Happy Canada Day to my fellow Canadians!!!🇨🇦 Happy Saturday ..

Happy Canada Day to my fellow Canadians!!!🇨🇦 Happy Saturday to everyone ❤️ I found these in the archives from Christmas and the colours seemed appropriate for Canada Day (red & white). Plus they’re sexy as fuck! Looking back at them now, I’m reminded how sexy and turned on I used to get taking photos for you. In my mind, it was like I got all dressed up for my boyfriend When I was looking at the camera … I was looking at you. I see the innocence and playfulness on my face … the eagerness to please. Over time, when what I was doing no longer seemed enough or good enough I lost that playful feeling. I didn’t feel sexy anymore. When I looked in the camera I just knew what I was sharing wasn’t enough. Some would nicely say you should try this next time, some would flat out tell me I was a joke or “show me your pussy”. “Is this it”. Some demanded a refund. Some called me names. But some … told me how beautiful I looked. To those who did. I’m so sorry I wasn’t strong enough emotionally to bear the weight of those who choose to look at a women in her most vulnerable state and opt for cruelty. I think that will be my biggest regret. If I had of been stronger, would my work have gotten better instead of worse? I’ll always been soft that way. Many say it’s what makes me beautiful but sometimes it makes me feel weak. I will forge forward taking the lessons with me and hopefully when I look back on this experience I will have no regrets. Remember this is just rambling of feelings. No need to comfort or fix. I’m just sharing unfiltered what’s on my mind this morning when I look at these pics. I also hope I can loose this self-pity mindset. Instead, adopt an I tried I failed … who gives a shit … I showed up and did my best … with the skills and knowledge I had at the time …. attitude. Hehe Give me a month or so to regroup and I promise I will come back stronger in my next undertaking. It may not be in front of a camera though. Lol 💕 Joanne