Glitter bunny for Easter 💦💦💦 I would like to catch up you a..

Glitter bunny for Easter 💦💦💦

I would like to catch up you all on what’s been going on:
Last few months OF became very mentally draining for some reason. It felt as if I had to constantly push my boundaries, do more, show more and live up to some kind of expectation. All while battling my own mental health and anxiety from school becoming harder and harder.
I was so disappointed with myself for always priming to post and then rarely doing it that sometimes I wouldn’t even open and reply to messages on OF for over a week. I knew people paid to see something and instead were getting nothing. I felt like a piece of shit for all this.
I really wanted to fix it lately. And then I got sick with Covid. When I finally started feeling better, working out again and stuff, my birthday was coming up and I told myself I would use this opportunity to start being consistent again. But I got sick again.. not with Covid but sick nevertheless.
I invited some people over for my birthday and pushed through me being sick because I really didn’t wanna feel lonely and depressed on one day of the year that is supposed to be all about you. Cuz usually my birthdays are really shit.
Drinking and smoking while having a sore throat was truly not the best idea. Throughout the evening I completely lost my voice. It’s been 2 days now and I still can barely say a few words and sounding like a wheezing old squeaky toy lol.
I’ll be okay tho. I will get better, I will focus on all you here more and I will make it up to all of you.

I’ve said this a million times already, but thank you for your support. You paying for my subscription means I don’t have to take on extra jobs to pay for my rent and food while trying to get education. You’ve helped so incredibly much and if I do end up getting up my degree next year, it’s gonna be thanks to you all supporting me on here and helping me not feel stress and desperate about how to make money.