Heyyyyy, bought a fucking machine. It was expensive but I hope it'll be worth it for both myself and you guys.
In other news my birthday is coming up soon so I'm gonna be updating my Amazon wishlist to include stuff I want for my sissy self and for my still not out straight boy self.
Hi, I'm really ill. So I'm sorry if I've missed messages and stuff.
Also can't believe it's my birthday this month, nearly twenty and I don't like it 😭😭
Back in this comfy set before I sleep. Last week was hectic at work for me and I fucked up an interview to keep my job next year so that sucks. Seems like atm finding time to dress up and watch bids is the only enjoyment I'm getting and idk if that's good or bad lol.
On a side note how good was Eurovision, always loved it but this one felt special since it's the first one since starting this journey.
Adding more shit to my Amazon wishlist so keep an eye out on that and keep those videos coming. Massive thanks to the guy who sent me a link to fap roulette that place is incredible. Xxxxx
So my 4 days are over. It was great to just be able to dress like this and not worry about when people will be home to see it. The only negatives are the pizza delivery guy paid no attention to it and I didn't manage to reach a sissygasm before they came home. Looking forward to next time.
Another day down, it's weird going to work locked and plugged. Kinda exciting. Had another go at reaching a sissygasm but had to just settle before reaching it. Try again tomorrow before my parents get back and sissy Holly has to hide away.
The start of me trying to force this to be permanent went well 😂, spot the moment when things get out of control.
Make sure to like, comment, tip, buy me stuff or whatever, this is the longest vid I've done so I hope you think its worth your time x
After the failed going live thing I sorta lost all my motivation and desire to keep not just the page but also the sissy thing going. The problem is I keep coming back, constantly checking to see if someone's sent a video, trying on my clothes, seeing girls and thinking fuck I wish I was her.
I couldn't watch porn without thinking I want to be the girl, so I watched gay porn and all I thought was look at those cocks, those men so k watched lesbian porn and am back to wishing I was one of those girls.
I haven't met up with anyone, haven't done anything because I've not felt like it but equally I don't feel normal, I don't feel straight because I'm still having the feelings.
I know that there is no way back, these thoughts are imprinted on my mind but I need help taking them further. Stopping living the confused double life. I need to get back to the accepting state I was in before it went wrong and then push on even further.
Home alone for the next 4 days so will be locked, plugged, and dressed 24/7 (apart from at work where I'm just locked). Get ready for some new content. Xx
Hey,
Sorry for the lack of activity. Thanks for all the messages and support it has really helped and Ill make sure to respond to everyone eventually lol. I'm fine and happy with myself for now, just looking through my wishlist and struggling to not spend more money haha. XX
Am I cute, maybe?
Hey,
So after Saturday went shit I felt really really shitty about myself and this entire thing. I'm just sorry to everyone and feel like I don't do enough to deserve anyone attention and am not good enough. It's not just a thing cus of this page or what happened but a feeling that I've had for years.
That aside, I want say thank to everyone anyway because it does mean alot to have so many supporters. Also the poll has ended and it looks like you guys have chosen Holly so yeh, guess you can call me that from now on x
Going live tomorrow at 3pm UK time!!
I have spent the last 3 days locked (even at work) and exposing myself to a torrent of sissy Hipno, sissy porn, captions, m2f games, and erotica. Whilst also plugging myself and using my vibrator nightly. I am soooooo fucking horny right now and it's taking all of my strength not to unlock.
Targets:
- second ever sissygasm
- show off big new toy
- chat with you in the comments
- answer whatever questions you have
Here's hoping it all goes according to plan, now time for a few more Hipnos before bed. xxx
Hey, going live tomorrow!! Don't know what time. What time would be best for you guys? I was planning UK time around 3pm but I figure that might be too early for people in the US. I've got plans between 5:30 and 8pm so can't do then and may end up with plans after 9 aswell. Let me know what you all think xx
Heyyyyyy, hope you've all enjoyed your weekends. Quick update, as some of you have seen there is a poll live for the next 7 days to choose my new sissy name so make sure you vote.
A few more things:
- I am hoping to go live next Saturday so let me know here or in DM's what you want to see whilst I research wtf I can do lol
- I do now have a hot tub and am hoping to do a few things in it and take some sexy pics for you all but to do that I need a swimsuit or 2. I'd buy one but as you've noticed I have been begging for money for a car and driving lessons so would rather avoid it if I can. Of course you don't have to I just don't like spending money so please check out my amazon wishlist or send me links to costumes that you think would work for me.
- On the topic of my wishlist please do feel free to check it out there are some new stuff and some that like the swimwear I'd really like but am too tight to buy it myself. If you do feel free to message to ask for size details to make sure they'll fit.
- My stitches get removed in a weeks time so I am hoping to get a lot of face pics done when that happens and sucking cock will be allowed again lol.
As always, tips, advice, messages, presents are massively appreciated. You guys have been a huge part of my journey and I love having you involved.
Love you all xxxx
So I've received enough suggestions to offer you guys the next 7 days to choose my new sissy name, make sure to vote (there is only one that I don't like that much)