Hey guys, I suck. I see people have come and gone since I've..

Hey guys, I suck. I see people have come and gone since I've really been posting. I will get back to posting regularly again, if you wanna unsubscribe and resub when I come back, shoot me a message! As I'll do that for people. I don't wanna delete my account, as I will be coming back, so I don't know how to get people to not sub, until I am back. I was thinking of raising the price to an enormous enough of an amount that no one in their right minds would subscribe. I have all these ideas and what I want to do, and get a following enough to live off of. BUT...During this quarantine, my life has turned upside down. I lost my job during, but I also lost it for after, so I'm jobless. My sister decided go move out from living with me, with no notice - we had a falling out and haven't spoken since, that was a MASSIVE blow to my whole life for so many reasons. She was paying the bills. So, she left me with no job, and an apartment with all the bills to myself. Ichabod got sick right after, to the point that I've been syringe feeding him for the past month just to keep him alive. He still had to go to the vet, $366 later... which is half of my rent. He is still sick, I'm still syringe feeding him, 4-5 times a day, I'm so tired. During that, my uncle has been diagnosed with brain and lung cancer, advanced enough that he opted out of Chemo, and was given a few weeks, to a few months to live. He's been with my Aunt for over 30 years. My whole life and family is a mess, I'm exhausted and depressed and because of that, lost all of my libido. And it's funny, because I need money the most, and this is where the money is, yet I can't find the right time and mind frame to make it come to life like I want it to.