Story/confession time. I never really felt comfortable in my..

Story/confession time. I never really felt comfortable in my body. I’m literally just starting now. I have never sent nudes until recently, and my ex-husband has never had sex with me in daylight. Never. Exploring openness in a relationship means for me meeting attractive people, men, and women, who are not my soulmate, wanting me and considering me beautiful. But I’m also the kinda woman who still wants to be wanted for “the whole package”, as creative (I do wedding and boudoir photography), hard worker (I also manage a busy hair salon), humble, kind, respectful, who knows how to sew and used to be a cookbook author. You know, not just a body to fuck. And that’s why we started exploring poly but in our own way. Actually, I know nothing about poly, so maybe it’s not that unusual! @helicopterheaux’s biggest desire is to share me with other people and that works for me because I’m very selective about the women I’m comfortable sharing him with. He’s also comfortable with me meeting people/partners alone while I’m 100% not able to let him do that, and that’s more than ok for him, he’s not interested in that. So it works for us. NGL, I felt guilty a lot, but after months I realized he actually feels more happiness and pleasure when I have fun with a man than when we have a threesome with a beautiful woman. And it works so well for us because I was never truly appreciated before and I crave all the love and attention I can have. He’s gonna forever be the love of my life, we realized that on date number 2 and every day that passes confirms it. But now I have someone that I pretty much consider a girlfriend - we talk all the time and we do sexual stuff, so… (sorry @magofpeachess I told you I was gonna ask you to be my girlfriend one day 😅) and I have been talking to a guy met on Feeld for a while now and I’m finally meeting him tomorrow. I’m excited and nervous, worried that he’s not going to be down to be what I’m looking for - aka a boyfriend that we can invite over all the time, who I can dance with and kiss in public without issues or drama (almost everybody in my life in my town knows about my lifestyle and onlyfans so they wouldn’t be surprised). The video you see here is something I snapped for Mag and him (I previously sent a similar one to HH) this morning. Will you cross your fingers for me tomorrow? 🥺 And would you like updates about my new poly adventures?