Added 2024-04-08 09:37:15 +0000 UTC
I'm going to try going live without face cam at all this week. Thrusday was tough, pushing through and then feeling sick on stream and hot. So i just turned off cam, took the wig off and carried on. It felt liberating to be honest. I was able to do the full stream when deep down i just wanted to cancel. I felt more relaxed off camera. So i think this week i want to try no camera streams. Viewership is low anyway so i just think i may aswell be comfy if i'm going to still go live and push through my negative feelings. Dunno about streaming today, feeling really bad anxiety and tired :( Also didn't help the bullshit i had to deal with when i got home which i don't want to get into but i've basically stayed in my room since. So i'm already starting the day in a shitty mood with high anxiety. Gonna see how i feel around 4PM and decide then. If i do go live were still in a place holder mode until Grounded comes out next week so i will likely just carry on with planet coaster building. As for face cam returning, i wanna see how it goes over these camless streams for now. I would like to be back on camera for Grounded, but we shall see.
