Sorry its taken so long to get around to following up on tha..

Sorry its taken so long to get around to following up on that last video. Life gets busy sometimes. But now I finally have a minute.

So.

Blowjobs.

I have always loved giving blowjobs. I think its because I love seeing someone I love really happy, and oral sex seems to make most people pretty happy.
There's nothing more affirming than putting someones genitals in your mouth. So its something I love and something I'm comfortable with. But it wasn't until about a couple of years ago that I discovered a new aspect to giving a good blowjob.

I had a vague idea that it was a thing, but it wasn't until I met a man who knew a lot about it that I added it to my repertoire. He was so encouraging, so affirming, so non-judgemental that he made it safe for me to try.

Because here's a thing that a lot of people are afraid of: sexual failure. Looking stupid. Being embarrassed in a sexual context. You have to be brave sometimes to try new things. You have to be with someone you trust. You have to feel safe.

He made me feel safe to try. It also helped, he had what I call "Goldie-cock". That is a cock that's not to big, not to small, just right!. (You see what I did there.) So he would say to me "can you try to get the whole thing in your mouth?", with the sweetest eyes and a reassuring hand stroking my hair. And I'm nothing if not a try-er! And so I gave it a try. I took a deep breath, relaxed my shoulders, looked up at him and.... swallowed. I even impressed myself that time. But of course, I got it down my throat for only a second and then... gagged. And that noise! It just seems so extreme. So un-sexy in my mind. I was embarrassed. But he was so sweet, so kind, telling me that it was good and he liked it and that he thought the noise was hot. Now that was a revelation. I hadn't watched a lot of porn, and I didn't know as much about male sexuality as I do now. And basically, anything that is associated with pleasure (for men or women I guess) becomes associated with that feeling or sound, and it becomes hot.

That was a game changer. And of course it became hot to me too. Win-win.

I also noticed that when your throat is stimulated like that it produces an extra viscous, mucous-y saliva. I've actually heard it referred to as "throat cum". Which again, the first time I saw that I felt like it was "gross" but finding out that my partner didn't think it was gross, made me look at it in a whole different light. I could see the beauty of those curved strings of spit stretching from his cock to my mouth. Joining us for a second yet, like thoughts from a distance.

Then one day, something crazy happened. We'd already been fucking for awhile, and switched to a blow job for fun and variety and I'd already squirted once and then I choked on his cock and my whole body clenched, right down to my pussy, and .... I squirted. From my pussy. That cock in my throat made me cum. I was so surprised I started to laugh. It was an amazing moment. Yet another reason to love trying new things!

I hope you don't mind how frank I've been in this post. It all still seems quite graphic and raw to talk about, but it'd been such an amazing thing to learn about myself, and I'm excited to share it with you. And I feel like a video like that needs context. Thank you for reading my thoughts. You guys are the best!