I wish I was brave enough to just take a few months off from content creation just to sort my thoughts and feelings out. Not to mention my life and all the things building up that i have neglected. I honestly feel like it would be helpful for my mental health but worry too much about the lasting damage that would do to an already struggling channel. My viewership is already low, i feel like taking a few months off would be just be torpedoeing my channel into the grave and really would be the nail in the coffin. It doesn’t help that I’ve had people come along and say “dead channel” or “90k+ subs and no one in the chat ” and pointing out viewer count etc. I'm sure some of them don't realise how hurtful this can be so I don't write them all off as assholes but it is taboo to bring such things up and is commonly known not to bring this up. So really, there is no excuse other than no tact or thoughtfullness. Yes I know viewership is low, you think I haven’t been struggling with all of this for a long time? I had someone say “Go back to face cam, you will get more views” Actually, my viewership is the same 🤷‍♀️ I switched to a model because of my struggles and mood, do not expect face cam again. I don’t plan on returning to it any time soon. I feel like I have not been putting my health first at all. I get ill more often than not nowadays and I think it all ties together. I just feel so demotivated and lost most days. I feel like I can’t focus on the things I need to do to improve myself and life. Stepping away for a longer period time is likely overdue. If I did decide to do it, fansly would remain the same. It would just be the streaming side of things I would stop for a while. I take a week off here and there and usually it’s only a small temporary fix. I’m taking a few days off next week but I also have the overwhelming desire to take this week off too >_< (more in replies)