Sinning Saint ~ The clouds are my home, my sanctuary. But st..
Added 2022-07-26 08:11:15 +0000 UTCSinning Saint ~ The clouds are my home, my sanctuary. But still, I always felt like I didn't truly belong here.. There is something missing. Everything up here makes perfect sense, we all live in harmony and everyone seems to know who they are and what they're supposed to do, except me.. No matter how hard I try, I never seem to reach the same level of happiness as the other Angels. They know this, and I feel like they're judging me for it as well. Just like my, as they put it, 'obsession' with humanity. I don't think i'm obsessed with them at all, I just have great admiration for them. They live such short lives, go through incredible transformations and heartships. There is so much to learn from them. So much i'd love to experience with them, besides them. When I look down from the sky upon humanity I feel so much love. If they cry I want to comfort them, take them in my arms and close my wings around them to shield them from suffering. But i'm not allowed to interfere, or leave Heaven at all. This saddens me greatly, but I did notice some humans have a peculiar way to cope with their emotions. Well, most humans actually. They, seek each others comfort by.. performing certain carnal acts involving lots of moaning and grunting. I have no idea why they do it, or why those sounds are produced as they perform this odd ritual. But I can't help being curious.. What is it that drives humans to do this? There are so many variations as well it's hard to understand the order, if there is any at all? Sometimes it's just two humans, sometimes more, sometimes a lot, and sometimes there's just one. Seeing as how the humans react, I assume they experience great joy. But that is also not always the case. So I really don't know what to make of it. Seeing them doing this, sometimes gives me a tingling feeling, it spreads from my thighs to my inner thighs, sometimes it even feels like i'm getting wet. But how? And why? What is this weird fluid that gets into my panties when I look at humans performing their strange ritual? I have no awnsers and i'm afraid to ask the other Angels about it. I don't want them to judge me even more. So, I suppose the best thing to do, is just to keep looking.. I don't interfere with the humans, but they make me feel happy and I feel like i'm still a part of what they're doing. Even if they don't know I exsist.
