SUCCESS!! Thanks to @emmy_fun buying me new toys, I've been ..
Added 2022-02-01 21:56:36 +0000 UTCSUCCESS!! Thanks to @emmy_fun buying me new toys, I've been able to explore a new aspect of pleasure, my G-spot! As you may know, having an orgasm isn't easy for me due to sexual trauma. It's uncomfortable to explore my yoni, and quite frankly, traumatic. I am over the numbness that has been my default for years, and I've been slowly, but surely, taking my power back. The first time I used this intimidating-ass toy, I ended up in tears because no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't find pleasure in the experience. I felt broken. I've tried a couple times since then, and each time has been a little easier and more pleasurable, but I didn't fully finish. I'm not saying that sex is about the orgasm, because it's most definitely not, but it has been the goal for me in this practice. Today, it took me about an hour of meditation and tuning into my body. Being gentle and patient with my yoni to feel comfortable enough to let me explore her. While listening to meditative tribal music, I kept imagining me in my full Goddess expression; powerful, limitless, uninhibited, and pure ✨MAGIC✨. Till finally, I💥EXPLODED🤯‼️💦💦 And what a fucking RELEASE it was! I closed out my session with stillness. Just being in that abundant, high frequency energy, while imagining my deepest desires raining down on me. Today, I am feeling on top of the world, and like the sexy, badass woman I know I am.
