spreading cheeks? nah. spreading toes.
spreading cheeks? nah. spreading toes.
2022-09-23 17:11:38 +0000 UTC View Post
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caught the covid, but are we really surprised? lol cx i wann..
caught the covid, but are we really surprised? lol cx i wanna eat lots of soup and tea!!
2022-09-22 16:31:14 +0000 UTC View Postfinally back home from Riot Fest and omgggg it was so fun!!!..
finally back home from Riot Fest and omgggg it was so fun!!! stressful ofc, but i saw so many bands and classics!! not to mention got to cry to my absolute favorite song ToT now i just gotta go see Gorillaz and i'll have seen my top 3 favorite bands cx
2022-09-21 19:01:34 +0000 UTC View Post
your local elf comes over and asks you to go swimming, **wha..
your local elf comes over and asks you to go swimming, **what do u do?** >if you picked **no**, they'll give you a mean face and then heely away. obviously they're too cool for you. **pleb.** >if you picked **yes**, they'll hand you another pair of heelies so you guys can get there fast and in style B) but obviously their swim suit got wet, *right*? you go back to your house to get them some dry clothes, but they start changing *right in front of you!!* you try to tell them to go to the bathroom, but they ignore you, showing you all they have to offer. and obviously, **the heelies stay on during sex.** c;
2022-09-18 14:51:00 +0000 UTC View Postjust wanted to show off my cool pants and hat cx
just wanted to show off my cool pants and hat cx
2022-09-17 15:07:07 +0000 UTC View Posti wasn't loved as a ch!ld, so now i collect plushies and lik..
i wasn't loved as a ch!ld, so now i collect plushies and like getting spanked
2022-09-15 21:56:11 +0000 UTC View Post
some of you wanted to know about my trip, so here we go! bei..
some of you wanted to know about my trip, so here we go! being on shrooms was insane. i started out the trip kind of feeling a little anxious, i wasn't nauseous at all at first. my anxiety stems from a need to have control, and doing psychs makes you completely relinquish control, so that's why i was so anxious about doing them. everything started out super cool, my friend's curtain had "3d" hexagons on it and i knew i was tripping the second i looked at the curtain. they looked SO COOL lol. he also had his leds on and the lights were dim, so the purple lights behind everything started turning into rainbows, and i remember just kind of staring at literally everything in the room and just thinking about how cool and pretty everything looked. my thoughts were very fragmented, and every time i looked at something new, i heard my voice in my brain say what it was. so my thoughts were like "light, boat, cat, ceiling, light, skull, light". i heard the words in my brain every time i looked at things LOL. and then i started to feel sick T . T i think this is what made my trip bad, along with the anxiety i felt from being super high and not having control of the way i felt. (i don't really sm0ke weed anymore, and if i do it's only very little because of this!) people look SO WEIRD on shrooms. remember looking at my friends and they looked like they were made of clay, but i also felt like i could see every pore they had. we were watching spirited away, and everything on the screen was so odd and a lot of the time scary. things just looked super weird and scary, and i couldn't enjoy it. i would have times where the badness stopped for a moment and something looked super funny and i just laughed suuuper hard, but when i stopped laughing, everything suddenly felt way too quiet and it would send me back into it bc i felt weird. a lot of my thoughts were me thinking about how i felt like throwing up and didn't want to, but my brain would go "but that's okay! that's normal!" after everything i thought about. this wouldn't really quell my anxiety, but it did in a way? i still felt anxious about throwing up, but it felt good that my brain was reminding me that these things are normal and things are gonna happen, and that's okay. i got super into my head and was thinking about the little things that happen in life and how none of it really matters in retrospect, but that's exactly WHY everything matters if that makes sense. i got the whole "we are connected as people, no one is better than anyone" and started thinking about that theory that every single person you see is just a different version of yourself. this made me think about how people treat me, and if it's good or bad, and how when someone hurts you, it's healthy to forgive them. you can still feel hurt, and your feelings are valid, but shrooms made me think that if someone hurts me, it's just ME hurting myself, having a defense mechanism that's inside myself, because they're just a different version of me. and that's made it so easy for me to forgive people for the things they do. not everyone is a bad person, and not everyone is INTENTIONALLY trying to hurt you, some are just having reactions and responses to things. but that also means if you're hurting yourself, stand up for yourself!! we all have moments where our brains are super mean to us, and that's taught me that when i'm having one of those moments, to stand up to my brain and think about my good qualities. obviously it's hard, and a lot of the time i can't do it. but "that's normal, that's okay!". sometimes you just have to sit with your feelings and figure out what it causing it, and then just sit there and be present for the feeling and FEEL it, and then let it go. in theory, being able to just let things go seems kind of impossible sometimes, but just sitting there and learning to accept that certain things are going to happen gets easier when you realize that you can't control that certain things are going to happen, but that you CAN control your reactions to things. i kept going through all these thoughts in loops, and the anxiety i felt was the worse anxiety i had EVER felt, but the things my brain was making me think was super good for me, so i chalked it up to some give and take lol, and obviously that i had taken too much for my first time. >_< after all was said and done, i came out of the trip more patient, with others AND myself! my anxiety was virtually gone for quite a few months after too, and it made me not as afraid to try things out of my comfort zone that i always wanted to try, like going to visit my friends in other states!! i think if used correctly, these things can be very good for you, but obviously everyone is different, and if you can't do these things, def only do what you're comfy with!! 💖 hope you enjoyed! -Lotus 🌺
2022-09-11 22:04:39 +0000 UTC View Postfeelin' like i'm back in middle/high school today. i'm playi..
feelin' like i'm back in middle/high school today. i'm playing adventure quest worlds and rewatching Bleach cx the nostalgia is REAL!
2022-09-10 21:11:23 +0000 UTC View Post
games keep telling me "da feet" but they never show me any 😔
games keep telling me "da feet" but they never show me any 😔
2022-09-08 18:51:48 +0000 UTC View Postwould you wander through gardens with me? 🌸 A+ to these leg..
would you wander through gardens with me? 🌸 A+ to these leggings for making my booty actually look good from the back cx
2022-09-06 18:03:32 +0000 UTC View Postnice cumshot bro! decent size, nice trajectory, and high vel..
nice cumshot bro! decent size, nice trajectory, and high velocity!
2022-09-03 18:22:11 +0000 UTC View Post
back 2 my egirl roots ^-^ i swear this is the outfit everyon..
back 2 my egirl roots ^-^ i swear this is the outfit everyone wears when they become an egirl cx and it still goes hard 😤
2022-08-30 20:23:31 +0000 UTC View Post
-have you ever done psychedelics? when i was growing up and ..
-have you ever done psychedelics? when i was growing up and first got into the **devil's lettuce**, my sister's older friends would talk about how they or their friends did shrooms or acid, and the experiences they would talk about would intrigue me. before my anxiety got super bad, i would look up videos on it and wonder why these things were labeled as **so** dangerous? obviously as i've gotten older and read more about these things, i know there interactions with medicines, your state of mind has so much to play into it, etc.. i never got to do them before my anxiety got really bad, and i knew i wouldn't be in a good state of mind to have a good trip, and i didn't want the possibility of having a bad trip because the stories i had heard about them was *super* scary. i ended up doing 🍄 last year anyway bc i was at a time in my life where i felt i had to push myself out of my anxiety comfort zones so i could be stronger as a person. in short, the trip was bad ^^' the things i got from it were sososo wonderful, but bc i have emetephobia and the main reaction to it is nausea, i spent the **WHOLE** trip trying to keep myself from *throwing up*. i never did, but oh boy was it **hell**. i didn't realize it at the time, but i took 3x the amount you should take for your first trip LOL i definitely want to do it again, but at a much lower dose. it really really helped my anxiety for quite a few months afterwards. some states are legalizing them and starting therapy research! i know a lot of people don't understand or like psychs, which is *completely* okay! things affect everyone differently and all opinions are valid! anyway, i just wanted to share lol. if you're interested in hearing what my trip was like and what i got from it, lmk and i'll make another lil diary entry c: "OpEn YoUr MiNd" lol -Lotus 🌺
2022-08-28 18:42:25 +0000 UTC View Posthard 2 see the haterz when u have cum in ur eyez #deep
hard 2 see the haterz when u have cum in ur eyez #deep
2022-08-27 20:08:48 +0000 UTC View Postoh no, the pokemon has gone completely sentient and is askin..
oh no, the pokemon has gone completely sentient and is asking why we don't call orgies "clusterfucks"???
2022-08-23 20:58:24 +0000 UTC View Posti forever am grateful and appreciate the shit out of all of ..
i forever am grateful and appreciate the shit out of all of you who support and uplift me! you guys make everything worth it and i'm so happy to have support by bein a dumb lil shitposting goblin on the internet 💖 thank you guys sm c': HERE'S BOOBS LOL
2022-08-23 02:05:35 +0000 UTC View Post
edgy™ i dyed my hair!!!!!! finally i can get back to bein a ..
edgy™ i dyed my hair!!!!!! finally i can get back to bein a vampire... or... **skunk**?? hehe whatchu think??? also **free** mini set for subscribers bc i appreciate you all! i know a lot of you aren't super into my dark/goth looks so here ya go!
2022-08-19 23:03:31 +0000 UTC View Postfavorite Naruto character and why? no one will like my answe..
favorite Naruto character and why? no one will like my answer... but i totally related to Sakura. i was super annoying when i was younger, but i grew into the strong, helpful person i am today. i think Sakura had a lot of character development and that is super inspiring. IDC IF YALL HATE HER I LOVE HER OK 😤💖
2022-08-16 18:32:30 +0000 UTC View Post
ugh, finding motivation to work out can be **so** hard! i wa..
ugh, finding motivation to work out can be **so** hard! i want to get in shape and tone my body to what i'm happy with, but i'm **so** impatient! >-< it takes me a long time to see results and i often get discouraged, and sometimes i get sick/hurt a body part, or something is just wrong that day to where i skip a day working out and... *then* promise i'll do it the next day.. but then i end up skipping that too and it ends up being a week later and i **still** haven't worked out! finding motivation is super hard, and i so badly want to just stuff my face with food all the time! >-< i see all these pretty people on social media and their bodies are so beautiful, i get the urge to look like them! but i also know i have to remind myself that **everyone** is beautiful in their own way, and there are plenty of good things about my body too! so if i screw up and eat a *little* **too much**, or skip a few days working out on "accident" ;p, i remind myself that i'm only human, and i'm trying my best! you're doing amazing and i'm proud of you! -Lotus 🌺
2022-08-14 16:37:06 +0000 UTC View Postreach test: spread your ass and fart if you see this. then ..
reach test: spread your ass and fart if you see this. then type "done" afterwards
2022-08-13 21:56:35 +0000 UTC View Posthehe, i tried a different makeup look to hang with friends t..
hehe, i tried a different makeup look to hang with friends tonight! and felt cute after with no makeup on, so why not show that with some tiddies?? :3
2022-08-13 07:04:23 +0000 UTC View Post