I don’t really know what to caption this, I am just going to be real and admit that I recently found myself in some new financial responsibilities that are pretty stressful.
But I know I got this. Life will always, always,
*always* have it’s ups and downs and I’m just very glad it’s only financial, material, and nothing in
regards to health.
I have to remember to stay grateful.
And with that being said, everyone’s support is deeply appreciated ❤️
Thank you for being a subscriber!
It means a lot to me!
Sorry for not doing my daily posting, like I usually do. It’s been a very slow time period for me. This should subside soon. However, contrary to my last post, I actually really like how these pictures came out ☺️ I’d like to share them with you all.
Hey babes. Just a lil life update.
I had such a wonderful time performing for this past music festival, I decided I will not be completely letting go of my performer life.
I will no longer be performing burlesque though, since it is way too much effort for not a lot in return.
I will also be only doing performance shifts during the day so I can strip at night.
I think I found a good work-life balance.
It involves LOTS of naps, hehe.
As for this page, things will be running the same. I am kind of getting bored of the content I shot at the Phoenix Shootfest, but I will still upload them nonetheless.
I really can’t wait to unravel what my current project is. It’s going to be amazing. I’d like to show y’all some day, when I can! For now, have these pictures I took in Phoenix.
💙 Alright. I’m done scolding you. Let’s go back to the little patio, it seems like there’s no one there. Do you know what I like to do at parties? Take some guesses. 💙
❤️ Let’s get ONE thing straight, running this page is not my passion. In fact, it’s a privilege to have access to me like this. I’m not your delivery girl. This is a place where you can get more intimate with me, on MY time, on MY schedule. These rants are like late night texts. Our convos will not be consistent, they will be like texting that girl you see once in a while when you’re lonely and when she has time to kill. My PPV’s are obviously there to make me my side money. My virtual versions of lap dances. Do you think a girl becomes a stripper just for fun? No. That’s a plus. Money is obviously the main goal. This also applies to Onlyfans. So this is your friendly reminder that it is a privilege to be here. If you want to believe otherwise, I don’t even want your money, I can get it from someone else. If you’re on the same page as me and we are vibing on the same frequency, I appreciate your support. ❤️
Tbh I don’t let my subscriber count affect me anymore (it was realllllyyyy bad when I first started in 2020) but I will make the observation that I went from 272 subs to 259 after I posted that lmao
I’m sure alot of factors come into play, I’m sure maybe it’s because I had a huge subscriber spike and they all expired at the same time. And some ppl just need to save money or some people just want full on missionary sex and masturbation on the news feed (which is honestly not a smart hustle, but whatever floats your boat I guess)
Either way that’s all okay but sheesh 🤣🤷🏻♀️
Would like to take a break from the pre-set posts, our regular scheduled programming to share some vulnerable updates
I’ve made the decision to slowly draw out of the performance artist race
I performed my last burlesque act a couple weeks ago, might have performed my last gogo shift today. Not sure about that one. I might send in my availability anyway, just to keep my foot in the gogo door
It’s been really hard for me but also necessary
It was really hard to stay happy while dancing today
It doesn’t help that I’m not really clicking with the group dynamics very well
Which have me wondering if I’m just not a team player
But regardless it’s just a lot. I think I’m just growing out of that chapter of my life.
Battling countless obstacles such as imposter syndrome and always wanting to be more and always saying “I should be this” or that.
I haven’t told alot of people this. If you know me irl and you’re subscribed to me under a different alias then whatever.
That being said, I’m not dropping out of using this account or stripping. Unfortunately, SOMEHOW, onlyfans is a lot more energetically taxing for me. Mentally, at least.
I struggle with replying to my regular Instagram DMs, you can only imagine how much I struggle with replying to OF DMs sometimes.
Dancing for customers and connecting on the physical realm is a lot easier for me, I don’t really know why. Maybe it’s because I’m used to it and I’ve mastered my craft.
Only fans is definitely a chore.
Nonetheless I’ll still be on here, again, my attention is going to come in waves. When I’m out, I drift in here and there but when I’m in, I’m all in. I can’t wait for the next time I’ll be all in and all efforts for this platform.
If I haven’t replied to you, please don’t take it personal, there’s just… a lot… of you.
I appreciate you for understanding.
I promise I have a juicy new PPV I’ll be sending out this month, I filmed it in during the PHX, Arizona shootfest. It should be ready in the near future.
Today was doable; but difficult. But I made it. I’m battling one hour of sleep and I am trying my best to gain the strength to go strip tonight. It’s already midnight so I’ll be late, but weekends are usually late crowd anyway… it’s just really hard for me right now because I worked a really exhausting day shift today for my gogo job and I am only surviving off 1 hour. I need to make money though.
It’s like I’m not really sure what route to take today. If I stay home and take care of myself, I’m going to beat myself up for not making money. If I go and try to work (1. It might be slow like last night) and 2. I’m going to definitely be exhausted by 6am lol
Either way tho I’m still grateful these are the kinds of problems I am facing. It could be much worse.
Anyways, I want to share what I have planned for the future but that’s going to have to wait for another post.
I appreciate you all being subscribed to me and committing to support me through all phases of my life. Even if you can’t anymore. Even if you only just do the monthly price.
It all really still means a lot to me.
Thank you.
- R
Um I totally fucked up and posted ALL of those photos in one sitting, instead of saving them as drafts so I got extremely annoyed and gave up on onlyfans for like four days (basically, the amount of posts I posted in that one sitting) but now I’m back and everything is fine lol
DUUUUDE enough about me. What about you?!
Are you okay? Have you been alright?
Imma put a poll on this post but I have to remember to do it ON THE DAY before it posts because OF will fuck my poll up it I post it now. Polls have a 7 day countdown for when users can participate, which is okay, but I really wish they would just make that an optional thing lol.
So if I post this in my queue as a draft, and post it WITH the POLL it will count the days that it’s posted in the draft… for the countdown… that’s why I was having issues before, if you remember that. Damn if you remember that then you a real one.
Anyways!!!!!!!!! Participate in the poll!!!
It should be live
So you’re probably reading my captions and you’re like **”damn this bitch it’s probably going through a manic phase right now”**
And maybe I am???? Idk dude only fans be a ROLLERCOASTER for me
Like one month I’m on top of my game and I fucking love being your little content machine
The next month I am actually fucking over it lol and this month of May is ONE OF THOSE MONTHS
but you know what?
Mama ain’t raised no quitter
And I also like money
So what’s good?!!!!! It’s okay, I’m okay, and I really hope you’ve been okay too. Fuck I don’t even know if y’all are reading this or not. It’s okay if you’re not.
My main thing is authenticity and art. So imma give you some authentic commentary while also posting these pretty pictures that have a trippy filter over them. They’re all different so I DID PUT some effort into them SO ITS STILL ART
Anyways im probably gonna wake up the next day (it’s actually Wednesday, May ((the)) 4th right now- despite it being Saturday, May 8th LMAO) and im gonna be like damn why did I write all that
But i ain’t gonna delete it bc who cares
I love y’all
I really do!
Let’s see what the next post entails!
**I DO THIS THING WHERE I TAKE TOO MANY SELFIES** like SAME POSE, DIFFERENT FACE…
And they all come out FIRE as fuck, lol…
Hot Girl Problems, am I right?
Obviously I’m not gonna post all of them on social medias, maybe 15% of them, so PLEASE JUST
ENJOY ALL OF THEM! That’s the whole point of a fan page right?!!
Also PLEASE DO NOT WORRY YOU WILL
EVENTUALLY SEE MY TITS AND THE OUTSKIRTS OF MY FAT LITTLE PUSSY
It’s called tease
Fuckin enjoy!!! 😃
Yeah, just kidding. OF’s platform doesn’t really support the format I’ll be using on my more public platforms. IG and Twitter replay videos to an extent, where as on OF you have to manually replay it. Oh well! Here’s what I’ll be posting the next couple weeks on my public pages. At least y’all get to see them first!
So the theory goes, on IG, videos seem to get more revenue than photos. And the more a viewer watches and re-watches a video, the higher the traction (I guess)… I’ve seen a lot of accounts use the “short video” tactic. Like motivational pages that post motivational quotes will actually post their quote as a 1 second video as opposed to just a regular picture. It seems to be working for them! So I am going to go ahead and try it.
I am getting really bored of the standard “selfie” thing anyways; and the short clips remind me of the golden age of Tumblr, where short fancy gifs ruled the site. It’s a bit nostalgic.
Let’s see where this goes! Wish me luck! Regardless I just want to do ANYTHING to break me out of the norm! Here we go 🪷
Hello May 💦 I’ve been really bored again with the typical posting. Like I tried that for a week, and it was nice because I didn’t have to worry about it, since everything was pre-set and queued… But idk it felt stale to me. Sorry if that felt stale to you guys too. **HOWEVER, I still looked cute in those photos so** 🤭
I’ve been liking the short video clip vibe. I was fucking around and editing some photos then I decided to play with the “Live” feature. Added some (non-face altering) filters and bam, I’m calling it art. It reminds me of Tumblr from the 2010’s… Anyways, let’s see how it does.
OBVIOUSLY More risky content will be coming in this form, I’m just trying something. Stay tuned. 😚
