I want to make an actual proper apology for being incredibly..
Added 2021-11-24 16:05:06 +0000 UTCI want to make an actual proper apology for being incredibly inactive. Unfortunately my mindset has been terrible this last while and I’ve been in a really bad depressive rut. I’ve had no motivation to make content as I’m unhappy with my body. I’ve also found I’m REALLY struggling financially and OF is not working with me regarding the money you guys have so graciously gifted me. It’s been collecting and saving up and so far it’s a decent amount of money that I could easily use to pay medical aid, rent and buy food with for one month. My father pays my rent, but if I don’t find a job or somehow get money by the end of January then he’s going to stop paying my rent. To put it truthfully, I’ve got R5 ($0,31, £0,24, €0,28) in my bank account with no actual ability to get a job. It’s end of year, no one is hiring and even if they are I have no way of getting to and from work (no driver’s license or car, nor money for Uber or bus), which is a massive issue. All of this combined into one has seriously put a damper on my spirit in regards to life. The only thing so far keeping me going is my boyfriend. If it weren’t for him coming into my life at the time he has, and not to put an insane amount of pressure on him here, I would have ended it all weeks ago. I know that’s seems stupidly dramatic for my situation but, yeah. I just thought I’d let you guys in on what’s been happening lately with me and why I haven’t posted. I really hope to get back into the swing of things eventually, but right now it’s a struggle. Thank you to those who’ve stuck with me from the start and continue to support me until today, you guys are seen and I appreciate you being here.
