I didn't make a video this time, but here's my latest gift ☺️ I've never played a game like this before, so I'm pretty excited to see how it goes. Even if I expect to get a bit frustrated along the way. Gaming rage is real...
And don't worry guys, I'll be posting again soon. I've been taking steps to become more healthy. I've cut out all alcohol, minus for special occasions, and I'm no longer indulging in edibles. At least for the time being. This lead to some serious mood disregulation, but I can't keep relying on substances to chill myself out. I'm also going out for the first time in a couple years, for a goth event. I'm trying to get myself back into the world. At least a little. Now I just need to buy a dress, so that I can look pretty for the dance 🥰 Fingers crossed that I can find something black and frilly. I'll post pictures, if I find something good.
At the very latest, I'll be posting new content on Valentines 💝 If you have any requests for that specific day, please let me know 😁 I know anal has been requested a few times, so I'll likely include that 😘 Any Valentines gifts would also be very appreciated!
I've noticed that, ever since I took away the subscription fee, I've been getting more tips and gifts. If this trend continues, I'm thinking about keeping my page free. Or lowering the fee to $5, if I start charging again. What do you guys think?
3 videos for you guys 😁 I can't deny that I find them a bit unflattering, but this belly isn't going anywhere until at least spring, so I'm trying my best to be comfortable with it. But once Spring hits, it's time to start exploring the outside world again 💙
Making porn has made one thing VERY apparent to me; I hold myself to a much higher/almost unrealistic standard than other people do. When I think I'm fat and ugly, other people think I look healthy and sexy. When I feel like a video is unflattering, other people find them super hot. Self image is such an odd thing. It's obvious that I don't see myself as others do and I kind of wish that I did, because you guys obviously find me more attractive than I find myself.
I know the video is short, but I'll make longer ones soon 😁 I got one of those ring lights from one of my partners this year! I'll definitely be experimenting with it. I also got a selfie stick from my other partner. Aside from those, this year I received a dragon knife, a small pocket knife, a small portable hand saw, a hydroponics kit with lots of seeds, chocolate and LOTS of meat 🍖 Including a 5lb tomahawk steak 😍
So obviously I haven't been active these last few weeks. I'm here to tell you that I wont be M.I.A forever, but since I'm proving to be a bit inconsistent, I'll be making the subscription free for a few months. I'll start charging again when I'm posting more often.
I've been focusing on just being, and I'm slowly changing things to try and make more progress with my mental health. I've switched over to day walker time (mostly), I'm looking for a part time job and I'm also looking into apartments because I'd like to live in a different area. I'll still post from time to time, but until I'm happy in my own head and skin, I don't have the energy to maintain regular appearances. I hope you understand.
Also, for those who have customs coming, they are still coming. I lost any and all motivation and creativity, so once I get that straight you will get your customs. I have not forgotten about you!
Hello hello my friends. I will be uploading 3 new videos tomorrow, and hopefully some pics too. I know I haven't been posting enough, so I'll try making up for it with some bulk posts.
There are a few things that I left out/forgot to mention, but this is most of what I've been dealing with. Not sure if it makes sense, or if anyone will understand, but feel free to ask questions.
Don't worry guys, I haven't forgotten about you. And I will be making content soon. I just...kind of fell back into a very bad state of mind. I'll make a video later explaining the details of what I mean.
Welp, this toy was not as easy to use as expected. I just could NOT get the eggs to come out, no matter how much I tried. But I did try a close up video, and I hope you like the view 😘
I'll be uploading a new video later tonight/early tomorrow morning ❤ Last week I accidentally overdid it with one of my new toys, so I had to take a break 😅 But I've healed up and I'm mostly mentally present, so no time like the present!
