Hi my Only Fans. I can’t imagine what number were on now for..

Hi my Only Fans. I can’t imagine what number were on now for the amount of times I’ve apologised and asked my fans to be patient with me and that I’m going to be posting and making lots of new Content so to watch this space... The truth?.. I’m not ok I’m far from it in fact. I’ve been hit like I’ve had a ton of bricks fall on my head. Depression/Panic attacks/ Anxiety/are my labels right now and I’m desperately trying to peel those labels off and get better. I made the wrong choices in my quest for wellness. Isolation/drug use self medicating/ self harm/ self destruction. They don’t work! So I’m here . Vunerable, stripped bare and practically day one. If I have upset anyone I’m sorry. I need your love and support and I’m going to pull up my socks dust myself off stop feeling sorry that the world owes me and fix up to the best standard I can. Then I’ll move the goal Posts and continue. Guys sometimes you need to listen to other people I know tablets are not for me but drugs certainly aren’t. I have to watch my little boy wake everyday to the man who abused me and him and I have not been awake to stop it and I haven’t done my best to either . I’ve realised only you can change the path your on in life and it’s down to the question” is this my excuse or do I really want to get well?” My voice has to be heard now otherwise I’m not only letting him win on destroying me but also my little boy to. I’ve made progression today and I can already see things changing and I’m overwhelmed by the support. Day 1 . JUST BECAUSE YOUR BREATHING DOESN'T MEAN YOUR ALIVE??!! My saying... I now want to add. No it doesn’t but your breathing Jamie, so that’s a bloody good start. Please continue to support me I have no promises I don’t want to not keep but I have the will to keep going in my heart and I’m going to post real real from now on. Warts and all 💋💋