Feelings~ I take pride in having a hairy vagina, a bush beca..

Feelings~ I take pride in having a hairy vagina, a bush because right now, I am abstinent from sexual intercourse. At this moment in time it is in honor of my husband as I wait for him to get better. These days have been emotional; it is Mercury retrograde, (yes I believe in astrology) I have my period and my husband and I are stuck in a hotel for a very long time while he awaits chemo radiation. To me my bush hides away my secret garden ; my pussy cat 🫶🏾. It is a sense of, I respect my husband and I would like to have more privacy with my genitalia while he needs to heal. I don’t need to be feel super pressured by sex. I’m not going to lie, I’m having a hard time today. I had a photoshoot with this photographer. I wasn’t fully aware but somewhat aware of the general content that would of been going for this photoshoot. As an Only Fans model/ nude artist, I am very open but I am very reserved as well. From this first experience of being shot nude completely open in the public, I had a lot of hard feelings after. One being when the photographer said “contact me when you shave it”. My heart kind of sunk and I thought should I even be doing this? It was an experience to understand what it might feel like to shoot with Penthouse or Playboy or some magazine that has adult content. I think my intention of the photoshoot was originally bikinis. I am happy that I experienced that. But I am digesting it in a very inward way. You might be like “Oh, but she shows everyone her pussy here on the internet?”. I think I just want to share my honest feelings and experience while I was being photographed. I came home to my husband @tbone310 and made him aware there were nude photographs taken. I felt sad that maybe I wasn’t fully aware of what this photo shoot was going to be involving nudity in the bare open public and now I think we’re both kind of sad. I still went through with everything. I think it is helpful for me to deeply reflect here on my sexuality website. To me, I do a lot of this work to help others. I want to experience the process of climbing to the top in a sexuality based job. And how others might be taken advantage of for their vulnerable bodies. Not that anything from this bad happened, but it gives me an option to explore a narrative deeper than what’s known to the public eye.