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I wish I could explain to you guys what it feels like to be ..

Added 2023-10-10 15:56:49 +0000 UTC

I wish I could explain to you guys what it feels like to be spiraling the way that I have recently. There are moments where I do wish I could kinda just level out a bit and have a "normal" day.. but my appetite says otherwise. I have 0 control over my eating. I become more and more sedentary each day. I find myself making the dumbest excuses for why I can't do things with even the slightest bit of physical activity. I am horny 24/7, literally cannot stop fucking myself. I used to care a LOT about what I look like but now some days my belly is just so bloated and swollen, I don't even care if it's hanging out of my shirt. It's not like I have other options anyway. I can't tie my shoes so they stay untied. My feet are so swollen that they barely fit in my shoes as it is. I am sweaty constantly, tired 24/7, and hungry from the moment I open my eyes to the moment I go to sleep at night. I drool over food and fixate on my next meal. I cannot fucking stop even though I know I probably should and idk I just feel like no explanation I type out for you guys will ever do it justice. I can just feel myself on the brink of mass destruction, going total blob and never looking back. 🤭🥵