Why this place? Maybe because I’m afraid. Because I want to ..
Added 2024-10-29 19:53:20 +0000 UTCWhy this place? Maybe because I’m afraid. Because I want to pour out all my thoughts, to expose my entire nature, however weak or flawed it may be. And I have this strange need for a kind of public openness—even if, in reality, no one actually reads it. I feel like a secret voyeur, hiding in a dark alley.
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