A little update on why I’ve been a bit quiet the past couple..

A little update on why I’ve been a bit quiet the past couple of days. First off I’d like to apologize, but I’ve had a hard time mentally and haven’t really been in a place where I really wanted to be “seen”.

As you know I am a huge believer in honesty and transparency, especially on social media, so to honor that I’d like to share what’s been going on.

It recently came to my attention that in multiple forums, both online and irl apparently, my general appearance is being discussed at length. And in particular there is being drawn comparisons between myself and another creator who shall remain nameless. The comparisons are NOT in my favor.

In general, I find this whole topic of comparison of women quite uncomfortable - because no one compares women more than women do. It is an inherently destructive thing and something I have struggled with a LOT in the past but particularly in recent years. It’s extremely hard to combat with societal pressures, and all made worse with social media. I feel like women are almost taught from an early age to be “compared” as our value often is depicted primarily visually. Comparisons can be good and bad I guess. Good being “oh wow those leggings look amazing on her I want those”. Bad/ destructive sounding more like “ugh I wish I was short and petite like her and not a big whale” <—— I think this one a lot for example.

Usually I don’t really care much what internet strangers who have never met me irl has to say about me, but the constant barrage of these comments / comparisons has really taken the wind out of me. I now find myself in a place where I feel anxious posting pictures of myself (especially lewd pictures who are more “vulnerable” imo) knowing that these people will see them and continue to compare… This is a really big problem as my main source of income comes from, you know it, creating content 🫠

I’ve created this horrible relationship with myself, my body, my job, it just seems like a vicious, unending cycle. I wanted to express this in an attempt to set myself free from this all. If you happen to be one of these people, I would kindly ask you reconsider, I know I put on a strong front but my self confidence has been reduced to dust in recent years, and I really do take it all to heart.

If you read this whole rant thanks, I appreciate you.

xx your decent personality but not so good looking mediocre online slut Adeline 💜