Gettin back into my groove slowly but surely 🥺 If you don’t ..

Gettin back into my groove slowly but surely 🥺 If you don’t follow me on Instagram, you should! I post there daily about what’s goin’ on with me. Www.Instagram.com/undersiegexo I find it cathartic, usually. I got some messages while I was away from people thinking I keeled over or something but I was still active on IG and Twitter documenting the state of myself and sharing memes. I can do more of that on my story here if you’d care to see it. The day after I posted about coming back, cheddar had a back flare-up for the first time in almost 2 yrs. When he was 3 he slipped a disc in his spine from running through a doggy door and the top hitting his back, it built up so much pressure and swelling that his legs stopped working. He had to have an 8000$ surgery immediately or he would have been para—- lyzed (this word is banned??) and incontinent for the rest of his life. After a week in the puppy hospital and physical therapy for a few months he was good, but started to get “flare ups” when he was 5, his back legs would get shakey and he wouldn’t want to move or eat or drink because he was in pain 🥺 Changes in weather could do it, walks that were a little too long, sneakily jumping off the couch. We managed it with gabapentin and steroidal anti-inflammatories+ crate rest for a week and he’d be back to himself, but it still sucked to watch him go through it 2-3 times a year. After his other parent passed, one of the only things that made me feel better was making sure he was taken care of amazingly. I did my research and got him a series of acupuncture, and after his 3rd session and some strengthening exercises (gradual longer walks daily) he was in the best spirits since...idk it was like he was a puppy again 🥺 I could literally see it in his face how much better he felt. And that continued up until last week. I finally was pulling myself out of my rut and part of that was taking long walks every morning to get into gear, and I think it was just too much for him 😔 The day after our long one, he was very reluctant to walk, but he still kept beside me...which was weird because he’s usually walking ME. It’s a problem lol. I kept an eye on him and by the end of the day he wouldn’t even get up while I put his harness on him to go for his night walk. I knew something wasn’t right so I went to the emergency vet, waited from 9 pm-2 am because they were at capacity, just to go home and go to an urgent care vet at 8 am the next day. The doctor there confirmed he was having a potential disc herniation, but his legs were still working, just shakey. She gave him meds and suggested he take it easy. So I went home, I got him cozy on the couch, he still wouldn’t eat or drink but I got him to take his meds. Then around 7 pm he went to the bathroom all over himself and was dragging his legs, a sign it was getting worse. I brought him back to the ER, then had to wait until the next day to see a neurologist. They were wonderful and luckily we were able to avoid surgery so long as he either stayed the same or got a little better within the next 48 hours. He didn’t have reflexes in his back feet, but he could still feel “deep pain” and even responded to light touches on the bottom of his foot. All good signs that with anti-inflammatories and rest, the pressure should subside and he can recover within a few weeks. She gave me a sedative for him, some physical therapy exercises to do, and prescribed strict crate rest for a month. So now my day is wake up, get cheddar to eat and drink by making him “puppy soup” (his wet food+ water so he actually gets liquids+ his meds) and then calling my cat near him because he won’t eat unless he thinks someone else wants it, and I have to watch him like a hawk because he’s been meticulously licking AROUND the pills -.- brattyyyy boy. Then I put him in his stroller 3-4 times a day and waddle around holding the handle on his harness so there’s no weight on his back legs while he does his business (sometimes this involves me setting him on FOUR DIFFERENT GRASS PATCHES til he decides a spot is good enough -.- he’s driving me crazy). His back problem is turning into MY back problem. I feel like I look like some crazy lady, everyone thinks he’s so cute in the stroller and I’m just like >___> yes I know but also he’s disabled rn I’m not just being a Portland weirdo. Especially sus when I’m holding his harness and he starts trying to run himself to the next grass patch so it looks like I’m hovering over this able-bodied dog, when in reality he’s just doped up and thinks he can still walk but would absolutely eat shit if I let go lol. Anyway. I’m beat. But hopeful! He starts acupuncture again next week so fingers crossed it goes just as well. I finally cleaned my house and myself and did my hair...(that’s a whole other story I haven’t been able to tell you guys, but I will when I get it fixed.) I plan on recording 4 of my full-lengths this weekend and making feed content daily for the next few days to get back in the swing and entertain you all :’3 maybe a live stream too? I gotta get comfy in front of the camera again and that usually helps because I’m being hyped-up in real time 🙈 Anyway, thanks for reading if you did💗 I spam now uwu