TL;DR is it just me or did I actually make some modest glute..

TL;DR is it just me or did I actually make some modest glute gains over the last few months.. these are pink pilates princess aesthetic (LOL) inspired nudes xo tbh I don’t know if it’s seasonal depression since it’s improved just after daylight savings but I have been sooo lethargic this season and did not post as much as I planned. I always had a worse problem with anxiety but I think my first winter season living mostly alone wiped me out. During this time I basically didn’t go out of my house AT ALL except to grocery shop and go to the gym 3x a week. I started working out because it made me feel better but when I wasn’t at the gym I was pretty much either sleeping or cooking. Since going outside makes me so anxious I spent time learning how to cook and maximize freezer storage so I can make filling meals really conveniently without having to make lots of trips for smaller meals that are fresh each time? I admit on colder days there were a lot of grocery delivery orders LOL. I’m trying hard to go outside more and I think I will once the weather gets better and I can hang out at parks instead of places that make me a little nervous like anywhere indoor with a lot of people, even though that’s where you have fun in the winter since outside of the shops and restaurants it’s too cold 🥲 Otherwise I love walking with friends. I travel a lot because most of my friends and family are scattered worldwide so it’s pretty sporadic when I get social interaction; it does make each hangout with my friends extra special though because we don’t see each other often. Hoping to spend the rest of this month catching up on OF before I travel and take more content when it gets warm 🫡 In addition to my solo gym sessions I also signed up for personal training because I am incredibly weak to salespeople and the trainer my gym assigned to contact me was a very pretty and friendly girl my age so I couldn’t say no to her 😭 But the good thing is she was so nice and pretty much my only social interaction a lot of this season and to be honest I have never received such a big return on an investment in terms of how good it makes me feel physically and mentally… I was never into being active because I was a shy clumsy kid and didn’t fit in with team sports very well at school so I thought it’s cliché that you can enjoy exercise but man it does get better. It made me to leave the house since i am too nervous to reschedule if I really don’t want to go lol. Even on my worst days if I didn’t have a session I aimed for lazy consistency working out at home so I kept moving even if I didn’t train my hardest each time and I really wouldn’t have pulled myself out of this slump had I not maintained that. during my depression I also dropped my semester and am taking time off school like I should’ve done a long time ago and actually managed to actually pick up some good habits because until now school obligations looming over me was making me frozen with fear and guilt even though it shouldn’t have been, just because I hadn’t noticed I was letting it get to me and just needed a break. I have appointments and stuff scheduled to increase my meds and try and take the depression parts out of my life while keeping what I’ve learned lol so I can be more productive!!!