You have to keep fighting for yourself and it can be an ever..

You have to keep fighting for yourself and it can be an ever-tormenting battle. You need to make time for your hobbies. You need time to be passionate about what interests you. You need to make time to sit in silence. You need to make time to reward, love, and appreciate yourself. And just like most of us, I have a terrible habit of giving my time away. I’ve often thought back to the peak of my self-photography days and find myself reminiscing over the deep self-discovery I had gone through. I miss that woman and I admire the courage I had. Life has taken me away from creating the art I love and that's okay. I believe we always circle back to a path we're meant to travel. I admit that I changed somewhere along the way and I find myself longing for the familiarity and comfort of that woman learning to love her body. Pursuing SG created some bad habits and my focus slowly drifted from images based in art to sex-driven photos and that's not what I want to be known for. My art was never meant to stray from my vision, it wasn’t about the recognition and never about sex. The true art is much deeper than the image, the real beauty comes from the journey itself. Loving myself outward allowed me to be able to connect deeper within. I made a home for myself in that space. I grew into this skin and bloomed, completely naked and unafraid. I want to come back and travel that familiar path again and I know I will. I miss loving myself and I miss the small community I had with my followers. I believe healing myself starts with learning to love my body again. I can't say when I'll be able to take photos; I still have some work to do and a lack of adequate space and funds, but I’m working my way back. I have to, I owe it to myself. I love the support I have here and the patience you've shown me. You all mean the world to me!