monday's mornings are usually miiiineeee, all mine. i wanna ..
Added 2022-04-12 01:49:03 +0000 UTCmonday's mornings are usually miiiineeee, all mine. i wanna soak them up and restore deeplyyy into relaxation. feel calm, centered bliiiiss within every cell of my body. today was different though... we have been birthed into a society that values so deeply the d o i n g that we learn to base our sense of self off of this. i didnt get much work done this weekend, there was so much going on and i just wanted to be in the moment... but ughh the frenzied guilt seettt innn. "you could have done more.. pushed harder... woken up earlier... stayed up later..." i clearly struggle with work~life balance very much, my inner:voice is yelling at me... "heyyy... please be nice to me. i am your friend. i am doing the best i can" 🥺 my overwhelm was only continued at the gym, with glitchy apps and my class not streaming, and then deciding to work instead of taking the time and space for myself. it's so much easier for me to set aside time for others. i want to practice honoring my time with myself... amidst the overwhelm, frenzied guilt, loud thoughts of my mind... i finally took control. i dropped everything, went into the courtyard and lay on the grass.. feeling the warmth of our goddess gaia comforting my womb, and finally... took a beautiful afternoon nap, mmmm. coming back to nature is coming back to our home. eye am so grateful for the healing energies of mama earth. restoring us back to balance. harmony. equilibrium. our natural, cosmic goodness. 💫 i am learning that each time i choose myself, i can better serve others. it's not selfish to take time to enjoy life, it's why we're here.
