Here we go a little insight to my world of bodybuilding. I’m..

Here we go a little insight to my world of bodybuilding. I’m 8 weeks out from my next show and truth be told I’m nervous AF. I don’t know that I’ll make weight/shred enough body fat to be stage ready. The fat is not coming off like we (my coach and I) had hoped. I’m hopeful though that my new diet and cardio regimen will get me to where I need to be. If not then I’ll have to for go the show I have planned in early October for a show in late October/ early November.

There is definitely a “mind fuck” that goes along with this sport. When I tell people I have ten pounds to lose or I have x amount of muscle that needs to be gained or x amount of inches to lose and they respond with “you look great” it’s hard to say “thanks” because with all due respect most don’t understand, and the majority doesn’t. Looking great to average eye isn’t enough. Looking great in a bathing suit or pair of jeans isn’t enough. You have to literally be the tiniest, most muscular, leanest person in my division with out being too muscular. You have to sell it. It’s so much more than just looking great. This is probably the unhealthiest sport on the planet; mentally and physically. Mentally because you get used to seeing your body in this state of little to no body fat during your on season, then when you aren’t in season you to leave that shredded body behind to gain weight to gain muscle is hard. It’s hard to see the fat and weight come back. Especially knowing that in 6 months I’m going to deprive myself of food and energy to shred it off again. And physically because your diet is fluctuating 6-800 calories from one season to the other. And while you’re in a deficit you have to push harder than you ever have all year. It’s draining, it is difficult, but it is the most rewarding personal journey I have every gone through. To know that I can do really freaking hard things is amazing.

Anyways that’s my long winded insight to my little world that I am living in right now. Heres to 8 weeks or really fucking hard work and lots of chicken and asparagus 😂