I've Been Lying, And I Need To Come Clean (4-17-22): Alrigh..

I've Been Lying, And I Need To Come Clean (4-17-22): Alright, Kingz, I need to talk to you about some things. First off, a lot of this will come as an excuse to some, but hopefully, you can understand. And before you continue reading, I will complain a bit about having a big dick. So hopefully, that doesn't aggravate some of you. When I started sharing my PE journey, I also shared my journey to become a better person. And on that note, I've been failing because I've been slacking when it comes to my health. Which, in turn, has been affecting my uploads and potentially my gains. My work schedule has been kicking my ass, but that's no excuse for my lack of working out and eating right. And those two things alone are what I preach about the most when it comes to making PE gains. And I know that's also affecting my gains as well. Whenever I tell you not to worry about the tape measure, that also applies to me when it comes to the scale. I know PE works, just like how I know weight loss works. But when you become desperate, like I have to lose weight, you eventually give up because you feel like it's not working. And I understand that when it comes to PE as well. I'm proof that PE works, and people like Thomas Delauer are proof that weight loss through keto works. And yet I've become so impatient and annoyed by setting myself back by stopping what's working. Me losing weight is critical for my gains to become what I want them to be, and I want to apologize for not keeping up on my end. I could use the excuse of being depressed, overworked, or whatever. But they're just that, excuses. If it weren't for my big dick, I would still be that nerd from school. I feel that some of you look at me the way I look at a buff guy telling me how to lose weight. But I felt terrible because I haven't been sincere, and I know that's why I've lost so many followers because I haven't been fully transparent. And I'm letting my self-esteem and other bullshit get in the way of making content. One big reason for my lack of content is that I'm disgusted when I see myself on camera. I try and crop out my titties from view, and I wear shirts. I hate turning sideways on camera, and I hate turning around. Being on camera has fucked with my head a bit because I never realized how gross my body looked. But with all that said, I will keep trying to better myself. I have to practice what I preach. But I needed to write this blog because I've been lying to you all. And for that, I'm genuinely sorry. But I'm not giving up. I kept getting stuck in my head when I posted the food I was eating or workout videos. But, it's what I will have to do if I want to show you all that this works and those who have stuck around. You have no idea how much that means to me. I owe you all more, you're paying for content, and I haven't been delivering my complete end of the bargain. The thing about slacking off is that you only hurt yourself. I went from 365 lbs down to 315 and then back up to 340 and theirs no excuse for that. And that changes tonight. All of the tea, supplements, ACV, working out and meal prep makes me feel amazing. But then I get caught up looking at the number on the scale and I stop doing them and when I do I feel like total shit. And that's so fucking self-destructive, the mental hoops you have to go through to purposely make yourself feel like shit when you're starting to achieve your goals is wild to me. But I could use your help as well Kingz, if you have any advice I would love to hear it. Thanks.