Hey Yall! So sorry I didn’t post a single thing yesterday. I..

Hey Yall!
So sorry I didn’t post a single thing yesterday.
It was a crazy fucking day lmao.
I have recently become very much acquainted with that human in the last 5 days after meetting him at church and learning that we had some crazy similar backstories on top of us being on the same page with just about everything,
When it comes to understanding the laws of the universe lol.

Everything has happened extremely fast but non of it has felted forcedd or like it shouldn’t have happened. We act like we have been friends for 10 yearss to each other lol.
He wants to have a romantic relationship with me, I known I don’t want that right now.
for a few reasons.
The only thing that has me concerned is that right now he is not healthy, physically speaking but that also means that he is also not healthy in any other department either because they all coincide lol.

He has been addicted to different kinds of drugs in the recent past and has been addicted to VAPING since he was 16. Bleh. And now he is at this point in his life I think we’re he is really wanting to start living a life free from the shackles of those kinds of unhealthy attachments,,
I may have just become a replacement for one of those unhealthy attachments lol.

I have noticed a pattern of this effect on people when they meett me, especially when they’re struggling with something (which is everyone I meett 🤣). It’s like for the first time in their lives a person is allowing them to be who they are, giving them space to come up for air.
I have a very honesty and naturally compassionate soul I guess?? 🤣🤣 I don’t know y’all it’s wild.

Our connection is real. It’s interesting and new and scary now especially when observing the way he communicates to me, he keeps saying his entire life has changed in five days completely. And that ever since he met me, he’s experienced nothing but bliss and peace in his life because of “the things thar I’ve taught him” when we talked about religion and spirituality and the meaning of life.
He tells me he loves me and is making all these wild ideas about the future for us to buy a van and travel the world while making music and offering our spiritual guidance to those a match to us 🤣🤣🤣😭😭 and he is DEAD SERIOUS.

We spent almost a whole 24 hours together yesterday which is why I did not post through here. I don’t know how the fuck it even happened lol

He met me at oasis bagels in the morning where I play live music but because it was the 4th of july, nobody was there lol so we left early and just hung out over at a lake near my house, then we brought food over to my mother where she met him for the first time and all she had to say after our interactions where
“Does he have a car. Does he have a job. Are you in a relationship?? Are you having sex?” And “don’t let him get too addicted to you”
Thanks mom! 🤣🙄
So I already have a general idea of what SHE thinks about this whole situation.
But lol that’s her business
And has nothing to do with my life at all SO

I’m not quite sure what to do ESPECIALLY after doing today’s tarot reading 💀which looks very clearly to say that he is not a person I want to have in my life.

But we really do have this very interesting connection. He really gets it, not quite all the way because of the torturous indoctrination he experienced through Christianity, but he is SO ready to just change his whole life and rid himself of the old person he once was cuz he realizes very clearly now why he was suffering, and how it’s now in his own hands to make the reality he so desires.

I introduced him to meditation.
And recommended that he incorporated it into his life lol.
Last night he to kept his vape at my house to have because he wanted to quit.

He was diagnosed with type one diabetes, so his 🩸 sugar is always going up and down, causing his anxiety and overall well-being to fluctuate.
He currently does not have a healthy relationship with food and doesn’t eat enough throughout the day to maintain a steady 🩸 sugar.

But he wants to!
So I’m thinking that maybe like one day a week he can come over and we will go to the store to buy Ingredients to make healthy food to incorporate into our daily lives so that he can be his greatest version.


All’s I knows is that everything is happening fro a reason, and all if it is working in my favor always, everything is unfolding in a way that encourages my own personal expansion,
And im all about it that shit