I get a lot of harassment from random men for doing this and..

I get a lot of harassment from random men for doing this and I’m so fucking tired.

I didn’t realize having fun and exploring this as a sexual outlet would empower others to treat me like garbage for either not fucking them or being a whore. Choose one at least?

Damned if you and damned if you don’t. Just want to remind everyone that makes assumptions about me, you don’t know me like that. I’m a single woman that started this after leaving a toxic, long term relationship and felt at my lowest. I needed the financial support and needed to be seen. I’ve only ever done pretty tame, solo content except one collab, both consenting adults. Even if any of this were different, it wouldn’t make me any less of a person or more deserving of harassment.

I get messages on here (and other places) constantly asking me to fuck strangers even after I say no. I’m reduced to my parts every single day whether it’s from here or not. It makes me feel disgusting and despite trying to date, I haven’t been with anyone in months because it doesn’t feel safe or good to do so. I try my best to reply to everyone and treat them with kindness even when they’re gross to me. I’m trying my best. And I’m really questioning if any of this is worth it moving forward.

I’m vulnerable here because I don’t want to hide. I share my body even when I hate it. I allow myself to be sexual and have fun even when I want to shrink. And I share these bad times even when it feels like it doesn’t matter. Because I’m an actual person that happens to make spicy content as well. I deserve to be treated with kindness and respect.

With that, I’m frustrated and sad. This has been the toughest year of my life and I’ve tried to make something of all the pieces. I want to take a break but as with any content creation, that’s when your supporters leave. But I couldn’t keep this to myself.

Be kind. Thanks for being here.

Taking a break.