D <3
YAY what you guys have been waiting forrrrr!!!!
I promise my absence the past couple days has been worth it hehe heres some cut clips compiled...I totally just edited and rendered the most fappable, highest quality vid ive ever made :P But you can be the judge of thattt ;)
Peeps who tipped $16.66 early for the XMAS Folder with jeezus/high res photoset, GO LOOK INNIT! You have a surprise added :D
res quality is so fuckin good on phones now ahah I had to take advantage of it ;) ANDDD Its actually over 10mins long, i didnt do ANY of my schitzo editing lmao
TIP $18.88 on this goal for the full 12 min vid & photoset! Sent in a dm ASAP :D I legit got horny editing this eehheh oop >___<
Campaign is totally going towards a night somewhere i can get a massage/sit in a hot tub for eternityyyy, it sounds like mf heavennnnnn
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OOooOOOo I got a surpriseeee π₯°π« Here's some pix from a NEW CONTENT FOLDERRR! ππ
I legit was going to upload like 80% of the pix/clips in this folder that ive taken since returning here in November, its been a roller coaster of a couple months hahah
SoOOOOO I put em all in one folder for a β€οΈ$16.66β€οΈ Tip!! :D (check your inbox for the folder hehee)
THERE'S 400+ FILEZZZZ (clips&pix) in this two month folder, and counting bc i found a ton i need to add rn lol π
π§¨Peeps who have the whole OF ARCHIVE Vault will have access to this folder already so go lookie at that new new ππ
Detailzzz of entire 3,000 + OF Archive are hereee!!! ($150 tip)
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ALSO am still editing and sending my Jeeeezus vid for every1 who tipped for that π₯°π₯° hospital kinda fucked that up for a second hahaha π
Wowwwww. Ive been home for lil over 24 hrs and am still pretty fucked up π΅βπ«π΅βπ«π΅βπ« It started snowing and i missed the big one in the hospital, so i HAD to let Lux Outside and wear my balaclava that came beheheπ₯°π₯°π₯°π₯°
I'm trying my hardest to get back to norm, but it's taking longer than I thought lmao starting to reply back to messages! I get dizzy fast looking at a screen so it might take me a day but I can't begin to tell you how i feel with the support and feels of genuine care from you guys here, it so meaningful π₯²π₯°π I'll be replying to the priority stuff first like all tips//new subbbsz!!!!
My heart is happy, and most of all as well MY STOMACH IS BETTER! CRAZY shit to tell you guys about that when they did the surgery haha next post π€«π«£π€
Post shower pics π
Pls if you're going out to enjoy new years, pslsplspsls have a shot for me! I'mma be stuck in the hospital π I tried to send out the link to everyone that tipped $13+ for it on my last postπ₯°π₯° but if I missed you PLEASEEE let me know!
I'm so worn out I'll tell you guys the deets when I'm more with it, but I ended up back in the er again with my pancreasππ the first surgery had complications to where they couldn't drain it fully abd it was seeping out making a mass in my stomach. The most painful shit I've ever experienced. Just radiates thru my back up under my ribs and shit. Idk what the next step is, this hospital is rly bad at keeping me in the loop with anything but I'll update all of you as soon as I know! It might be a gnarly bypass type of surgery and I'm rly scared π€§
